Art

Save Me

2012-02-12T15:10:00.002+08:00

400+ entries of my past has been deleted, oh well, perhaps these memories are met to be removed from the start. if that part of my life wasnt productive, unwanted, why bother reading them and flashback them again. all it reminds me is all the hatred from everyone, childish me and mature schoolmates, or mature me and immature schoolmates. it doesnt matter anymore, shouldnt let the past refrain me from going forward.

perhaps i should stop lying. all the deception are failing, people dont get it, nope they dont.

thanks for the calling, thank you for your attention. prove me wrong, invest your soul

Birdy Update

2012-02-04T14:58:00.002+08:00

Will post a video on current update of Birdy soon, theres some changes to how the electric projectile and fire element speed. in addition i have not shown the earth projectile. I also made some exp bar and hp, added bosses also. I also fixed a few part such as killing the boss will automatically go to next level. im still thinking if i should make monsters that attacks instead of clashing onto main player

Lost One

2011-12-16T08:41:00.002+08:00

Back from the US trip. It started on 26/11 to 14/12 This exercise has been posted in ST, FYI, this and this

Day 1
Gonna elaborate a bit about the stay there. The night before was my senior ording day, kinda sad that i couldnt make it thought i think i could but i just want to rest and spend more time at home. Typical feeling, worried because im the only junior there and unsure what might happen. Somemore im flying alone this time, definitely scared, like what if i miss the flight or got lost etc. I just practically follow everywhere people i know is cdo or familiar faces. >10hr flight is nothing but torture. just when i thought 4hrs is long enough, this is even worst. when i reach narita, i began looking around what i could get back home, i swear the snacks looks awesome. then flew to LA. i ate mac breakfast, worrying that i wont have enough money, i ate a simple hotcake and apple juice for freaking 4bucks HAHA! then explore around, saw this club thingy. the awkward feeling when i ask the person what is this place for because im searching for wifi area HAHA. damn funny. then reach phoenix. we took bus to our inn. first thing that shocked me was the freaking huge cactus haha, i thought its supposed to be human size! its freaking tree height! so cool! then i missed my dinner because i didnt know they went out to dinner without calling me :( end up the logistic guy was around and he called them to get me dinner.

Day 2
Pretty much of unloading stuff. then lunch we went to subway. awesome footlong sub, freaking cant finish it and i saved it for the next day haha. then at night they are nice enough to bring us to walmart to get some groceries. awesome, freaking spend like 22bucks. trying to be spendthrift, because who knows how much i will spend that day. then we ate at some chinese restaurant which has Hawaii theme. lol funny enough, the portion is freaking huge! hahahaa omg freaking have to shove food into my mouth. it get insanely sick with the same taste for some time.

day 3
hahah some funny shit happened in the morning. in the morning like 6.15 i was preparing my breakfast. i went to microwave my subway sub. it smells awesome, i swear if you have chance to heat it up, please do because it smells better and taste better. then i was thinking, maybe warm cookie smells and taste better too. i went to microwave it. less than a minute, the cookie melted and smoked. im like wtf, quickly stopped it. and its too late, it emitted smoke and sad enough, the smoke detector was above me. it was activated and everyone was called to go out and execute a fire drill. i told the person was a false alarm and ask if they can just off it. they said no, need to execute the drill, kan pua sian max. then damn paiseh, woke many people up hahaha :( rest of the day become the joke of the day and got called cookie monster :( later that day, we went to luke ab to take rest of our stores. also shopped there, they have some tax free department store called BX. bought my oakley spects there as they said its cheaper here. awesome! then we went back to the chinese restaurant for dinner.

day 4
they have some prep for their ex for morning. then afternoon went to arizona mills, doc and i was like wow 4th day and we are r&r-ing haha. bought levis and some simple dinner.

day 5
due to difference in schedule, i followed another group at night. we went nearby for groceries and dinner. its some italian restaurant, ate pizza and bun and drank their beer. then the bun was quite a lot, so it became my next day's breakfast! hahah

days 6
we went to outlets at anthem. freaking cool place too, a lot factory outlets here. awesome haha. ate chinese food again, haha trying hard not to get sick of western food. didnt went to coach store because i was expecting it to be damn expensive. end up joining doc went to those boutique shop to get clothes. after that we went to a japanese restaurant named tomo, because the waitress is damn cute. haha undeniably true.

day 7
cant remember what happened, it says 12 dollars dinner and 8 dollar groceries. oh well cant remember haha

day 8
in and out burger! its quite good food, they said the food is fresh thats why. not even once frozen. probably thats why. not preserved = good food but high cost. because no sales = wastage. interesting, confident that they will sell everything. they said if they sell everything within that day, they will close early. naice haha. then followed them to casino, didnt gamble, just went there to see see look look

day 9
went to nearby restaurant named space age. its a western restaurant, quite good and the portion is quite big. haha

day 10
went to luke for some cohesion games day. ate a 4 dollar breakfast. then doc made me play basketball. damn cui la, i cant play basketball one lols. the team is good la, end up we defeated one team, becoming second haha. though i did nothing but running up and down. then went bx to get sis base and perfume. then we went anthem again! woot! got coach stuff for both sis, passport holder for myself. doc was like if they cant decide on themselves, how do you pick for them. haha i jitao humtum based on their preference hahah.

day 11
ihop breakfast! not bad, i got the cinnamon pancake. actually i wanted to try waffle haha. damn. then half of the group went to gamble. then my half went to mills for last round shopping. went to get more shirts. ended like 4pm then we went to walmart for last stockup and dinner that there.

last few days didnt record down what we did but practically we covered for the training and we had a lunch at luke. then we also went casino again at near by. then last day we went to anthem for final shopping. wanted to get a coach messenger bag but then again its kinda small for laptop so didnt get one.

flew back alone again, since doc is extending his tour in us. quickly bought some jap snacks before boarding the plane again. thats all <3

in between the days i always been thinking one thing, am i living out of my parents expectation or my expectation.

Pew pew pew

2011-11-19T09:31:00.003+08:00

ok this is my last week progress. me is flying next week and no time to do much update tomorrow. so i will put on hold until im back. as u can see a few elements are there

spritesheets are made. 2 of them are ripped off from gif, which i gonna redo since the animation has no transparency, causing black outline around it.

then comes to different modes of element. different element has different style of firing. fire is straight. ice is a star. lightning is zig zag which i want to rethink about it. i want to make earth element circular which isnt easy, because its based on a centre point and a rotation point.

update, just completed the zig zag lightning element. when u spam it, it looks like a lightning ray or a dna model. nice. last one. earth element!

as you can see from the video, different element has different attribute

fire does aoe dmg to enemey around
ice slows the enemy by 1/4
lightning knockbacks enemy by 30pixels
earth will then does 2dmg instead of usual 1

birdy birdyyyyyyyy

2011-11-13T17:24:00.002+08:00

been working my birdy project. uh its quite well done i must say, i have done with the element firing part, leaving the earth element some rework, because the animation is too simple the firing style needs to be different.

things that i have also completed such as the AOE dmging from fire attack, mini knockback from lightning shock, directional firing instead of mundane straight shooting. bouncing back of projectile.

after im done with the earth i will think about revising the leveling of element part. u see if taking one power up totally erases the current element, then it makes it totally ridiculous, so i want it to be like one powerup that slowly increases the level. or through experience it ownself level up. then the more you give up on killing the bird, it will cut down on your level. then the element power up is for you to change as and when you want to try different style of playing.

next i will also make a charging power, like when you keep killing with same element, or something else. this charging point will increase until you can release it as a final nuke when u need it. then this final nuke is like a kick ass nuke. i thought of the fire one which is firing a phoenix and go through every muthafuka and it has hp of eg 200. so everytime it collide with enemy, enemy 10hp = 0hp, nuke = 190. so until it dies or flew out of the screen. and so on. perhaps ice one i will freeze everyone in the screen etc. ok look forward to end project, uh, will post a view of this week progress next week.

Flickering

2011-09-05T10:14:00.007+08:00

_{ice inside my soul?}

woo ahm finished! its quite surprising that 21km runners are much more healthier than 10 and 5km runners. shocking :o i swear i gonna try marathon if i have a chance :D seems fun omgs. so many people!

DESKTOP CLEAN UP!

URGH MESS. DAMN!

it takes few minutes of work to sort them out. yawn, organized ftw yo!

now my wife desktop!

another messed up shit! RAWR~!

POOF. SORT OUT MAX, now i gonna implement something onto my desktop. rainmeter!
what is that? its like a program has shortcuts to most of the stuff. then it has the feel of a normal tablet. umm if you know how to do it, it can be damn cool!

POOF. wins

since that day, possession of Doomie:RF has changed from 1:9 to 3:7. probably its to weaken the desperation for love and heighten my greed for power

interesting, gonna try google calendar. good to have a calendar somewhere. probably i can link to my phone when i change it. mmm

Looking Back

2011-08-28T17:11:00.013+08:00

let me teach you some daily life calculation!
scenario: theres this bus-stop with 2 buses which you want to board. assuming mean interval of 1 bus is 15minutes. these 2 buses can come at any interval. frequency of passengers come to bus-stop come in constant X/minute.

so obviously when you come to the bus-stop, the minimum time you needed to wait is 0minutes, i.e. the bus comes when you have reached the bus-stop. so what is the maximum time you have to wait?
15minutes <- highlight

some might think, why isnt it 7.5mins. because these 2 buses are non-influential to another. means that you can come and the you have to freaking wait for full timing and both buses come

thats no im trying to drive at. something even deeper. imagine you are walking to the bus-stop and a bus just went off with a lot people. what does it means? high chances that it means that it is the first bus that just went off, second bus will becoming soon.

vice versa, if you saw a bus with less people. it means that it is the second bus, the first bus probably went of before that, so you have to wait even longer.

in addition, the number of passenger waiting at the bus-stop can help you gauge too. because sometimes bus doesnt go when you have reached. so for instance the bus-stop has a lot people, it probably means bus is coming. quite clear cut for this part. mmm

This is pretty much a spin off from a neopet game. so im making it more complex and maybe more fun in certain ways. its totally from scratch. i think so far its the 5th day of programming and graphic design. very satisfied by the animation. which i will add more in. been coding using case and switch which i usually dont. seems like its quite useful too. for now attack has no cool down which i will add in later, or maybe i shouldnt mmmm

Deadpan

2011-07-29T11:30:00.013+08:00

not a typical me to listen to chinese songs but.

lets try something. Let me invoke suggestion into your thinking. 1 action 3 scenario, different suggestion. Imagine this scenario, you are on the bus, sitting on a two sitter. the bus is full, so this stranger came to sit beside you.

what immediately came into your mind when

1) there is an empty two sitter is infront of him and he gets up and sit there

2) there is 1 empty seat beside it was his friend, he gets up and sit with his friend

3) there is 1 empty seat beside a total stranger, he gets up and sit with this guy he doesnt know

lemme answer your initial thoughts

1) probably he just wants to be alone
2) probably he just wants to sit with his friend
3) probably something wrong with yourself, like body odour, etc.

3 scenario, 1 action but it shapes our thinking

another round?

1) same gender sits beside you

2) old person sits beside you

3) this really good looking opposite sex sits beside you

answers?

1) probably short of seats
2) probably for his safety
3) probably she likes you

interesting isnt it? even if the whole intention was to sit down can shape one's thinking.

sadly two of my good pals are out of ocs. sadly man, minor negligence causing them to ooc. was looking forward to see everyone in every unit doing well. no worries marcus and edwin, i have achieve mine lol!

woo my sox progress quite well. it like more fun than any shit i played online! lolol damn it. thou it sucks but its quite an entertainment when it comes to later level. LOL!

Does it scares you if i tell you i have turned mature when im 11?

if we ever cross blade again, i will show you my true dominance presence.
Gate 2, lets go

Adverse Effect

2011-02-12T21:49:00.005+08:00

people used to say, one who gone through army will change for good. they will become mature, etc. longer i stay here, the more i believe this phrase is a lie. when one is conform to rules, there will be 2 outcomes. one who scares will obey and one who is stronger will challenge the rules. and once the rule has been lifted, 2 outcomes will appear again. one will still follow the rules, and one will totally stop following the rules. and i believe we follow the rules at start because we dont want to get into trouble and now we stopped because he got sick of being overruled. and this concept is very common in my generation. people become educated and want freedom, hence being controlled for too long will make them want to be rebellious. we are forced to do area cleaning, sweeping, clean toilet and such, and you really believe in future these people they will continue to do that? to great extend it is a no. even myself after going in, i being to see more bad habits and personalities growing inside me. i have became lazy because the culture here is if you can avoid just avoid. i have became slightly bad tempered because of all the selfish fuckers around.

got 2 specialist letters LOL! but stupid thing both is in april, so its a bit too long so i have to endure a bit. even so it will take some time for me to get out of here since they had to do some testing to see if mine is genuine case. then i will be going taiwan this march 11 to april 5 for some "mission". so just nice its after the trip. i told my csm my skin condition and he said hes ok to give me admin stuff to do which im very glad to help out :D

had a quarrel with my sis over the weekend over me wanting to ooc from cdo.

they said im just trying to run away and trying to get easy way out.

say that i didnt really think over it.

say that i had gone through 8 months of training and i left with a few months to accomplish "my goals".

say that previously i also complained that training is tough yet i still went through it.

saying im just undergoing peer pressure.

that some of the things that said was true.

yes im trying to get easy way out, but easy way out with no loss or gain. if i down pes, my reservist period can be even shorter than here.

nope i have thought about it very long, too long, else i wont be intj

long decided this red piece of cloth means nothing to me at all. i dont care about the glory shit at all. ultimately this isnt my goal, it is what they want me to achieve

definitely said previous is tough but this is nothing compared to this, its like climbing 1 whole fleet of stairs with 1 step.

totally no peer pressure, this is really what i want

my sis bf being ex-cdo said this will eventually end but back then his was very different from ours. our schedule is really really fucked up. and life doesnt even after you get the red cloth, the shit still continue flowing down. i told my sis this, you nv undergo what we are going through, you wont understand why i decide to take this step. then she said, yes true but i see no reason why you want to give up so quickly. then she continued with saying she knew that i am one guy very different from rest, always spend time doing productive things unlike the rest always game. seriously that was a lie -.-, even if i do self learning like programming, design, how skillful am i in both field? not even good compared to the rest. so i tell them, if i 2nd month wanted to leave, wont you give me reason like you havent try already want to give up. in this place, many things people say aint reliable and accurate, just go for what you believe is correct. in this place, everyone is selfish, everyone do things for themselves and hoping for things to happen. in this place, the name we are called, to us its not a big deal, the red piece of cloth is just an overrated piece of cloth.

let me show you the underlying cards. the true rational behind leaving here. i can go leader if my heart is strong, i know definitely i can endure 2 years with that meaningless red cloth. fate said i wont die until i had accomplish my task. before i went in, i told myself this, im staying here not for myself, but her. but things happened and i had to give up. its really very tough to fight without a reason. even if not for her, it has to be replaced with someone who is as qualified as her. i see no point in trying so hard already. anyway i think leaving here gives me time to do productive planning than ending up with nothing. plan for my future success, still i dont want study but start a business that will be a big hit.

NTU choices
1: Business and computing (DD)
2: Mathematical Science
3: Computer Science
4: Business and computer engineering (DD)
5: Psychology
previously my sis told me i can consider arts sch but then some worries like i can only apply on that year itself, making it as a gamble. if that year i didnt get in that when i come out i have totally nothing to do. so i was thinking maybe i should just try applying for something in uni first and see how it goes.

Marksman

2011-02-03T08:06:00.008+08:00

totally exhausted by this week's training though its just 2.5 days only. this week we went for atp/marksman test. we continued even thou its rained and it has been raining 3 days straight, so the damn lot puddle of water. i think the difficulty of this test is the morning one as it involves running 100m inbetween each rounds. hence even applying holding breath technique before shooting is hard, it will still fray your concentration. luckily my rifle was quite zeroed so i didnt waste much time. did a few retest, thought i gonna fail and almost wanted to give up. passing marks is 39/48

Stage A:
1st try - 16/24
2nd try - 16/24

super fed up by 2nd re-shoot, i thought i will do better.

Stage B:
1st try - 6/8
2nd try - 8/8

total = 24/32. so it means i only can miss 1 on the last stage. i was super pressurize because many people did well. and i thought i cant make it already so im on the verge of giving up

Stage C:
1st try - 8/16
so im like wa fuck then i asked my friend to lend me his rifle since my laser isnt zeroed
2nd try - 11/16
so im like ok i need to calm down next one i might have a chance since its quite accurate and no running involved.
3rd try - 15/16

i almost full marks! and i missed that because i forgot to cock my rifle then no rounds inside then i press trigger end up nothing out. so i had to let that target go. damn scared i will miss everything behind because i already missed my only shot. so i told myself not to be complacent. when returning i was hoping it was really 15 and it did. another badge on me. im gonna treat my family for a meal with the money!

i have made up my mind to leave here, gonna see doctor this weekend and get letter to see specialist. let me do some breakdown of the benefit and cost:
+ more pay
+ try things that people cant?
+ some honorable shit that people thinks
- slowly lose contact with family
- slowly lose contact with friends
- bye saturday
- high injury rate
- torture yourself
- application of these skills to daily life is low

if i replan my time to learning instrument, going for courses, do more things i like, more freedom, do self training, do things i like :

+ maybe 8-5?
+ more contact with family
+ more contact with friends
+ upperhand against everyone since i accomplish some academic stuff
- lower pay

nowadays everyone's mentality have changed. who cares if you do something others cant? so what if it is honorable? is it even edible? not saying my mind is weak, i can do it i know i can. but i dont feel accomplished staying here and unfair treatment. they say i can start my career this year, by partnering with an opposite gender will prosper my business too. mmm interesting

sometimes i believe horoscope is a hoax. i kinda think that it is because people read and act the way it was written there, that is why sometimes some of the content doesnt applies to you. remember reading a book, they called it imprint. print inside your mind, causing you to act the way. and when you read it, you immediately relate to events that is the same as what is written, so you will end up saying it is true. i believe human is uniform when born, but it is many other elements around them causing him/her to be the way they are.

haiz fuck, hate being single. every week i have to see people girlfriend bring his bf to book in, see them call their gf. sometimes photo in their wallet. all i have rotten luck. fate is playing with me. fuck ~_~

Blank

2010-12-17T21:21:00.013+08:00

just give up

did something when im bored

Demonic Disposition

2010-12-11T11:24:00.007+08:00

hell gonna start soon. hi iba, hi rifle, and hi extrassssssssss D:

some thoughts about the book i have been reading
chapter 1 relativity: its very interesting that how human mind straight away assume value of items for example 3 items in relative of its benefits. and how (B-) makes (B) look better it should be. and the concept of how human will tend to ignore factors that they could not compare, i.e. (A) (B-) and (B), causing lower chances of being selected. i think its a useful technique to clear unwanted stocks. in the example it gave this example of 3 houses, 2 of which is same theme. between these 2, one of them is slightly rundown. hence, human tend to pick the better one. however i kinda thought that that is if when everything is favorable. meaning when no other factors will affect their decision, such as budget, accessibility, etc. else in simple scenario, this concept definitely rule.

chapter 2: demand and supply, very interesting topic. talks about how imprints or anchor affect our judgments. its just like me giving u a number, then after that i ask you to gauge the price of a product. and shockingly, the price will not deviate much from the number i gave you. its like the number has printed in your mind causing you to stay near it. later it also talk about how habits become a constant chain of your purchases. and why is product differentiation powerful.

chapter 3: the word "free" seems more powerful than you think. greed is one powerful 8 deadly sin i must say. human by nature cannot doesnt like to lose and likes benefits. one of the experiment he did was selling 2 chocolate, A(better grade) at 15cent and B(lower grade) at 1cent. so the result was A became top choice. but when both price is reduced by 1cent, i.e. B becomes free, B immediately became top choice. both as reduced by 1cent but the result changed so much. then he explains, when purchasing there is benefit(product) and loss(payment). but when it becomes free, it total eradicate the loss, making you think its the best decision. i think its the very smart concept. and he also did an experiment on trading, if people would give up something for something better. although it sounds stupid, like how is it possible, if you are rational, definitely you will not make such mistakes, but when such situation are placed onto you, you will end up giving away opportunities. this chapter is damn cool lol

chapter 4: social norms. he explained theres 2 worlds we are living. social and market norm. market = transactions whereas social = things are done out of gratitude. he then did experiments on doing task out of gratitude and for money. and shockingly social norm dominates. its like working for money, when you are underpaid, you felt unjust and you tend to put in lesser effort. but when you are doing out of goodwill, you tend want to help him/her with more effort, and the thought of reward isnt there. another topic that i have nothing to argue, absolutely true in my perception.

chapter 5: this is one chapter that i want to talk more. its about how we are "arouse" for which the author uses arouse to signify an emotion when human no longer in control or thinking improperly. for instance, when you are in a stage of rage, how will your decision deviate when you are in neutral/"cold state".

i have been thinking about this concept before reading this book before. actually my thought of this is slightly different: when interpreting yin-yang i separate it half and concluded this theory of every evil-doers has good heart. and good heart has evil heart too. in short nothing is perfect, nothing is absolute evil nor good. and i believe human has 2 conscious. main and subconscious. this subconscious are binded by 7 sins. for which, maybe you are think back what is the tendency of your subconscious isnt ruled by any of the sins. and when you loses your "cold state", you are slowly possessed by your subconscious which i would like to call it demonic disposition. dont you think you are possessed? like when you are angry, how do you knock yourself off from the thought? when you are sad, how do you stabilize yourself? definitely some of the sins requires more effort to bring you back to "cold state". you need to calm yourself down. in fact, in many situation, you need 2nd party, to wake you up, that is when they will strike conscious into you, knock your subconscious out. and i believe, it when subconscious become too strong, when it possess you so much that trouble happens, violence, depression, suicidal.

later part of the chapter, he stresses how different "we think we will be" and "we will be" and talked about how should we prevent ourselves go into these states. one is getting used to being in that state and try to pull urself back, another is prevention. prevention is better than cure. my way of doing is, train yourself to be cool headed all the times. before going into these state, always take not just 2 steps, but many many steps back. see overall picture, is he/she trying to irk you to make you irrational, what is the reason for this and that. after you see it, you will understand many situation there is no reason to be in these states. but what if one day you entered into such state, then usually its very hard to cool urself down. it is when you need to understand urself better, what strike conscious into yourself, making you to wake up. i found own way to waking myself up, guilt. it totally pulls me back to neutral level.

theres more to the book, but this is how much i have completed so far, but believe i might not have that much time to read it considering that my training gonna start soon. but many these concepts aligned and reinforces what i know and believe. it makes me even more good at reasoning people's action, in fact even more of what they were thinking. somehow its like reading university notes lol! and yes, i can read some of your minds.

if im were to conduct an experiment, maybe i will work on defense. when everyone was young, we are very naive, hence we have no defenses. but as we grow up, when distrust slowly grow into you, the defense tighten. so i might want to see in what situation when one is totally vulnerable and when one heighten their defense.

fate told me to draw a line to everything, else i will be in cloud of confusion forever. yes i do need it. in fact i need to bring my conscious back, cant let my subconscious take over me

Arbitrary

2010-12-04T15:09:00.003+08:00

ippt! pretty much the same, all 5 except for running. 5 seconds improvement though( i just cant fucking run >_>). kinda wanted to max out pull up but being the last station, kinda worn out, but still i managed to burst 10 compared to previous 8-9. niceeeeee

sadly my hell training gonna start soon

common misconception: people just dont understand why are we selected. we are selected because we are healthy and generally higher iq. we are not selected because we are fit. else they could have gotten body builder. they said, not fit we can train. its the later part that we become fucking fit.

remember weeks ago i was complaining some special treatment my "buddy" received. then last week my buddy said hey perhaps you need to practice harder, like the head to toe say fluently so that you seems more profession and confident. then i was thinking you are just lucky la, my turn will come. indeed it came. this week we had another test and he didnt managed to say out fluently. i think he did poorly than me LOL! i fucking say the head to toe fluently that the instructor let me skip after doing the 3rd part ROFL! and the fucking head to toe i took 1 night to memorise only LOL when he take 1 week. come on la LOL, if i really play serious, you dont even stand a chance. sometimes its just so fun that people dont know your background, people just think that you are ordinary.

ironically i used to hate reading but until i saw books on concept that kinda draw me back. though i just completed 2 chapters but it talks about very interesting concepts and experiments conducted on human decision making. it talks about how the market and people around manipulate human thoughts in decision making.

psychology is interesting but its not easy to apply. sometimes i just wish that i could alter everyone's thinking but it's almost impossible. all you can do is to guide a small group step by step to conform to what you want

certain times i think guys is one fucked up gender. it's either fucking good or fucking fucked up. fucking good one always been underrated. fucked up ones are fucking retarded. which reminds me of this scenario i saw last week. i was shopping at ntuc, then i saw this family with kids, then the wife was fucking pissed off at the husband( age probably 30+?) for buying xbox360 games. seriously, like seriously, how old are you and you are still gaming? rike wa da fa? i can seriously imagine him playing games infront of tv, abandoning the whole family -.-

Fate gave me 3 cards
first card is covered with rust, almost impossible to revert it's original form
second card is a shadow casted by an invisible card, exist but soul of the card isnt there.
third card is made of water, can be seen but not grabbed.

D:

2010-11-17T18:40:00.004+08:00

old photo spotted somewhere. niceeeeeeeeeee thumbs up for sp

been continuing my sox project. did some restructuring of oop but then of course i still couldnt solve some of the stuff but i managed to form a formula for directional multiplier.
LETS SEE: multiplier = _{[(|Pi -|YourDirection - OpponentDirection|| / (Pi/2)) / 2 + 1]}
definitely it can be simplified further but its easier to understand this way. in short, if you are facing 180 and your opponent is behind you and also facing at 180, hitting you will do 2* usual dmg. reason for Pi is because its in radian than usual degrees. so im redoing many stuff. copy and pasting some of the codes but side effect of course is not understanding what i did in the past

went back to find my old sp client game for files. been trying very hard to unzip it. and finally i did but wdf the file is in another rare format. give up and suck thumb, oh wells at least the sounds arent zipped.

defying 3 laws:
Conscious makes me king
Impracticality: All i see are zombies
Too much discipline on contacts with girls

_{DAI RIAOS. gg! dont want to do airborne!}

almost completed my 3rd book in planning, ranging from Art of War, Chinese 36 Stratagems. somehow it revolves around same few concepts:
1) Opportunity - strike when the time is right. When striking, hit their weak point
2) Deception - Lie to defend or to attack e.g. look strong to scare opponent, look weak to trick opponent.
3) Planning - Minimum input: maximum output. e.g. borrowing power, using opponent power to destroy itself, etc.
it becomes very handy even simple games like cheat, whereby acting confusion makes opponent you are bluffing.

Like an Excalibur, only one wields it

bitach!

2010-11-13T15:22:00.008+08:00

irony of life. when you regretted for the first time and told yourself not to let second time go away. and now you are using the first reason to get away the second chance. doomie you suck

WA DE FUA? suck thumb!

weeee got 44/50 for 2nd theory. on par with 2 other people being the highest in my platoon. funny thing was i dont even have notes! WIN

went back for ippt. wooo i swear my physical are back :D
pull up 12
sbj 250
situp 45
shutter 9.9
2.4km 10.47
and pull up i swear i can hit 16 if i do with full power. still cant run fast <_>

so much things happened in the camp, so many of my ex bunk mates are oocing. jealous T_T

flashback of the past. how contradicting

Updates

2010-11-06T10:19:00.002+08:00

wooo test result is out! 39/50 for mcq and 87/100 for practical. the mcq isnt easy, the highest for whole company was 45 only, so i did considerably well lol. and the irony is, i did better than or on par with some bio students when i didnt take bio! rike how da fak? so you might think maybe im some geek, putting 200% effort in studying. nah, its not true and never true. true that im not some smart guy of gpa 4.0 or o lvl l1r5 0, because im just lazy to put in effort.

the thing about "memorizing" information, it is like taping a surface. if the first layer you didnt tape well, theres a lot air bubble and creases, when you put second layer, it will also be affect. hence, you need many layers to even out the surface. in short, if your first hand information isnt complete or contains inaccurate information, it will stuck at your brain for some time until you correct it slowly.

i never like memorizing. its like putting files on the desktop, it piles and piles up, and eventually you are confused where are the files you are looking for. and your brain will be your cleaner, over time when it thinks that it is too messy, you will forget them. so people who uses this technique will forget these information weeks after test. instead its much effect you organize your brain "file structure". by saying so, you need to understand the content, and it will stay inside your brain longer. it is like putting files into a folder. so when you need them, you open up the files, and find the information you need.

if you have been using the folder information, theres something even higher level to it. i have achieve it and been using it also. i called it "meta tag". its like a search engine, you search through keywords. so now you dont search information inside the folder, but the whole brain, so when you are trying to pull information on something, it will also pull contents from cross folders. sounds complicated but its not actually. to achieve that, besides understanding the content, you need to interlink this set of information to other information. its just like doing engineering formula then you apply mathematical solutions.

and of course theres no right or wrong way of studying, but theres a difference in effectiveness and efficiency. but of course there are other styles, like photogenic memory and more.

and always study hours before test, its the most crucial time as it is when these information remains near 100% fresh

to me, mcq is always easier than true/false questions. sounds ridiculous right? how can something 25% of getting right be easier than 50%? the thing about t/f questions arent totally about key information in the question, but the whole sentence. so if it has 2 sentences, most people will make assumption that if first part is true and they will skip part 2. hence, you need to proceed with even more cautious. months ago i posted on mcq tricks, here you go!

1) i know this is commonly said but no one take it seriously. its MCQ. means out of 4 choices, definitely one of them bound to the correct one
2) chances of getting the right one is 25%. but in certain situation its more than 25%. have a good habit of striking those definitely wrong so you wont re-hesitate.
3) questions with "none of the above" is your killer. it means you have to evaluate all 3 choices. and it also mean that theres more to it!
4) questions with "all of the above", "all of the above" has highest tendency of getting correct. but in the cases of you knowing one of them is wrong, you can strike it out. so when in doubt, just hack care and pick that
5) hesitation kills you. back in the past where bullshit like 2 answers are given. but you have to evaluation which is more Accurate or bigger scale of truth than another. but this practice slowly disappear. so gut feeling of the first choice is correct. dont fucking bother reading on. it will tempt you.
6) Choices question. like A B only type. this can be quite tricky and easy. look at the trend. if all 4 choices has A then dont bother evaluating it, its correct. next look at which occurrence of other choices. e.g. ABC ABD ACE. so which has higher probability? ABC because B and C occur twice.
7) Warning and confidence - be Confident of your answer. but when you are not, look at the trend in your answer. is it too many straight A? B? C? D?
8) Never leave any question empty. this has been stressed but many people still ignore it. in the cases of no time, spam all of them with same letter. BUT in the case of having deduction for every wrong, dont take the risk when you dont know.
9) Power of mcq - do you know that mcq has helped me a lot at other sections? dont underestimate its power. mcq helps on terminology questions on later sections. and sometimes these terms can help you spell. make use of them.

annoyance! i always do that :P before test, go around saying, shit la no time to study. i think i gonna fail. sian. its a good way to annoy people around LOL, and also it will keep your profile low. even if you know you are bullshitting, just keep annoying them LOL!

http://www.deviantart.com/#/d31xj5t
saw this a few days ago, nice flash content on colouring, gonna spend some time reading it

i dont watch this show but its quite interesting mmm

haiz need to think what to study D:

Why Fate?

2010-10-30T09:19:00.007+08:00

wooooooo i have passed 1 theory and 1 practical test. woo! thou no scores are given but seems like quite a handful of people failed so im quite lucky for an idiot who didnt take bio :D but i might fail 1 practical, kinda ridiculous reason also. because theres some double standard. like instructors expectations and what we are taught plus what is on the book are not the same and my "unconscious" patient screw me up. blah, no choice, fail then remedial then, not like i totally screw it up.

then food poison when im doing my duty. prowl halfway then dizzy spell kick in, lucky i slowly walk to gain my stability. then thought probably hungry or thirsty so i drank and ate. then rest, then woke up still nausea, and vomited. then go back bunk and vomited again, during training still nausea. then some said i look pale. wa super gg sia that time. then i went to see mo then he say probably dehydration or food poisoning, which i suspect food poisoning because duration of consumption of mcdonald is roughly 6hrs so digestion is almost finishing. gg sia. lucky my body quite strong, the whole thing ended within 5hrs without taking medicine lmao.

damn funny sia, i seriously swear Gdman and cdos are rivals. sparks all the times

cant wait to finish my silverlight tutorial, uber cool stuff i must say :D

social norms: the rules that a group uses for appropriate and inappropriate values, beliefs, attitudes and behaviors. These rules may be explicit or implicit. Failure to follow the rules can result in severe punishments, including exclusion from the group"*
believe or not, i never came about this word but it struck me. for a person like me, hate this word a lot. because people form nonsensical rules and people obeys it. that is why it creates mob mentality, that is why people become followers, that is why creativity is dead. it totally constricts people. it makes my life damn mundane. remember i had this book about power, it has one of the rule. never be too superior or unique, because you will be extremely vulnerable, especially being ostracized, because people around you will feel inferior and jealousy will take place. and because of this kind of human psychology, some will have to "stupidify" themselves.

@_@ i realised digipen doesnt have my diploma. LOL sians, one alternative less

what is this fear constricting me?

*cited from Wikipedia Social Norms"

Happy Birthday

2010-10-09T11:22:00.002+08:00

No thanks ;)

2010-10-02T08:39:00.013+08:00

_{Shiny booooooooooots}

previously i mentioned about vocations that i have selected. guess what, im selected for

Leaders

its my freaking 4th choice out of 5 choices and i got it. -.- i totally cannot believe my ears when i heard it, then first thing came into my mind was, fuck my whole block leave has been halfed. i thought about what if i really get into leaders, what elements should i consider and should i take it if i got it. and i feel that it is a no, so i went for an appeal.

because its a vocation that requires careful selection, so in the grading scheme contains many components from fitness, iq, appraisal, leadership capability. fitness can be zero out because theres many people who hits the requirements, so appraisal, iq and leadership skills. so theres this friend of mine who very unhappy and green eyes that he wants to get into leaders but he couldnt and he is fitter than me. so it means that i did freaking well in the iq test and deception. lucky enough he didnt get in because i feel that he is a selfish leader, so i lower his appraisal part. so the thing about this vocation is that YOU ARE SELECTED, you can come out of leaders but not go in. and i feel that even if you didnt pick it in your choices, you will get in as long as you are in their top few percentile. a few of them were like, renfa you wasted your chance, i want also cant go in. i told them, nah im not ;) im very satisfied the fact that im selected, because it shows that im well rounded.

why reject then?
from my experience, there are 2 general types of leaders. Power Leader and Social Leader. Power Leader is one who has distinct line between him and his men. his men must acknowledge his leader's capability and power. leader must have power to punish and to force people to do things. this kind of power is very commonly seen in employer and employee relationship. but for Social Leader is through foundations of friendship and trust, interpersonal skills must be good. Men must see the need to help the leader in accomplishing the task. So these are 2 extreme ends of leadership qualities. Hence you must know which type are you incline to. So for me, i dont like things to cock up, once a command is give, it has to be delivered. So i more of a Power Leader. But for this vocation, theres no way you can be one. Definitely you will be a Social leader, because you all are so closed to each other, you train together, you dont feel ok to punish your men.

second name they call it as "servants", i prefer to call it as "dogs". more pay more shit. no way i gonna degrade myself tyvm :) if you are dumb enough to consider the pay, then you are damn narrow minded. because we are not regulars, next time you can come out study and get more pay. what if you go in and get yourself injured? you live your life in misery and maybe cant even study.

injury. neeeeeeeeeed rest :)

of course my pc tried to convince and confuse but definitely does not work on me :) once im clearheaded and confirmed, nothing can move me.

so i successfully changed my vocation to medic. LENGPAK! naw i will train even more! finally pop. i think the greatest achievements for these 4 months isnt all the physical shit. But the soft skills to deal with many kind of assholes. even salvaged some of them and bring them back into social circle.

most likely im gonna do my jumps before feb. GHEE GHEE!

gonna spend my week going out with platoon mates rest training programming!
_{yesterday fate told me, pure gold fears no fiery fire. if my opponent is time, then i will wait. one day someone will definitely see the diamond in you.

mirror, a useful tool and powerful. it shows every perfection and flaws. what happens if this mirror ability is implanted into one? he becomes the master of truth and lies. he analyzes everyone's movement, words and thinking, to differentiate what is genuine and facade, to know his/her's weakness and strength.

do you know that a proper planning and brainstorming requires both optimist and pessimist? optimist dares to dream, whereas pessimist can tell all fail points of the idea

crying isnt a sign of weakness but shows that you are still humane}

MEDICCCCCCCCCCC

2010-09-24T19:47:00.002+08:00

haha they gave this during our mid autumn festival. dont you think its damn comical?

WOO most likely im going medic. gonna confirm that my blood is ok before they confirm our posting. quite hard to get in actually but somehow i got in ;D probably they knew these people sure want to slack that why the intake so low

can say everything begins to tone down. definitely slackier. one of the night we had our celebration. and i swear my previous buddy who gonna be a pastry chef makes wonderful cheesecake.

one of the days we had our ir0n s0ldier. its WAY easier than previous ultim@te det@chment ch@llenge. firstly we had to remember 10 items and their position then run 500m then do obstacles. then run 150m do many styles of crawl then lastly throw dummy grenade. then run 150m then up 3 stories of slopes then 600m then do blind fold weapon strip and assembly. not easy finding the holes actually @_@. then run around 400m then write all the info in the first part of memory test. of course i managed to remember all and draw nicely for them LOL!

next week gonna be the last week of bmt. no idea is it fast or slow. was thinking how to spend my block leave. gave up the idea of going to genting, think that i should spend more time on training. i think its better to prepare myself for next phase of training.

1 & 2 & 3 &...

2010-09-18T20:52:00.005+08:00

2 MORE WEEKS TO POP! YES TO MA HAIR :D

damn, gave my sis my phone to trade in, now i dont have any camera phone to take picture of stuff -.-

saw some "spamming" at my tagboard, so i have added some ip ban

woo finally managed to send money to my paypal acc. didnt know singapore bank can do it already. time for some shopping @_@

still under progress doing the planning and designing for my sis and i business plan. im doing the design part, cant really help much with the reports since i have to keep going back to camp.

hows this week
stupid asshole-see. do until blister tear wdf. fail until dunno what shit lol. passing time 10:30 but i came back at 16+ LOL. its fucking shag sia. all the weight and discomfort from the stupid boots. its not even catered for running. thou i hit the requirements timing for first part, i fucking lost of breathe at the obstacles. and my wrist really cant handle parallel bar well. but i managed to finish it very slowly. its when i hit the ropes, i totally ran out of energy and concentration to grip it tight and do the proper techniques. then i gave up after 3rd attempt. so much queuing between obstacles -.-

then one of the days they get vendors to teach us cpr. now im fucking cpr certified ^_^

did 5m tower jump. FUCKING SCARY YET FUN. SWOOSH into the water and your body automatically do a 180 body flip.

picked my vocations, MEDIC SIGNAL DEMO LEADERS. the last one is like when first 3 i dont get then fuck care just pia then. dont think im that suey.

ippt again! mmm same as usual, managed to do 13 pull up max. strength dropped probably because of field camp, long period didnt train it. 2.4km sustained at 10:50+ which is quite good because i thought i will do worst than that. next run i hope i can run even faster!

thought about it, perhaps i can just go for training, until i really really injured then ooc. perhaps i should take some hardship first, if everyone can do it, i definitely can. for now i just need a reason. a reason to push myself, to forget all the pain and torture. an answer

Disdain isnt a personality but an ability.
Ability to hold all your temptations, doesnt mean you are apathy but unique, powerful and wanted. It creates clouds of ambiguity, making others unsure what you are up to. Now you are the leader.

Life is like writing a book. Once written, all you can do is flip and read. All your mistakes stay forever. Every attempt to correct your mistakes make it worst. even if one day you decide to write properly, all the mistakes before still surfaces. just like human, once bad impression is given, trying to be nice becomes superficial. all you can do is continue writing...

where is my shadow when i needed it?

Dead and Dirty

2010-09-12T23:44:00.006+08:00

_{I try out a smile
And I aim it at you
You must have missed it
You always do}

whats with the recent trend of blogwalking >_>. people started coming to my tagboard and tag me

phew im back in a piece. little do i expect myself surviving this long and dreadful 7 days in an entirely filthy and worn out conditions. people keep saying hey come on its just a few days more, half of the training has passed, you will get through. too positive isnt it -.- anyway finally got through this means i most likely i have passed my bmt and i can ooc without worries ^_^ anyway my wrist aint recovering, neither do i want to over exert myself, this place definitely isnt for me. i have bright future, i dont want to injure my writing hand if i want to further my education. they begin choosing leaders, picking people who are physically fitter, mentally strong, good leadership. so i will just tell them i will be wasting slots. after bmt most likely i will see specialist and get me out of here. why would i stay when i have problem flipping my bag and doing diamond push ups.

back to how it goes:

first days
we walk and walkkkkkkkk and walkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, everyone keep getting scolding for being weak. finally we reach our destination and started building our basha. and it rained on us 1 hr after we completed it, fuck -.-. soaked and we had to eat inside in that confined area. seriously that area so small that i cant even maneuver myself to take my food. so practically everything is wet and muddy, even our "roof" has holes. laid down and sleep, shivering. torture....

second day
supposed to be a revision day but it ended up raining. oh well everything is wet again, no one cares about it anymore. besides mud, its still mud. hands with mud, no idea if we have even eaten up small portion of mud

third day
we did some practice of our field drills. lucky enough we had our slack instructor, so we slacked 1hr and did light training. every keep wondering what we will do another day, no one knows, and annoying enough, everyone keeeeeeeeeeeps asking.

forth day
forgot what we did this day, probably the same thing as third day. then we started some urban drills. then funny enough, this "disease" started spreading. not exactly disease, but more like personal hygiene problem. because we laid on wet ground and constantly spam prickly heat to powder bathe, we started getting some kind of heat rash. so practically heat and physical contact with clothes can trigger it. so we started scratching!!!! then we finish up with urban stuff with our nice instructor. then get ready to fuck off from here. so we walk again. walk for ~5km to school 4. then we get ready to rest

fifth day
things started to tone down. finally. did some test. then need to prepare our warcry. seriously looking at our warcry, it will make you want to cry. coz its so lousy lol. then every platoon performed with proper ending except us. so i ask the warcry IC if he did any research. he said yes, so i said why still like that. he still say, you nv contribute dont talk. ROFL! like i care, i dont need research also can cook out something better. so that day i told my friend, everyone didnt realise the core element in a warcry. i told him, they totally picked wrong person to do it, someone who cant articulate well and low on diction to lead us. so the warcry ic was behind me and he say hey you are saying me. so i panic for a while and try to reason it and tell him you cannot talk about general stuff, need to be about us, he doesnt want to listen and walk out in anger. so im like whatever lor. then later on the night you know what? another platoon instructor decided to help and give him tips. and he said the same thing as me. i was like ROFL PWNED see that ahole ^_^ just because i have no "authority" doesnt mean my words has no meaning, right, listen to someone who has more authority rofl.

lucky enough, oc gave us a chance to bathe, finally a chance to reduce our heat rash torture. imagine scraping your scalp, you get 1 fingernail full of sand. how gross!

sixth day
we did more warcry. finally we got on track. dumbfuck. so later at night they say 9pm sleep. tomorrow 5am wake up we will do power run, wear your usual pt attire. LIKE REAL! who believes! its a usual practice to have turn out so we got the hint and get ready for the torture

last day
sleep and sleep. 12am! BAM BAM BAM, sounds of thunder flash. woke up with frowns, scolding, WDF KNN only 3hrs of sleep. so inside i was thinking probably after this shit we will go sleep again. LIKE REAL! so we did crawl push ups and sit ups X100000 which supposingly was our warm up. then straight away we got test. imagine who in the right mind can perform under so short nap -.- we walked 5km to test site. then finish our tests, we had to walk another 9km. so practically our shoulder almost broke, leg almost twisted lol. then went back. did some clean up and went home

what they say was during this field camp you will see true side of people. nah its the same as before to me. perhaps i myself already seen their true personality. all the selfish fucks, lazy fucks, all i know long ago.

all i can say im lucky that i survived it without giving up on anything. some disappointment in myself here and there but i think its ok i guess. a very short rest, going back again tomorrow, more physical training now, 3 more weeks and everything will be over i hope.

deviation of thoughts each days. thats why i hate waiting for time to pass. how are you these days?

Reminder

2010-09-04T01:08:00.005+08:00

ranting time

another week of torturous training. 1 word to describe it, hell. i kept thinking, why do we have to do so much extra training and why am i even here. then we have so many weird weird events to make us do more training. smlj max -.- when can i ooc -.-

1 day of outfield. crawl until my watch has damn lot of scratches. scratches, cuts, bruises. sweat like dog, disgusting camo, sand everywhere on us, night fucking uncomfortable. totally trying to count down time, hoping that day will quickly get over and done with. filthiness to the max. knn

then just did my first tower jump. daaaaaaamn scary. from bottom it looks ok, but from top its not. insanity but luckily i managed to complete it

then we had this suuuuuuuuuuuuuupppppppppeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr shag event. ultim@te det@chment ch@llenge. ultimate until ur head will roll when you see what we did on that day. lets see. run 600m then your group of 14 do 500 situp 500 pushup 200 chinup then run 200m back. then wear everything and run 300m then do 100m of crawl with everything on. so you practically dragging urself and 20+kg. then run 400m back. then take out everything, run 200m then run up 3 stories of slopes then finish it with 800m run, then do some rifle stuff then run down the slopes and run 200m back. then wear some equipment, then run 700m, do 90% of our obstacle course then run 700m back. oh did i mention this is just the first part? YES ITS THE FIRST PART! YAY! by then you already feel like quitting. that time we were the last already, no rest, continue to our part 2. what is part 2? 12km road march with everything on again! so we walk and walk and finally overtook 1 group which secure us from not being the last. then last 1.5km we had to carry additional weight. and finally it ends. shoulder sore, leg numb and burnt from impact, water bag almost emptied. at the end of it, all the drawback slowly surface. climbing 3 stories of stairs become a challenge.

sian max, next week 6 days of shagness. see nothing but trees sand soil mud and angry instructors. gonna be casualty and die there. >_________> so wont be back on fri and sat. prob sun or mon T___________T

everything has turned into a joke. i can hear fate saying, "give up on your search and join the dark side". pain slowly erode my reason. lucky for every reasons but this. smile spelt as mile

Unhappy soldier

2010-08-26T22:12:00.010+08:00

saw this video somewhere yesterday. its a role reversal of gender but it portrays some factors some of us are facing. seriously, i feel that gov sect should watch and understand the new generations of people are thinking and feeling. certain structure of this system should be changed i feel. definitely no one wants to be in here, hence if they could save every cent on us, then increase the salary, it will this job more attractive and make young blood sign on. will you want people who are enthusiastic to defend or someone who dont. in physics, if a moving object is stopped, it has to re-initiate the acceleration in order to move on again. and if has been stopped for long time, it is no different from abandoning an iron assembly, letting it to rust. once rust, every parts become brittle and unable to perform as before. same context, isnt this a form of eradication of brilliant talents. you really think 2 years is long? -.- i rather spend 4 years studying

another round of dreadful week, another round of ippt.

everything is the same except for 2.4km 10.53mins. deprove by few seconds. but this time is less tedious than previous run, hence i must say its improvement. its always been very tiring when i hit new timing, then next run its less tedious but i still can still hit the same timing. body slowly acclimatise to the speed. guess i should max out my pull ups

fucking tired from the 8km march. some said current total weight is 24kg. which is more than 1/3 of my weight. how the fuck do we not get ourselves injured -.-

its a killer to think of upcoming event we had to go through -.- i think i probably die somewhere from the filthiness

somehow somewhere the author of the book im reading thinks the same way as me. its the same techniques i have been applying all along. started his law of power. he said this interesting point, it is not enemy that you should be cautious, but your friends. because you know who you are up against but friends you dont. and friends agree to your every bullshit you say and do even if they dont is because they want to avoid troubles. hence, enemy becomes even more trustworthy than your friends. i guess i also should not worry about how people belittling my capabilities, as im not even displaying much of it. i should wait until im out. now i should think of my future path

perhaps fate is tell me not to give up despite the tough trainings. used to believe gamble, the more you roll the dices, the frequency increases. i guess certain stuff doesnt work this way, im just forcing things to happen. if it will, it definitely will. just like tonight. its the last thing i expect it would happen. i know you know that was me. never changed. at least most things are going well, i should not worry. so never should i give up until i say so.

am i really that pathetic?

Stale

2010-08-20T23:50:00.003+08:00

another week of tough training. got 31/32 for my shooting ;D got fucking excited and anxious during my last shot, then fucking screw it up. knn >_>

gonna hate + detest + loathe + dread next few week. time to get dirty -.- seriously this generation of guys still can withstand getting dirty? its fucking mentally straining for me. next next week i wont be around :( will be back the week after

another irony in life is, certain time you told yourself that when you dont mind anything, but when you are given something, you will have second thought.

its not solitude that i fear. it is what and for who am i trying to achieve all along. why work so hard when no one sees and appreciate it

its the same situation and feeling few years ago. fucking confused. will i run away from it again. quick say yes before i give up huiping

Delusions

2010-08-14T13:20:00.007+08:00

had this stupid dream this week lol. i dreamt that i was invited back in the evening to my sec sch npcc because im selected to this unit. so i was wearing my uniform to see everyone. then we stood in a u shape in a "at ease" position. damn retarded lol

this week thou its shorter but its super dreadfully long in mind. a lot rifle handling and test too. every morning we have no chance to bathe even -.- things gonna be even tougher soon. fucking hate this kind of lifestyle

last minute there was ippt test to determine if we can get out. been waiting for one for so long, dying to know how fast can i run this time.

SBJ 250
pull up 12
sit up 50
shutter run 10.2
2.4km 10.40+

pull ups i can do more just that i dont want to burn out. burst 9 straight, quite good actually. i think i can hit 15 max now. shutter run i fucking run 3 times -.- first time i run i wasnt warmed up then didnt pick the block fast enough. second time butter fingers -.- 3rd time slow down during first pick up, wasnt that good also but better than nothing. 2.4 was the one that i worried actually. starting stride too fast until first 400m i begin to shag >_> wasnt that smart lmao. but i managed to sustain my pace and tried to burst during my last 300m. not bad for the 30secs improvement. hope that i can be like my friend, improve 30sec each run. now legs fucking weak. anyway now im not just silver, but cdo silver :). a bit more i will hit gold and work VERY HARD to get cdo gold!

supposed to do my guard duty on weekends but due to last minute there are so many people getting extra for various reasons, mine was converted to weekday. ok not exactly, there was 1 slot but 4 people had to fight for it. so 2 of them say they dont mind doing so leaving me and another guy. then others say i shouldnt do coz i helped to bring food for them but that guy wasnt pleased so i say nvm lets settle with scissors paper stone. and first round i lost then i fucking stressed. then next 2 round i won LOL! i fucking escaped from weekend duty <3 fucking shag sia 24hrs, lucky shit ^_^

next week is live firing. hope that i can get my marksman on first day :D

almost finish reading my 33 strategies for war. loved the dirty warfare section, so called how to go about attacking. such as plotting ordinary to extreme strategies, making enemy confused, or how to go about deceiving your opponent such as making more campfire to make them think there are more manpower to avoid unnecessary war, etc. one of them i felt quite useful was this tactic. usually when tackling an opponent, you might say bound them from all corners so that they might die. however this makes them try to think outside of the box and escape from top or bottom. but interestingly, if you bound them from some corners and leaving them 2-3 alternatives, this restricts them thinking. and also this dilemma method buys you more time to plot attacks on these points. quite smart strategy i must say.

i realize all these while i dont even know what i want. please dont hide at one corner and wait for my move, im master of analyzing but im not master of mind reading. do tell me

haiz

FOR CHICKEN WING

2010-08-07T15:41:00.004+08:00

^{SWORD WITH CHICKEN WINGS!}

been a VERY VERY LONG and tough week. its so much tougher than before. reason not because of the training pace has been jacked up, but because of the new people that has came in. because they are so freaking new that they are so hard to discipline and control, so we just ended up doing push ups. and this week we hardly had any time for our "body maintenance" ;(

been allocated to new buddy who is a dragon boater from np. so hes freaking fit and i have seen him around in np before. nice guy also. but the problem doesnt come from him, but other new people from my bunk. they are freaking freaking weird. one very unfit guy who constantly felt happy that he couldnt do anything and wanting people to follow his pace. hes not organized and every night go around asking people to lend him phone to call his girlfriends, theoretically just girl and friends. so everyone doesnt like him and spend the whole week suaning him. then got this guy, super super super slow. do things slow, come out slow, eat slow, everything slow. he must be kidding when he said hes from ncc. he has fucking no sense of urgency, and he dare to defend when hes in wrong -.- . then got 1 super like ah beng, always want to bully people. then the rest, fucking quiet, dunno how the fuck to bond them. i really think our previous platoon are way better, even on our first week.

the new guys, pretty much expected. more than half of them failed their ippt. 2.4 fail still reasonable because of the new environment, but static fail is another story. so ultimately boils down to one point, integrity. 1 year of inactive training is bullshit. some cant even do 1 standard push up. seriously, if you cant have some integrity for yourself, why should we put our life on the line and fight with you. felt unjust when looking at them. time for u guys to die -.-

been doing so much running for past few days that everyone fucking loathe running. everyone is having thigh sore like fuck. thats the thing about our unit, you dont need to be fucking strong, but you need to be fucking fast.

and yes my formation. got it on thursday. the parade was damn serious and honorable that goosebumps will come out. then we also get our "wife". see liao super sian, can i like divorce with "her". freaking lot of punishment if nv handle it well, ccb zzz

funny thing was before i went in i thought army life shouldnt be that bad, probably learn useful things. but now i felt its freaking a waste of time, 2 years of our life. they should like save the money and increase regulars salary so it will look even more attractive so those who wants to defend for the nation go do it. then i can like go study -.- if going in was to make us mature, then why are so many of them aint when they are out? do you seriously think my maturity have not met the cap -.- . i really cant see myself at the end of the 2 years. i think i will freaking injured myself halfway and get the fuck out of here.

fuck sia my wrist injury relapse again. fucked up diamond push ups

saw this Review on iphone4g. the features like damn good lol, especially the camera, the colour is more alive.

did some reading on enhancing colour of a photo. quite a few methods to do it. the urge to do art is back again

somehow it felt as though im lying to myself. everything just felt alien, perhaps because the segregation, everything just felt impossible. fate is just playing with me

Ruth

2010-07-30T10:00:00.010+08:00

let me go into the past and avert all the shortcomings

guess this week onwards i only can book out on sat afternoon and go back at sun 9pm :(

this marks the end of my ptp. this week felt as thou its a long week. quite a few things happened too. and im having cough and sore throat >_>

firstly i have finally passed my swimming test! LOL D: i took the test thrice. it is because of the depth of the water that made me gave up halfway. first one was before the slope, then i began to panic then end up i screw my breathing. then 2nd one was halfway of the slope. its freaking 3.8m! funny thing was 2 other guys also took thrice and they failed at the same spot as me LOL! then 3rd try i remained calm then finished it. and i almost overtake the one infront of me, so im quite fast ;D but i need practice for my trap water. NEXT STOP: 3m and 5m TOWER JUMP!

i freaking cut my thumb with a razor omg! its quite deep then bleed a lot. fuck sia -.- then 2 slices of skin exposing. luckily i found plasters

then wed i did my guard duty. freaking shag. slept like less than 3hrs, then had to stand for 2hrs straight at one confined area and prowl. lucky thing was we had a slack instructor taking us. Eat mac at night but its quite tiring. cant imagine myself doing 24hrs >_>

then theres quite a few commotion this week over the guard duty. because no one wants to do a 24hrs slot and especially on saturday. then ended up it is my detachment people who failed their ippt. then they super unhappy and initially it was according to the name list, so some of my friends and i should be doing on sat but i was saved by the last minute amendments. so they started crowd themselves. but they didnt vent their anger to me la cause im nice guy what LOL. then those who are saved were like dont give a shit to them. fucking selfish people la. they didnt even bother to bother to console them, so much for being together for 8 weeks, all slowly reveal their agenda. then last night theres a discussion. so one of them said he doesnt understand why they are so unhappy about. i was like wdf you are the one who have been kpkb for the past 2 weeks, and everyone tried to explain to you yet keep saying they are unfair. so i said apparently one of them comes from a separated family, so sat is the only chance to see his mum. he stared blank for a while. so i thought he understood. but no, he said, why do they expect us to do? this line totally pissed me off, my face changed straight away then i walk away. fucking selfish, its like saying he spending his time with girlfriend is more important than a broken family who wants to spend more time with his mother. he cant like fucking empathize him.

certain time i wonder, why are there girls still pick scumbags like this who have fucked up brain, personalities where there are many better ones waiting to be selected

then during the argument they were saying that we passed so many times, and we can book out early, so should we be the one doing it. frankly speaking, certain extend it is true, but that is a selfish angle to look at it. we are cautious with what we eat, we exercise, that is why we can pass it on the 4th week. but most of them who failed didnt? shouldnt it be the time we spent on our non-curriculum exercises be added into the calculation too? i freaking spend my last semester on my pull ups and 2.4 during my fyp -.-

YES i think r/u.w/e/i isnt selected for see-dee-ohh. seems like kaheng will be the only new one i know coming in

felt very very lovesick on tuesday. kept thinking of the past. reasons of existence slowly fade away. now i know what is my weakness. love is the only thing that will crumbles me, nothing else but love

Relinquish

2010-07-24T07:58:00.007+08:00

http://www.etsy.com/shop/Aranwen
An interesting website that i found. Very nice collection of items, especially the watches @_@

one senior keep saying i look like Stanley Huang. LOL!

so called final week of our ptp phrase. next week will be doing saikangs. 7 weeks of crazy training, i have gained 2-4kg of mass. definitely stronger and broader than before. another round of transition, people cannot recognize me again. anyway evaluation test results:

2.4km: 12.16min
pull ups: 11
sbj: 247

hahah dropped a lot. i didnt push myself for this run. it just show that i had improvement from last time 15mins run until die until 12mins with minor burn out and leg strains. sbj wise, they didnt have shoe for my size. but not bad, previously my jump drop a lot, now its sustaining. pull ups a bit disappointing, probably because my arms arent wide enough, so i burn out my forearm strength, hence no full utility of lats power. then my friend who always on par of me did 15, so a bit sad la =\

slightly begin to see why we are selected to this unit. being logical and smart is one thing, aligning them using strategic planning is another. in short, we have a portion of thinker's capability. but still it does not prove that they are mature or any sort.

a few creepy things happened this week
1) someone said he heard someone singing hokkien song at carpark with no background sound
2) our bunk there has one male cat. then wed i was disturbing it then after that i went toilet cubicle, lock the door, then the cat head went in from below hole and look at me for a while and went off, 3 seconds later, i heard 7 repetitive sound of child calling. fucking scary sia, thinking that im in a restrained area.
3) then later that night i went to wash hand, i press the 2nd tap, the 3rd one suddenly on too. u turn to look in shock. then i waited for it to stop but it didnt. wdf i quickly walk out
4) then the empty room beside us suddenly switch on light but the nearest proximity was 50cm away from the entrance, but they say got sensor. but funny thing was our room, the sensor didnt even
5) wed night this cat went up to one of my friend bed. my friend jitao shock why something rub him. then they chase it away. then thursday night we close the doors. then 2am my another friend woke up and wanted to go toilet, he opened the door with 10cm gap, the cat rush into the door and ran to that first friend's cabinet and sit there. wdf then my another friend shock and he didnt know what to do. end up he woke up everyone LOL! he say the cat is our bunk, everyone wdf. then everyone could not chase it out. then bo bian one of them carry it out. but its fucking funny how my another friend reacted. then he could not sleep because he could not understand why the cat keep aiming the first friend

another bunkmate got cold shoulder from the rest. probably because i went through same process in the past, so i know how to avoid and handle these situation well. i told him, i see the world more than many people, this world is simple, when you have power, even if you are wrong, you are right. but if you have no power, you can never be right. when it comes to defending for someone, if he has no power, defending him will totally eradicate your current power. and now you are unwanted because you defy their way of thought. human are quite simple, they dwell on sense of living, and usually friendship that gives them this senses. i have been in this state for so long that certain times i feel that i can live without them. that is why i say you should never put in 100% trust on someone, even the closest. always leave some degree of distrust, the more one you trusted betrays you, the more impact you received from free fall.

started reading the 33 strategies of war, i swear it is the type of book i like. very in-depth and application based book. in fact when reading it, i realize that i have been apply some of the tactics. such as playing with people's mind, over exaggerate and more. it is a very good book. one of the things they talk about was spider web. spider web isnt just 1 strand of web, its an area of web. its just like planning, having multiple alternatives to cater different situation so that you can react correct when one makes a move. so that when they make a mistake and fall into of your trap, they will have no way out. very nice illustration using something typical in our life

extreme world, extreme differences, extremely beautiful. dont you think so?

Im still living in a monochrome world, waiting for you to colour my world. What is happiness?

CDO Gold Will-be!

2010-07-16T22:26:00.013+08:00

trying to make my time useful inside. fuck sia sometimes after every meal go sleep. fucking no life. no wonder people say they get dumb after they went in. some intention to get programming book but no chance to apply also stupid. so this kind of book fits me best. wanted to take art of war but ended getting these 2. i think after i finish these 2 books, i sure can control people and situation damn well

SBJ: 250
Shutter: 10sec flat
Pullups: 12
Situp: 56
2.4km: 11min 24sec

So apparently all are gold except for 2.4. ok some stupid things during the test. during my shutter run first try, i run run run then kick one of my block. then when i turn back for the block i fucking shock that its like 50cm away from the actual position, then i straight away shag. i told the instructor, let me redo -.-

then during my situp, i do damn fast at start then my instructor who checking if im doing it properly say, slow down a bit. ROFL! i see if i could hit bmt hall of fame for sit up HEHE! 83 i think

then 2.4km, this time im not really that shag. but because i keep using my alternate breathing method this is use mouth then nose, then windpipe begin to dry up. so i end up cannot concentrate in the run. then calf could not generate power to do wider stride. then because i tend to run closing my eyes, not totally but occasionally open to check my distance. then at the final 400m which is a straight path, i run until i fall forward. then i was closing my eyes, i fucking no idea why my body lean forward, then i piak, then i realise i kick onto the curb. i fucking stand up within split seconds, mind blanked, no pain received from the fall, run all the way to final point. fucking funny. overall it is good since i could sustain this timing. next time try harder then. new shoes are coming! so i hope i can perform better.

one thing that annoys me is people who knew that they had to do something about certain thing yet did nothing about it. maybe i once took this path so i regretted. anyway it is the 6weeks already and yet one of my bunkmate still cant pull one. still 0degrees when some are hitting 90degrees. funny thing was he always sleep so early at night. so few days ago everyone was chatting at his bed area then he said he wants to sleep early but we all around there. so i asked him have you bathed? he said yes. so i bobian cant ask him go train. so i said ok next time you dont bathe so early, you better go do more push up before you go wash up. then i said you already lose out so much so you better buck up. i fucking want to say him that time. he still got the cheek to say "very lazy leh, every night feel like sleeping" i was like wdf, you sleep so much, still dare to do math craft and say the amount of time we need to rest. seriously, some of them do not treasure the honor of getting selected as an elite.

then this week swimming was a fucking scary one. i dunno why the fuck do i even tell them i think im ready for the swimming test. so the instructor want to build up our confidence. he brought us to 1.8m. i thought that was hell enough. later on he brought us to 3.8m. OH MY GOD. my balls dropped. he told 5 of us to do dead body float. wa fucking hard to do. but lucky he nice, he will hold our hands when doing. then he want us to dive all the way to 3.8m. i fucking give everyone do first. then i last person to do it. fucking scary. so he taught us this method to counter deep water pressure which is holding your nose and blow out when you go down. so i tried to go down all the way down but i fucking go up LOL! so he told me to swing myself down using ladder. so i swing and sprung, 3 seconds i went to the bottom. then i gather all my legs power kick myself up again. vroom 3 seconds up again. fucking fun sia but fucking scary. after the whole thing i told him can i go do more training first so he allowed. indeed build up my confidence but its through a fast and hard way -.-

ok la quite used to people saying why am i even selected for this unit. when you go in, you will see people who are even less qualified. you just dont know me well enough ;)

let fate bring us together if we meant to be
im ready for anything

miss you

Overdrive

2010-07-10T06:22:00.010+08:00

woo bb theme song, like always, great selection of song and musical pieces. sadly, the release of the game is on october :(

5th week already, no idea is it fast. soon i have to split up with my bunkmates. wonder how many of them fake their way through their napfa. see how far can they survive this kind of training.

some shuffling of instructors. things well slow on first few days, picked up its pace on last few days. this week test is slightly lenient as it only required 2 stations. hence around 40 out of 102 made it. and 40 of them not all of them passed, they allowed those who shown improvement too.

SBJ: 239
Pullups: 11

look back year 2 when my friends can do pull ups but i could. i thought it is almost impossible. day by day train, dad kept asking my progress. 0 0 0 0 1/2 1/2 3/4 3/4 and finally one. and now im one of the most in my platoon. incredible indeed. managed to pull more and slightly raised up my average pull from 6 to 8. perhaps because of that, i cant do a full swimmer stretch, fucking hand just stuck few cm away from hip, just cant close it >_>. need to faster get my asics shoe, big shoe is a give away for few cm.

list of impending/current injury
1 - wrist
2 - right shoulder joint making sound
3 - left hip
4 - right hip joint making sound
5 - both knee joint making sound
6 - both ankle fucking weak
7 - abrasion at the back from crunches on road

run until fucking hate running. each run totally wear out my legs like crazy. imagine it shakes on its own. then when you need to do quad stretch, you cant even balance on one leg for 1 second. need to increase dosage of Glucosamine else my joints sure gone case. perhaps because of last test, i damn scared to burn out. i kept saving energy during each run which isnt a good thing, as i wont improve my timing this way :\

did some self update on friends around me. soon to realise people are going oversea for studies, marrying. common question hit us, what the fuck are we doing here? what is the ultimate reward for this period? what if we receive permanent injury?

hypocrisy, my best weapon.

spend a lot time thinking during our resting time. what the fuck am i doing in the past? hesitated too much, snapping strands of hope.

how i wish i can see you again

BOOK OUT!

2010-07-02T22:11:00.007+08:00

hehe check out my cap! yea as mentioned, went to customize one at bugis. yea so if you see that you know its me!

BOOOOOOOOOK OUT EARLY! its a privilege for those for those passed their ippt/napfa. yes 4 weeks of hell and now i can pass my 2.4km run. oh did i say that i failed last week run for 21 sec? yes and guess what? i freaking pass it with a silver which is napfa 3 point.

this week ippt
2.4km: 11min 24sec
pull up: 8
sit up: 59
shutter: 10.1sec
sbj: 245cm

yes shutter dropped, freaking shag from monday's run and did not do proper break with my wrist. we have this 2.4 gauging system, red band for fail, blue for pass, green for silver and white for gold. last week im red, now im green! this 11min doesnt come easy! i run until breathing method from consistent until messed up, keep telling mind not to give up. when i reached final 400m, i totally burned out, i still tell my mind to carry on, and i even tried to force myself to sprint, but my leg could not pull out the power anymore. after the whole shit, my ankle and shin fucking pain, then whole week could not run very well. every night apply muscle relaxing cream.

wed was one insane day, seriously. it was one day after our ippt, then we did 3km jog. fucking shag already still run. then we still freaking do damn lot push up. we sweat until its like it just rained on us. can practically squeeze out 50ml sweat from out singlet. then afternoon kana turn out thanks to indiscipline fools. then night we did 4km fast march with semi full battle order. so its like 6-7kg of load over our back. wa fucking shag, left toe blister even. again sweat like just rained.

wrist still not recovered for some reason. then cant train on weights to build up my biceps. so bo bian train chest. abs quite distinct now thanks to 400 over flutter kick and 200 hello little darling from my bunk mates -.- .

in between we played some games but quite stupid one. some of them just greed for victory that they end up not doing standard exercise. totally dont see the point of winning. come on la i win also no glory. in the end you bluff who? yourself for not training properly.

4 weeks and its quite interesting to observe different kind of people. some fucking unhygienic, fucking weird, fucking smart, fucking dumb, fucking fake, fucking nice, fucking strong, fucking determined, fucking tall, fucking short. those that arent norm will kana bully. thats when you have to learn to adaptive to different people. carry their balls if it makes them happy but deep inside you know you can fucking own them :)

gonna get some scholarship next sat. so i better pass another round of ippt if not i cant book out on friday D:

this 2 years might be a hard year. maybe i might injured myself during training but i hope i wont. that is why i want to leave it this way, else im being unfair. to hell do i care about the prettiest. i know im not wrong with this choice. haiz, certain time i just think that time the greatest fool in this world. can you tell me is this goal ~~achievable~~?

when things get tough, take a deep breath. not everything we must fight for what we think is right. hold it in, be humble and act as if you have accepted your wrong and move on. its not a sign of weakness, but a sign of maturity. why fight a war when you know you can never win. smile because you have attained new level

when will my blazblue pc version out :(

3rd Week

2010-06-26T18:15:00.008+08:00

quite a tiring week. everyday is almost the same. exercise exercise and exercise. every hour go by very slowly, and its so event-packed that theres something to do, no such thing as resting. this week actually there was some privileges for us, which is if hit below 13min mark for 2.4km we can go off on friday and many did, so did i. usually i run like 14-15mins and im damn shag by then, but this time i run until i can stare blank, but i only hit 12min 41sec, hit the 13min mark but considered as failed. so later on of the week they readjusted it and say only those who passed all station then can go off. sadly i failed running for 21 sec only :( so we have to jolly well suck thumb and stay for another half day. for some reason my shin hurts a lot during all the runs, which usually it doesnt, which makes me suspect that the shoe isnt for me! ~_~ anyway my wrist is recovering for sure, pull up strength is coming back. 3 sets of 6 pulls without assist is possible for me :D! and my sbj 250cm is back! the sad thing about us is we only can go off at sat afternoon unlike usual friday night due to saf regulations. haiz not enough rest :( seriously, i rather stay at home rest than going out every week -.- will be fucking shag when you go in on the next day.

learned some basic tackling method, wdf sia they fucking fierce, nb slam me once, my right leg bruise liao. then buddy slam me once more leg got 1 bum -.- once you go in, injury such as scratches cramps bums blue-black is common >_>. bo bian drink milk, apply balm, put ice, tmr ready to go.

think i know how to swim already. but i need to be mentally prepared cause seeing 3.5m below u is no joke.

cleared my duty as an IC of my platoon, means i dont need to be ic anymore! luckily that day many instructor wasnt around so things went smoother than i thought.

actually my training quite ok because the tekan section very reasonable. they dont punish for no reason. practically which they say. and they very detailed with our welfare, always want us to voice out where they can improve. even when you are sick, they wont want you to train, so called "theres another day to train". besides lots of "mindfuck", its quite ok.

gonna get my custom made cap next week! gonna take photo once i book out :D

my camp has this very cute grey kitten :)

how i wish i can rest at home for 1 week

you are the reason for me to work hard everyday. a picture of you tells me tomorrow i will be fine. sounds childish but this is how i do things :) thank you for coming here, at least i know i didnt fail totally

longer i live in this world, the more superficial i get. happiness is running out of me

Confinement Over!

2010-06-19T08:33:00.005+08:00

2 tough weeks i must say. i must say those who are selected are lucky with or without inverted commas. because out of thousands of guys each years, only ~500 are selected and mine include private school poly and ite. so even slimmer chances. but number will drop if they cannot make it. to educators, its easier to make one smart but harder to train them physically. but to trainers, its easier to train them, but harder to educate them. yes, we are selected for our iq i believe. anyway they say some of them paid people to take napfa so skip this 9 weeks of training, i swear when they come in, they will die flat. aim to hit 18 or more pull ups by the end of this training.

analyzation is my strong point. what you do, say, express, think, tells bit and pieces of information of you. no doubt some of them are quite smart, but personality and maturity have not hit the point. so sometimes they will sabo everyone, so no choice but to endure.

the first day was mentally tough. its like you had to depart from family, keep on hoping that they wont worry about you, wishing to tell them you will be fine, but you had to hold on your tears.

hows the training? every minutes, every seconds, you have things to do. even admin time aka free time, you might need to do some undone stuff. training pace picked up very quickly, number of push up increased a lot. and the annoying thing is, those who can do standard push up tend to worn out faster than "half fuck" push up. anyway, i injured my writing hand wrist on 4th day while doing my shutter run. 9.25 seconds, the acceleration, perfect braking with no delays, but braked with 2 hands, so slammed my hands too hard and injured. no one believe -.-. 10 days but it has not recovered. so it worries me so i went to see the medical officer. so he says maybe take xray so i did on yesterday, luckily it was just a sprain. anyway time begin to speed up after the training begins, and hour by hour, days by days, finally we are out. we drank a lot, eat a lot, sweat a lot. all requested for more veges so that they can shit properly lmao. i think i have gained 2kg? :(

ohyea my buddy and i were born on the same day! and our personalities are very alike, seriously. he's a Eurasian. the main difference is he is more daring in his decision while i do more consideration.

book out with my friends and ate nearby and share our stories. my parents are very happy to see me when im back. they said i have grown thicker. haha yea, because this training is for those unfit people. but because i only failed 2.4, so the results picked up faster than those unfit people. they told us to take photo of each week so we can ownself see our progress.

haiz our training is slightly longer than others =\ we end at sat afternoon unlike others which is fri night. need to buy some quite some stuff before i go in again =\

dad took some photo of me lol

_{woops cap slanted @_@}

_{FWAAAAAAAAAAAA}

every night i always worry if my last entry was too much. will it bring you into embarrassment, or me into trouble. asking myself is it wise to do it. day by day, your image slowly fades in my mind, wishing to go back to resurface them.

:)

2010-06-03T08:27:00.005+08:00

In life, there are 3 kinds of people

Live once. Why bother working so hard?
Live once. Do what you like!
Live once. Be the Best!

which one are you?

enlisting tmr D: people are damn shock or in disbelief that i got into you-know-what. i think mine is very extreme case so probably because i did well for the iq tests :\ i have gone through npcc, secondary school sticky situations, internship, 2 years hopefully will be alright for me

hope this period of time, everyone will take care of themselves

there are thoughts of giving up designing so probably this is the last art creation from me.

although less than thousand of word gone across us but i can tell certain element of you very different from others, i dont know why. yes i have yet to give up.

if 2 years my heart has not changed and the apple has not been picked, i will try again.

Roll the dices

2010-05-24T09:34:00.008+08:00

grad photos from ngee ann

_Huiping

_Edwin

_Davin

_ShengKiat

_Xueyi

_WeeTeng

_Stella

_Lyna

_WanXin

congrats ppl

went to do some swimming practice. slightly got the hang of it, just that i need to get the hang of how much air i need to let go each time.

sis bf recommended me to try officer when i go in. which he suggest me to take leadership course which is slightly tougher but it will benefit a lot when taking officer test. then can get the sword. gonna go in and see how it goes. being a financial adviser, he told me to carefully spend the money, not to always follow the crowd and spend everything. i guess i need to store some of the money so that when i come out i can do something with it.

many times i get shit and somehow i could get over it. but there is one thing i couldnt get over. what will happen in 2 years time? can i flip the pages? what kind of person will i become?

Pruss Huan

2010-05-11T09:58:00.003+08:00

+1. One year older, one year wiser, one year closer to the end. every year of this day, it always been a reflection day. reflecting how pathetic i am, staying at home at this day using my computer. perhaps the existence of facebook, many then know it was today. perhaps i have lost trust and faith on people that i werent expecting them doing the extra mile for me.

thanks edwin shengkiat davin marcus ivan xueyi bryce julin kelly zekai fiqa ben.lim colin xiulai huiping jiaoni elena yanhua victor tuanyeow junyuan shenghua yongsoon samantha jolene gifford boonthai gifford tingting stella.chaeng hweesheng yeening layhoon kinklebell tenk

as you can see this is a new skin. there might be some modification. no header so gonna think what to put there. some incompatibility of padding at the footer in chrome and safari. cant think of name for this too. oh well haha. anyway i have tried something different. instead of usual jpeg, im using png. i think its quite good. because jpeg only support rgb, gif does not support full rgba. but png supports it. so its the best format for transparency, which you can add more details to design such as shadowing.

i dont need anything. i just need reasons, reasons to be happy.

words surface in the flames. a name.

Progress

2010-04-08T14:49:00.005+08:00

kinda managed to clear my thoughts. putting down the baton might be the right move for me. having so many people standing the same tree isnt my style. defiance. oh well. no goals, no drive.

finally have the mood to clean my desktop. i think 3-4months havent clean it. talk about black pork floss! toothbrush ish ma weapon! ps: those arent my hair LOL! HAVE YOU CLEAN YOURS YET? anyway i have taken out 4 fans since theres not much diff in temp. why bother sucking in more dust and do more cleaning. save voltage for performance!

ok back to my programming. continuing my SOX. and kinda thought i need to redo my game start page. took idea from bb emblem. so i tried making one. not very good with details so still learning. but the chain looks good. then export to ps to add some effect. but perhaps i should add more colours. mmm which is nicer?

visit my sox post for code progress

Back to sg

2010-04-04T11:05:00.012+08:00

finally back to sg! a brief summary of what we did each day.

1st day

we reach tw around 4pm? so they drove us to some bridge with this interesting geometry. that time was damn cold la. so much breeze. then we went to some dim sum restaurant for dinner. then first night go simending which kinda weird, because we are not so called warmed up to go shopping or ready for such environment so everyone didnt buy much stuff. and because its a tour group so they dont let us free and easy until we like. so given 1hr plus we had to go back to bus and go back to hotel. sad right lol.

2nd day

fwaaa this is my breakfast. healthy shit right. LOL. cereal ftw! 2nd wasnt that exciting. a lot sightseeing. hills and rivers

also went to see the queen head stone thing. didnt take any nice photo so wont be showing any. dinner was awesome man. the spaghetti was damn good. this is my first serving

3rd day

more scenery. cant remember what happened at night.

4th day

no idea why but my breakfast always so much stuff. maybe they say breakfast should eat like a king? lol

then we took an energy saving boat at the love river. then theres this dragon fish statue. at night we went to another night market. we took train there and theres this very nice volcanic crystal ceiling art. it represent 5 elements. but i cant spot all 5 it so i took 4 shots only

5th and 6th day
phone ran out of battery so no photos. but we went to more hills and stayed there. if im not wrong, one of the night we stayed at one of their native hotel. then they had performances at night. yea so we were dragged to join into their dance rofl

7th day
went back to taipei. we went to 101 building. nothing much actually. so see a few buildings, at night went to evergreen hotel. then we went to shilin market. ohyea we went to this neat art restaurant for dinner. she uses mud and wood to do abstract art. damn cool.

last day
we went to their train station for some shopping. then bullet train and ready to fly back to sg at 4pm

last but not least. your dearest me! LOL

BWAAAAAAAAAH!

overall was quite ok. the choice of hotel was good. but the sightseeing, not really that nice for youngsters. and 1-2hrs for night market not exactly sufficient. eat and shop a bit, not enough to shop most of the shop also. the tour guide is entertaining but then at the last few days kinda disappointed. because they had to sell their local productions so they had to promote and bring us to listen to their talk. ok la considering their low pay, receiving some commission is their only way. but it made me felt as it we are being conned or forced to buy. so dont really like the whole idea.

Some Thoughts
had this dream during the trip. i just dont know if its a torture or a blessing. they say what you think in the day will appear in your dreams. and it did. resembles of someone who brought guilt into me. screw my brain for remembering so much stuff.

kinda sad that people who lives with me for so long, knows me for so long, doesnt understand me. i guess im way too complex. please dont assume what am i thinking or put words into my mouth, it pisses me off.

many people said im born with a silver spoon in my mouth. maybe its true? but i have shaped myself to be independent too. definitely not taking things for granted. who you know in the past has grown a lot. just because you have not seen me in action doesnt mean im still a caterpillar in a cocoon. im just not confident enough

addiction is like a drop of concentrated red dye tainting the whole ocean. slowly diffuse, increasing the area. asking myself how to revert. asking myself how it begins.

greed for opportunities, reaps nothing. my punishment.

Apple Tree

2010-02-15T08:00:00.009+08:00

23feb MIS 9-11
24feb MEB 2.30-4.30
26feb cca spin interview
26feb party at fagwin house!
1march bit grad bbq?
march/april pri sch gathering?

some changes to current plan of going taiwan. now we might be going korea with my sis bf family. mmmmm. maybe i need a roster of i want to do each day. like designing, programming, learning music? or something else @_@

woo bt team are considering me. if all well ends well, i maybe dont even need to study uni. this will be our future path?

mmm an interesting concept that we could relate to daily life. since yesterday its valentine's day then i shall relate it to going into relationship

imagine you walking in a forest of apple tree. not just you, but many other guys too. and the apples are girls. unique apples.

Decision factors
of you would be hunger. are you hungry enough to pluck down an apple for an bite. are you in the right attitude to receive an apple
of the apple would be ripeness. is she ready to "eaten", or "fall" for you?

then comes to 3 situations:
Wait: Saw an apple that you like and sat under the tree and wait. Thinking one day it will fall for you.
Outcome: If the apple can sense your interest, maybe it might fall. All you need is to catch it. If you fail to do it, then too bad, it hits the floor. If the apple cant sense your interest, you end up sitting there waiting and waiting...

Pluck: Saw an apple that you like. and went to pluck the apple down. You know what you want and you are sure that that apple is the one. Determined.
Outcome: You put in effort to pluck down the apple. But certain times the apple doesnt come off from the tree. Thats when you have to move on.

Wind: Through 3rd party or element that causes the apple to drop.
Outcome: Fate gave you the opportunity to make you notice the apple and make the apple fall. Will you walk off when the apple drop? Will you catch it? A moment of chance.

So what if you have an apple?
Greed: perhaps you think that one apple isnt enough, you went to pluck for more. just hope that you dont have stomachache for having so many apple
Thievery: you put the apple on a table and went off for a while. then some other guy walked pass and saw the apple. he thinks the apple belongs to no one. and he took the apple.

its not very well elaborated but its for you to apply them in the thinking. so what is your apple tree story?

7 years ago i stood under a tree. arrogantly said, this apple will "fall" for me. and i waited for a few years. and it never did.

true that many apple caught my eyes. but i feel that there is only one that emits a different radiance. a radiance that can answer my questions. i waited and hesitated for a long time. too long. i had my insecurities too, so many people stood at the same tree and looking at it. Perhaps im the first one who tried to pluck it down. a different outcome as what i thought. usually it gives way or not. but this, the branch snapped but it doesnt came off. thinking that maybe the apple doesnt want to plucked by me, thats what i stopped halfway. should i try again? i dont know. but i know that i will hold this apple with 2 hands. nothing more.

yes mum dad stop asking me to get a gf lol. i will try harder i think? D:

looking at one of friend got rejected. the way he took the blow was damn scary. he rant insult and shown violence publicly. maybe that is why guys scared of plucking the apple. rejection and embarrassment. a Vorpal blade through our heart.

For those who havent see my fyp website. this is my design layout

did some designing during my break. 2 of them is for the faculty test for the viscom. but i dont think i have sufficient time to complete and send it.

theres 2 more for this part. limited to 4 shapes. triangle square rect and circle. and asked to do an abstract art

this part is to show how strong is ur 3d visualization. and they give a small part to it and you have to complete it. theme must be related to hanging on the wall.

End of FYP!

2010-02-10T08:42:00.011+08:00

i have decided. if i really gonna submit my portfolio, one of them will be a drawing of beautiful green apple. this time i wont screw it up ^_^.

its one long and interesting day. started off with seeing phoenix. wow it been 5months since i saw phoenix. shes someone older than me and always see her during my internship. but at least she knows nothing happened to me after disappearing so suddenly after my iap. reach sch at 830 and do some changes to codes and slides. forgot to do some minor tweaking. went up at 930. felt the adrenaline rush. xiubei group went out with smiles. which kinda worry us. we went in. plug in power. plug in vga. lets own

Doomie: BALLS?!
John: I like the sound of it!
JingXia: OI! why you take my face! show u my raving rabbid face :@

John: i gonna close my eyes. if we score AD you guys have to thumbs up
JingXia and Doomie: DAMN! :c

talked about design concept, show google analytics integration, show terms and private policy. show buying process, compare products, add into cart, remove, check out, login, show urgent delivery, show the integration of itlg knowledge, 1 test case on date selected, submit. show update account, invoice management. into intranet, shown almost everything, but only test change user info, told them we used smtp, show our unique crystal report. pass to john. show mobile, show google map.

QNA
SK
1st question: show us the crystal report pie chart. how i know which is which - start from 3 o'clock, solved
2nd question: show us intranet invoice, is there any storing of when they confirm, usually 30 days credit from invoice created.
3rd question: are u guys gonna integrate it?
4th question: update us if company gonna integrate it

LSC
1st question: i like this application, i dont cant think of anything to ask
2nd question: are you guys gonna integrate it?
3rd question: are you guys gonna integrate it?
4th: payback period maybe too long? why? - dataplans for 20 staff

FZ
SILVERLIGHT?! - no SILVERLIGHT, we ish cant show on NP server!

went out, CHW says
you guys did a good job! TAKE PHOTO
SMILE OF ABSOLUTE VICTORY!

went out of the door seeing jiaoni emo. kinda worried for them. went down and continue discussing how ownage it is. then we went orchard for a celebration!came back for napfa. failed again! lol. damn why do i have stitches everytime i run there. but i passed my pull ups ~_~.

why must you tell me that lightblue red and rainbow comes in two?

actually i felt sad when i jiaoni group didnt make it because ultimately it is under my wing of care. shes sad that shes did the web application but didnt work. fucking dumbfounded when she told me she cried for very long. back then i really wish that they can go through proper brainstorming process and i will help them code. but sadly they couldnt and it is too late for me to realise it. if i knew that this will be their state, back then i would have done most of the decision making and salvaged them before 4th audit. after that its too late, too many things to rush. just dont wish that they will feel that they are underdog forever. oh well =\

fade

2010-01-27T21:15:00.012+08:00

the assessment was quite good. my family encourages me to take it so i decided to give it a try. not sure if my delta people are faking but i think i performed quite well. funny thing was i shrunk 2cm @_@!

ok i need a coach to teach me swimming LOL. gg kana pwned

i wonder what is this guy thinking. gonna get pwned real bad

its multitouch screen with finger gestures, so im simulating zoom-in

lets see. this shit is done. slept at 4.30 and woke up at 7 just to ensure that i can deliver a very good prototype. and i did. teacher was very impressed by xna due to the interactivity of it. 3 weeks of coding and thinking how to do the algorithm, and photoshopping. but cost was screwed up just like any other group. we just suck at ROI dont we LOL. but huge drawback for coding until so late. fucking tired.

some decision was made to do a pri sch class gathering. irony was that a few later then i realise i kinda hate that period of my life as much as secondary

Highlight

2010-01-18T16:43:00.016+08:00

finally get this shit done. imbeciles. zomg is anyone going to ntu talk on 30th?

ohyea those who are in np can view my fyp project. maybe do a test run and leave a comment at the feedback area. of course that is the front end. the back end i wont be revealing anything. but just some idea of it, its a backend administrative control. i will be using google maps api too. and one of it is for mobile too. but for now just stick with the front end. silverlight shit isnt working i know so dont need to report thanks. can only be viewed if u are connected to np.net. so home connection cant get in
http://baweb1.np.edu.sg/project/iip/group02

some improvement to previous posters and added one. the green one too crappy. full copyright rights to the photographer and granny. for education purpose and will remove if told so. the left side one is 100% my idea. instead of using hours, now im using age. everything is vectorized. didnt want to put the photo in actually. but if i dont, no one knows what it is about. ok the 2nd one is through masking a granny photo using arrow key, below right of "L". hourglass idea will be kept since quite a few said it is nice.

Tradeoff. When u gain something, you lose something. On daily context, when you get smarter, you will stick to solutions you know and you will avoid new solutions. but if love, a tradeoff, the negative factor outweighs the positive, why do people still go for it? fire is a good servant but a bad master. same theory applies. if both parties didnt put in equal amount, things will definitely get out of hands.

Extreme situation. a situation that put people to the test. you are right, character is what people should go for. maybe that is why i find you interesting. perhaps i have been living on the world of distrust, wealth and looks have equal footing with character. can you spend years with someone who is disfigured? can you spend years with someone who is poor? i believe human nature, we cant. unless we are blind. even for me, if im poor or ugly, i would tell my another half, i dont want you to suffer, you deserve more than this, leave me and get a new life.

battling for 20 years alone. won and lost. all i get was sorrow and solitude. isnt it better to have someone. even if that person cant help much, ultimately, you know that he/she is by your side. even if you lost, you know that its not as pathetic as winning alone.

contradiction of my life. being the youngest and only son but i dont get as much care from parent. perhaps my 2nd sis seeks attentions but i dont. the only care my parents have given me is through money. maybe that is why i think money is a piece of shit. my god-parents too shifted their care to my 2nd. certain time i feel that it sucks to be good. people begin to form this standard in their mind that you will do this and that. and they slowly stop showing care.

i wanted to give up. no idea if i can deliver or are you ready. until the 2nd dream hit me. now im in deeper confusion.

3 weeks later is my fyp presentation. mmm where is my blazer? i hope that i can see you that day :) be my energy booster for that day. fate let things happen please

damn cool sia ys has gathering his freelancing team. ME?! ok la maybe not. i pondered for a while. EVEN if i were to go for programming, at most game programming. i find forming equations for xna quite challenging. i still prefer designing?

XNA

2010-01-11T08:28:00.012+08:00

New project means new challenge! ok as mentioned, im doing xna for it. so i need new calculation for it. i did a few part of it already. ok how it works, i need to do a device with a map shown. and this map i want to make it able to react to finger gestures. so it can be able to drag the map and zoom in and out. so first thing is i need a picture of the device. next is the map.
- completed clamping
- completed mousepoint zooming
- completed precise position after zooming
- sound of beeper has been recorded from my alarm clock LOL!
- completed 4 finger gestures
- button class up! from my SOX class
- textbox class will be in next. from my SOX class
- need design of watch and device
- need picture of you are here
- need to code staff admin alert
- need to code watch
- maybe need to code advertisements

it is when you have seen the darkest side of humanity then you will see the same light as me. trust? how much does it worth? i rather trust myself. at least i do know that i keep my promises

o lvl result was released yesterday. kinda remind me 3 years ago. interesting feeling. most of the grades i didnt expect happened. lol!

it shocks me when people remembers my name. especially a teacher. LOL. come on cant i be insignificant? i always wonder why do they want to remember me. my existence? my personality? or my knowledge? 1 year later after i got my o lvl results, i met my english teacher. what was in my mind is she probably forgot about me. but she remembered, of course not my name but as a person. so i kinda wonder why did she remember me. im insignificant back then. i was thinking maybe because i always fail english but o lvl i didnt. thanks to her, most of our c6 were saved by her due to the examiners' attitude, who knows we might fail. many times during occasions i only meet people once, i will tell them, nah no need for you to know my name.

been searching for the meaning of happiness. i always wonder, does love = happiness? when i helped this group of girls in programming. its very interesting that they define happiness as being with friends. perhaps i have lost trust in many people around me. i think most guys define happiness as attaining achievements. probably that is why most of them love gaming. because you achieve by being the "best". best in your own world. stepping out of this kind of minuscule victory. im aim to be the best in career, in relationship. that is why i always talk about my goals.

no matter how hard fate wants to test me, tempt me. once i have made my decision, nothing can stop me.

hierarchy of power. it is an interesting concept that i thought of last year. its about how certain situation can affect one's power over another. in this world we are living in, theres no such thing as absolute power. you can be the king, having the ability to command. but if your people dont like you, you will be overthrown. another example, if a terrorist met a police, their power is low. but if the are in shadow, their power is a few times fold because no one knows their power of destruction and when they will attack. another example, our parents by default have power over us. but when they grow older, we will end up having more power. so this concept means that in any situation, although it appears that the person may be the most powerful person, but there will still be conditions that will weaken their power. interesting

a few things that im thinking what should i get. weighing the cost and benefit LOL!
ipod touch 32gb - iphoon ish like too good for meh. ma phoon is still working well. personal organizer, interesting apps which i can try, portable entertainment since i have so many cartoons ^_^.
ps3 - puey game lors. damn interested to try blazblue but kinda lame if im playing that. this has recurring cost too like getting other games. i think i can use hdmi converter to dvi and connect to my monitor LOL! so i can skip the tv cost too. but my parents might wdf because they bought ps2 but in the end they nv play -_-
electric guitar - yea learn lors. but i ish dunno how to pick. so it will be good to get the noob package so that noobs can practice first then own the pros!
more art books or courses? - sharpen up my skills. maybe learn AI since its very alien to me or maybe learn how to do illustrating and painting in PS.
what should i get mmm

3rd Audit

2010-01-08T16:55:00.008+08:00

2 posters for my dpm.
credit to sources: http://www.flickr.com/photos/batega/1865482908
and http://www.flickr.com/photos/myphotoshopbrushes/3242239958/
and http://www.flickr.com/photos/pinksherbet/2112661541/
these 2 posters are going down the bin. did many enchantment in his idea but because the whole idea has no link with what we are doing, so we have to redo. thanks. need to touch up on my skills, looks kinda raw

kinda wonder what triggered this urge few weeks ago. it is so strong that i could not focus during my revision and my papers. and indeed my results speak for themselves. but i can only blame myself

thank god, this week has passed. but next week theres 1 interview and 1 formal presentation. 3rd audit was so much better than 2nd and 1st thou some error because i copy and paste the codes and they suddenly didnt work. now i have to think how should i do my crystal report when its not in my web developer.

help other groups in programming. i just find it disturbing to see people being helpless when they work very hard for it. too bad, in this world we are living, working hard isnt enough. in business, your client doesnt care about process. they only care about final result.

hey but this is fyp, why are you helping them? indeed, im hesitant when sharing my codes but sorry competition isnt my cup of tea. pri6, i told this to my friend, competition give you absolute determination to work hard, to excel. but competition is a negative energy. if you continue dwelling on this kind of energy, it will slowly eat you up. instead, use positive energy such as passion. maybe that explains why my knowledge can sustain very long?

it just annoys me when people use me as a benchmark. when people asked for my results, i told them and they say they do better than me. i will tell them, so what do you get in return? money? a moment of intelligence? if im serious, you stand no chance :) too bad, exams are too overrated. can memorize doesnt mean can bring it to application level. many times i just think that some of the high gpa people are a joke.

damn shock when my friend told me last sem everyone couldnt finish their fyp lol. i think because of this important function that they struggle a lot. which is gridview manipulation. it is a set of codes that i worried that i will need it a lot. that is why i started that part first and lucky enough i managed to grasp the concept. and its this set of code that made me and ys gave up during our mwa. and perhaps because their whole sem no one manage to get it, that is why they are so backwards. HEHE but i did it! and i have helped 2 groups already. and incoming 3rd group. supposed to be one of my secret weapon. damn D= but still. it doesnt change my decision of not wanting to be a programmer =)

since my fyp web is 95% done. not to spoil the fun but im gonna use xna for my wba

haiz need to rest. dying from all the helping. not enough sleep

OVERRR

2009-12-19T11:17:00.015+08:00

WHOSE THERE! which bugger used my account

lmao so sick of writing my notes until i did this crap. my table ish messish. see top left corner. those are notes from past few paper. whats their future? TORN and into garbage bin. BLEHHHHHHHHHH

ok did some simple photo retouching

i was given a "slanted" photo. not really slanted actually. its because the photographer didnt take the image flat, making one side bigger than another. and its slanted. i did rotation but it doesnt really solves the one side bigger thing but its achievable. next to make it more focus, i have removed the background, other obstacles, reflections. the thing about retouching is you need sources. so there has or should be part of the image that we can use to "cover" up. so i didnt retouch some of the windows. removed the tree. increased the saturation to make it more vibrant.

learned this useful tip from my facebook group. its the luminous blending. interesting function which i didnt explore. its under layer style. its good to bring out details with certain shades you want to omit. the thing about ps is too many hidden tricks. like some stuff you can hold clt with, alt with. shift with. then each of them can do different things. then you will get confused

mmm i should get some smudge, painting, grunge brushes.

damn. Silverlight 4 beta already so awesome. they begin to cover up some function flash could do but sl cant in 3. like webcam and microphone, printing and many more. heads up, sl shall own! say goodbye to application that will constantly showing frames

mmm google chrome os. but have anyone heard of asus express gate? i kinda confused how are they different. asus express gate obviously isnt an os. but it also skip these hardware initializing and it also start up quickly just like google chrome. both of them are for internet based user. that being said, i saw some critics on express gate. which i wonder if google os will receive them. very smart concept. i believe why that did that was because they want to integrate them with cloud computing. users can cut down cost on harddisk, os, graphic card, processor. since what you are dealing ultimately is in the "cloud", you just need some size to save it into your computer. unless you want a ssd which is more expensive, else normal harddisk 60gb is more than enough? OS, no idea if its free but im sure its cheaper than windows. graphic card, no application means no games, so you get intel integrate graphic card which is sufficient. processor, dont need too good one. ram 4gb still good. but if you go for cloud computing style, the cost is generally over time. so in short run it appears that you have saved a lot money, but on long run, it might even up burning your pocket if the cost overweight your hardware cost. but one thing is that you dont need to worry too much about your hardware being obsolete because ultimately you just need the internet.

true that we spend about 90% of our time on web applications, but we still need windows application. i think windows application process faster? we cant like do 3d rendering, video editing, image editing can we? too much rendering. and you want to upload your video on internet to edit it? or write documents on the net? confidentiality? oh did i mention that you are as good as nothing if you dont have internet connection? i think users shouldnt worry about boot up time. as long as there is high quality of work and things that meet their needs that is enough

bought these 2 books. its about designing. and they are my first set of books! its not like other books in the collection. it actually explain the concept and its quite interesting. kinda thought over it for some time but i just bought it lol! the left side one is more on vector. vector is a very interesting genre. and whats so special about this book is that the artist only use 8 basic shapes i think. and through these shapes he used the tricks of vector art such as common area, minus, addition.

i think the idea of graphic design always been confused with advertising forms. i interpret graphic design as their purpose. you design it not for profit or achieve something(e.g. convincing your audience). but you design because you want it to be nice. good example is your wallpaper. would you want a wallpaper that advertise you some shit? so in terms of words, generally less, unless its typography design

Fundamental of OOP
im not a very pro programmer but i will talk a bit about oop. even thou i uses it, im not very pro at it also such as static and overwrite i hardly use them. oop is very important in programming. it always been stressed during lectures. when we started learning programming we just anyhow put our codes. when i first taught oop, i struggle a lot, too use too our "shit here and shit there" style. but later on you will realise oop is a important key to keep your things neat. in xna, this concept is a must. because theres too much calculation. we cant just copy and paste. my current fyp website i have used it. so which set of codes should we use oop? codes that you will constantly use.
the most basic thing that we need imo is data pulling from your database. so in my project i did Delete Insert Select Update and Custom. i have set it in such a way that instead of usual 1 string of sql statement, i break it into sections. it will simplify your codings. so you dont need to keep sending the whole statement and worry about the syntax
for instance, in usual select statement, you have select Fields From Table WHERE field2 = Value
so i break it into 4 sections, outcomefield, justifyfield, justifyvalue, table. and give name for them so when you program, you know which is for which. make good use of overloading. for instance when you want to justify the value, instead of usual string, make another one for integer. ok select class obviously you want return value! so remember to create a public variable where you can retrieve the data after you run the class. AND who knows you just need to know if there is any data in the value. so you can set a bool too! bool to test if the value has row. so this really speeds up your programming. so people like me can spend 5hrs gaming and still catch up idiots who doesnt grasp this concept. oh did i mention these you can reuse the object after you use it? so you dont need to keep declaring variable for each same kind of datapulling BYE!

Defiance

2009-12-15T10:07:00.015+08:00

Defiance: a daring or bold resistance to authority or to any opposing force
defiance to me requires some level of logic and psychology. back in sec 2 where my science teacher thrown us a question. a normal egg has how many cell? those who says 2 or more raise up your hand. everyone did except me. and when she asked for 1 cell, im the only person who raise up. the truth is i dont even know the answer. and im right. it might sound easy but to defeat your unwillingness to be mocked at is another thing.

given a coin, nation and flower, which is head? we were taught that nation will be head. but when im young i wasnt taught about this. i always believe even now that the head is flower. why is the beautiful picture the tail and the ugly one as the head?

ok since im graduating soon. perhaps exam tips before it becomes useless. tips and tricks to mcq. back in the past when i was pri 5-6. my science always score highest in class. not because im that darn smart but theres some level of psychology in it. its like thinking why did the person who set this paper do it this way. back then science mcq takes up 60% and section b is 40%. so on average i can hit like 54-58. then then section b i just get 24+ thats enough to get my throne. and theres this time 2 people were copying my answer. then one of them did 50/60 and section b she did badly. so my teacher question her why she so zai LOL! funny story. ok back to the tactics:
1) i know this is commonly said but no 1 take it seriously. its MCQ. means out of 4 choices, definitely one of them bound to the correct one
2) chances of getting the right one is 25%. but in certain situation its more than 25%
3) questions with "none of the above" is your killer. it means you have to evaluate all 3 choices. and it also mean that theres more to it!
4) questions with "all of the above" has highest tendency of getting correct. but in the cases of you knowing one of them is wrong, you can strike it out.
5) hesitation kills you. back in the past where bullshit like 2 answers are given. but you have to evaluation which is more Accurate or bigger scale of truth than another. but this practice slowly disappear. so for example you read the first choice which is correct. dont fucking bother reading on. it will tempt you.
6) Choices question. like A B only type. this can be quite tricky and easy. look at the trend. if all 4 choices has A then DUH a is correct. read back to 2). next look at which occurrence of other choices. e.g. ABC ABD ACE. so which has higher probability? ABC because B and C occur once.
7) Warning and confidence - Confident with your answer. but when you are not, look at the trend in your answer. is it too many straight A? B? C? D?
8) Never leave any question empty. this has been stressed but many people still ignore it. in the cases of no time, spam all of them with same letter. BUT in the case of having deduction for every wrong, dont take the risk when you dont know. this kind of mcq usually take place at higher order institutes.
9) Power of mcq - do you know that mcq has helped me a lot at other sections? dont underestimate this power. typical theory based mcq will test on terminology. and sometimes these terms can help you spell, or explain later part of the paper. make use of them.

sadly mentality of many people havent mature. if one day your wife earns more than you. more superior than you. smarter than you. what will you do? im seeing narrow minded people! they have this idea that guys have to do better than them. sorry dudes but i will have to side ladies. why is there for you to lose? shouldnt you be proud that you have such a wonderful wife? isnt it better that your wife earn more money? like more income for the family so you can live in a better life? in fact i feel that ladies should earn even more than guys. considering the fact they have to settle down later part of their life for most. so shouldnt they be rewarded now? if you are capable then prove them wrong. peace.

a joke that i heard a few days back. they say that co2 is becoming a threat. im like DUH. since when its not. its not threat when people are not even taking things seriously. what does it means? genocide? massacre? no way lol. humans do produce co2 but it doesnt mean killing them will cut down on it. obviously theres other ways. common sources of co2 is through combustion. so burning things yea. so eradicate cigarettes and cigars. too bad im born to hate smokers. i couldnt stress more. idiots can smoke more than 5 a day. they can spend 5-10mins standing, staring blank. when 5-10mins you can freaking do many starjumps situps pushups or even sprinting. if 1 cigarettes contribute 1cm^3 of co2(obviously its more than that), then think about how many smokers in this world. each day they might contribute a few million or billions cm^3 of co2. dont be a smart alec and say trees will replenish it. we dont have so many trees each cm^3 make multiple almighty catastrophe. think about it. another thing would be burning incense and other hell money stuff. sorry this might sound unfilial but as a parent do you want your children or whole nation die because you want "money". i think ultimately is the sincerity. you visit you pray thats enough. the extend of burning so much stuff, creating so much pollution, i find it not reasonable enough. and we are burning paper! talk about countries who need books. let me ask you, how do you recycle ashes? yea they are biodegradable but doesnt mean you can immediately get the paper after its burnt. i kinda worried for the future. it seems damn bad. especially the fact that i doubt glacier can be reverted back. hence its more like once its done its done. whats more you can do if world comes to an end? all the inventions, intelligences, success, miracles, efforts are back to ground zero.

some thoughts over these days
time to study.

zzz

2009-12-12T09:55:00.004+08:00

no idea whats wrong with me. given the opportunity but let it go. zzz

time-line check. need to meet up with groupmates during holidays.

12 Dec - MIS Test 8:30
14 Dec - MEB Test 11:00
15 Dec - WBA Test 1:30
16 Dec - IES Test 11:00
MUST DO SOMETHING IN-BETWEEN!
4 Jan - Creative Document (tentatively) - must clear it within 1 day
6 Jan - Idea Fest
7 Jan - Data Gathering BComm
8 Jan - WEB Virtual World Assignment
15 Jan - 3rd Audit
18 Jan - WISP presentation - Must clear it within 1 day
27 Jan - WBA Sentosa Assignment
4 Feb - Sales Proposal Bcomm
7 Feb - Fyp ppt due

total count
1 web + 2 window application
6 presentation
3 interview

gonna cut down my silverlight stuff. its too much considering my groupmates knowledge and some of them are going oversea (-_- arent we doing FYP?!) so im gonna use premade stuff. WHICH is deepzoom. with light coding. thats all.

2nd Audit

2009-12-04T15:21:00.011+08:00

to intj, every failure leaves a mark. this is the 3rd mark for this sem.

no doubt that our 2nd audit terrible. but i kinda expected it. true that both of our presentation for the week was good but its not because of the allocation of their work. but my work. im spending too much time on them instead of my part. i have to edit their slides when they arent good with formatting slides. consider this fact, i have been sleeping at 1am+. kinda stupid if we go for 2nd round of review when its obviously my part that didnt deliver. even sam also think that i need some help too. im doing interface and coding. but again no pictures how to do it? perhaps i have been too helpful. going around helping other groups. why we failed? because we have no content. we only have a dull but functional admin page. true that i havent started on formatting. too late to say i will do it now.

so next plan. rush the whole fucking shit without sl first. possible? why not? the thing is i just couldnt explain to her how the disposable table works. its more complicated as you think. and yea my customer side stuff arent up. i kinda believe that programming is about focusing one by one rather than everything out then do every details.

rofl i kinda thought no other group will do as far as me so i stopped and help out my groupmates on meb and wba. lmao i was so damn wrong lol. no worries. its about catching up. anyway admin side is 75% done. and since sam is helping out in the product side. then the invoice part will be even faster. makeover on the website. now it looks full of content. gg

you are one fucked up person. cant believe that you have thoughts of bringing everyone down just for your own benefit. its a waste of my time to talk to you. wait for my answer for you.

may the silver beam of light purify your evilness

mmm. my kindergarten closed down for sometime. im thinking if i were to use that area, what can i do with it? because its at heartland and its quite inaccessible. unless there is sufficient marketing, else high chances of failing. the area is damn big also. but i think the inaccessibility might outweigh the rate per square. so it might end up to be "cheaper". but again whats the concept. mmm

YUM!

2009-12-02T17:46:00.003+08:00

time to spoonfeed you noobs with answers!

Answer: splitting it to 1 2 and 4units.
why? first day he gets 1, 2nd day he gets 2 and return 1, third day he gets 2 and 1, 4th he returns 2,1 and get 4 and so on. so he will eventually gets 7. quite hard actually. even i cant do it lol. i was thinking of wavy cut.

Answer: just take out 1 marble from black and white box!
why? since it cant be mix marble box then it has to be 1 colour set. so from there you can decide the rest. i managed to solve this LOL! before that i was thinking of using heat radiation, then use thermometer see which induct the most heat = black and least = white. lawl!

Answer: Simple. make sure it cuts through the centre of the paper and the hole
the concept is as long as it cuts through the centre, it will definitely give u a half. so same concept it will cut the paper half. i managed to grasp the centre point of the hole but i was thinking if we go through the centre of the paper it might not be half. LOL but it did.
2nd Answer: this is what i thought of. direct reflection of centre of the hole. yea like if it is at top left 4cm by 4cm then the reflection is bottom right 4cm by 4cm. so u inter join it. eventually it will still cut through middle point of the paper.

Answer: 14
Why? see the picture. first try do 14, then drop to 13 then 12, etc. and if inbetween 1 crack u can slowly +1 until 2nd object breaks. this way u will keep ur tries within 14. interesting huh. this question is very very hard. anyone who hasnt heard of this kind of question i will say the probability of getting it right is near 0. because human brain work in this way. 1 method answer all. so normally people will say 19 tries because they took 9-11 as the answer. and 10 itself is somewhat the peak of the graph. you cant get any lower. so its very very unlikely for someone to come up with 14. if you did, good job. you have outsmarted billions of people in this world.

Quiz!

2009-11-27T17:03:00.002+08:00

as promised. quiz from my sis interview. answers will be reveal at my next post.

Question 1

a vendor will be working under you for 7 days. you are given a long piece of gold. you are supposed to pay him EQUAL amount of gold EACH DAY. however, you can only "cut" the piece of gold twice.
note that: you can only "cut" in straight line. no other forms of division other that "cutting". mean you cant melt the gold etc.

Question 2

there are 3 boxes. they contain black white and mixture of black and white respectively. given that they are stored in a box that definitely isnt what the content is. (means labeled black box will not store black marbles) and you are given one tries to take out 1 marble from 1 of the 3 boxes. how will you identify which is which.
note that: only taking out 1 marble is allowed. no additional props. dont be like me say use heat induction, then put a thermometer and see which is the hottest = black coolest = white.

Question 3

given a rectangle piece of paper. and there will be a random positioned rectangle hole inside the paper. how will you derive a way to divide the paper equally half despite the random positioned rectangle hole. so you can only make 1 straight division. this method must suit all rotation size and position of the rectangle hole.

Question 4

given 2 similar objects that will break at unknown storeys of building. if the building has 100 storeys, what is the minimum tries you have to make to find out which storey it will break. and how?
hint: less than 19

Fresh

2009-11-15T20:17:00.006+08:00

i was totally "beaten up" after the presentation. but now i look at the report, thank god i have someone who is very strong in english in my team. im damn sure that this will put us back to the track. since the next step is execution, then i want to be the one who sets standard. this phase is somewhat my most confident phase. so we will just see ^_^

just solved one useful coding that we will need in this whole programming. which is the send email. i have started it before the interview but didnt manage to solve it. so last night until afternoon i tired to solve it. and i did it. :) its way complicated than i think. for the sake of my effort, i think i shant share it for now :D

mmm its quite interesting to see who visited my blog. previously i saw BT trying to search for their name the search engine and happen to hop into my blog. but i also see some results of people viewing my 5 element picture. i think theres 3? then comes to my sec schoolmates. mmm some view from nyp etc. lol interesting

what you see in the past is different thing as what you see now. you arent that witty anyway :)

what is this? this is what i need to know for the project. and since this works, i think my website should be quite ok. ok i did 4 things at here

1) first button send email works. been searching high and low for solutions of this but i did it.
2) beside it, it is my class passing. i want to know if i can pass value from class and it works. quite a stupid test. but i will be using class in a different way this time compared to mwa and ine.
3) 3rd button is to understand how does reader works and now i know.
4) 4th is non connection based of coding. if theres more results you cant just give individual a ID for it. so somehow i managed to find out which row is selected which will help in my coding too.

how much i have improved? quite a lot i think. after doing xna, i learned quite a lot in oop. even the 4th button i didnt managed to get it work when i was soloing my mwa. and ys also didnt managed to get it work.

dpm is quite an headache. i got this feeling it will be 2 or less man work. it sucks. after working with one of them i felt its the end. i kinda thought this sem gonna kill me. i just hope they ask me to be the leader so that i can plan the schedule properly. 2 females so what? if one ended up slacking, its as good as dead. i ended up sending my first email to them with a stern tone. its how the world work i guess. damn i need love LOL!

Gold

2009-11-12T09:30:00.008+08:00

yes its a gold! thats how i comfort myself. ok whats gold? my napfa! ok just kidding. to me its a gold. i felt that i have put in effort in every station and i deserve a self proclaim gold. consider the fact that i did all 6 stations with gastric. i think i didnt have something in my stomach so the acid was killing me. its near dinner! 5pm! lawl. ok first station pwned quite a few of people not excluding me. I DID 3! lawl. then was sit up. i did 58!(with gastric) when i do until 48 the guy said left 20 seconds i was like ok wdf slowly do then. sit up was the easiest for me. although you cant see the abs behind the thin layer of fats, theres muscles behind it LOL! then was standing board. i thought that i will get pwned when i did 210+ at home(with all the obstacles around). but i did 240! YAY! rigged test. then sit and reach. 55cm! ok who says that tall people suck at this? then shutter run. which i thought its even more rigged. usually i will end with 11+ sec but i end up with 9.5. probably because john was beside me so i know how fast i need to get. 2.4 was terrible. totally unprepared. i wanted to run with a towel but i didnt take it. and the feeling wasnt there when you are there waiting for the start. then when they say go everyone just dash. ended up a lot people failed too. i failed with 14:05 i think. but i have to say because of my gastric. the first quarter i already experience the gastric pain. and i stopped at 3 rounds without even jogging fast which i normally can do more than 4 rounds.

another topic. educators normally we call them as white collar worker. to me, based on how parents want to protect their child, educators are like zombies. they only teach what ever they have to. moral values crap are not included unless thats the subject. they have absolutely no power anymore. and i feel that it sucks to be a teacher now. why am i bringing up this topic? few days ago my group and i went to do interview. and then we ate at woodlands Mcdonald. then it brings flashback of my 2nd sem. so i told sam about the story. and sam told me about one of her project group. when i heard it i was damn unhappy. the way someone who can do so much shit and get over with it. and she can fucking lie to a teacher and the teacher believes her and protected her. and teacher dont want her groupmate to pursue the matter. im shock of how he came to the point where he totally convinced by the liar when other 3 are damn unhappy with her performance. (im trying to make it ambiguous as possible) is it because the teacher wants to save his ass and not make someone fail? its a contradiction of what he teaches. isnt justice that we are talking about? i saw the liar a few days ago so im imagining one thing. if she was to approach me for help, i will say are you fucking serious? are you sure u dun want me to fucking hit you in the face?

then it comes down to another story. it was sec 2 when i was doing my geog project. it was meant to be a 4 man project but 2 pussies did nothing. zekai and i did a lot of research and such. and during presentation we were the only 2 doing it. and they sit down and watch. and you know what? i did a last min stunt. under the done by area i didnt even put their name. so during presentation teacher say why is it 2 people only? then they 2 were unhappy say why nv put my name and shouted back to put their name. i say because u 2 did nothing. zekai wasnt very approved in doing this but i just do it. so teacher ask did they do anything for this project? what a leading question. they say yea they did. (they fucking thick skin) if im that smart that time, i probably ask you whats the content. in your face. so the teacher negotiate with us. WDF? he was like blind? i cant draw a line who is telling the truth. then the teacher say just put their name. i was damn fucking pissed off back then. how the teacher protect them. so what? teacher doesnt want people to fail? failing a student means the teacher has failed to teach when there are SO many elements to determine why a student will fail? shouldnt it boils down the student's upbringing? it seriously enrage me when i think of this story.

sadly, in life theres no such thing as justice anymore. in this new age, a new formula has formed. money is the determinant of justice.

we are not inferior. we are here to make a statement. a statement that goes, we will prove you wrong.

13/11
did my iip presentation. disappointed. i think the whole idea of me wanting to prove some fact so much that i have deviate from our goals. for that perhaps i have overestimated my groupmates capabilities. we got a 5 6 7 and one unknown number. im very sian when i saw it. i think we have to change our "play style". obviously this way of doing project doesnt work. now i realise its not easy to be a good leader. besides your work, you have to manage them. and its really a pain when one cant do a good job and cant present well. how should we tell him/her. to scold? or warn? or say? or boycott? and whats the outcome? will the person change for the better or the worst? this kind of thing have to be in consideration. i really question myself. why didnt we fucking stay at 3 people. beats me. not to push all blames but we ourselves procrastinate too much. thats y i wanted them to get all the info asap but we cant seem to bring the date earlier. haiz. forget it. shouldnt brood too much. just hope that it will be better from now. how to start my SL when they are not performing?

its so tedious that i cant even feel the need to worry about interview. for a moment i dont even remember bcomm exist. but i must say somehow somewhere i have changed. even my skills. 2nd sem i screwed up my IS modules. i cant stress how fucking bad it is. i read the whole fucking script as though im some retard who has stumble illness. and i know it very well that reading isnt my style of presenting

certain times i wonder why. why is the one who is constantly helping people around him isnt receiving help from the rest? like napfa i push strangers to run during 2.4. but what do i get in return? nothing? it sucks to be a good person?

lol during my napfa perhaps i didnt take care of my laptop. now the wiring from screen to mainboard is loose. now im seeing lines. lawl. and i notice that my old laptop maybe not spoil. its the harddisk i guess. so if i replace it with new one, install windows 7 and find ways to repair the stupid fan, maybe it will work again. urgh lousy brand. should have done more research. desktop still the best.

Beam of light - SilverLight

2009-11-07T00:26:00.008+08:00

yes seems like i can use silverlight. RAWR! ok i just started on it. apparently the report stuff can only be done AFTER we do our interview which is tuesday. because monday i have to do spin stuff. and i also worried that our interview might class either one of them. hope not. so besides what we can do now, i finally have some time. NOT to slack. but to begin my silverlight journey. ok just started 2hr ago. eh the outcome wasnt the same as i see in most website. maybe because not much stuff yet. kinda stuck on uploading the application onto the web but now its fixed. different platform also allow me to learn new stuff. like xna, it improves my knowledge of oop. now its heavily event handler based, maybe it will help me too? the book im reading is based on 2.0 but now is 3.0 so hopefully not much changes. and im not sure if school has expression blend. it will help a lot out in the interface. i think animation is done using that. i will continue reading it and see if i can do the whole website using this. which means there will only be 1 page. all the logic will be there. mmmm. HELLO WORLD FUNCTION IS UP LOL

deep zoom is a interesting function. it helps to render the image when the application is running. when the application feels that the image consist of vectors e.g. words, it will do a very nice colour distinction. instead of usual blur/pixelization. then it kinda do all the background calculation to make the image look realistic. so far i havent learn how to use it but i know it is a addon function and how to get it work is another thing.

ok things are falling somewhere along the places. some reference, some guidance, i think i know how the project works better. it really helps a lot in leading. as said, a leader with no perfect knowledge of the situation is as good as no leader. and a team doesnt consist of leader but also members. and their performances vary. certain time when you get a weaker member, how should a leader react. he should be one who should not bring someone's confidence down no matter how bad the work is receive. i was sighing whole night and i asked my sis how should i approach this matter. and she told me, i shouldnt nip a bud. instead look for areas where he/she can present their skills. but she said i shouldnt be too full of myself and try do such a big project like silverlight when member arent strong enough -_-. somehow after all the planning of the camp, what happen during the camp, interview, i can somewhat think in at a higher level. when i explain to my member, its like writing a bad news letter. the choice of word is limited. and i even tried to be positive about it >_>. a major change in plan now

overall experience as a leader. its quite thrilling. like giving commands. but provided if they listen. but the planning isnt a joke. in the past, leadership doesnt match my personality. NOT because im a introvert. but because i place people infront of me. i dont mind failing. but i dont like failing along with people when im leading. maybe how they think of me really matter to me a lot.

i realise, the old doomie didnt die back then. after our goodbye. he was in a deep slumber. he was not put in the right position, at a right time. its just like lighting a fuel. its both way round. when fire dies quickly, fuel cant catch fire. if fuel can catch fire easily, then little sparks are enough to make the fuel catch fire. and it so happen to be both fuel and fire arent doing their part. and now its lighted, then lets dont let it die. but if i have a chance to go back in time, should i bring the old doomie back? i think no. in fact going through this path has let me see and learn a lot of things. more discipline and somewhat smarter. if i were to undo the knot then now what you see is someone who has so many events, someone who care less about his future. someone who is less wiser. and im glad i took this path.

napfa is coming soon. so gonna fail it. D:!

went out with my course mates. although many people didnt turn up but i guess we have some fun meeting up. although the dinner was quite a disaster to me but i think we had a good time after that. we talk about a lot stuff from what we are doing now, current technology to jonathan's favorite topic lmao. but i was looking forward to see more people. haha oh well.

yesterday night i dreamt of my army life. it was like going through hell. thanks to last night topic about ns stuff lmao

MSDNAA is fucking good. now i have expression studio. now i dont need to rush and do my SL learning. even after i grad i can just practice and sharpen my skills. the stupid trial only last for 60 days. but this shit is forever!. and its not just one fucking software but 4. omg i love being a student. oh maybe a school under such program. LOL! and i went to library yesterday. its a unusual event for me to go out and to go library. went to test the hotspot thing and to see if there is any silverlight book for me to read up on. sadly there arent many for 3.0. i think 2? you see a technology that is out for 2 years+ has less than 10 books and 3.0 i dont think its out for a long time yet 2 books only. see how rare is technology. imagine photoshop now release cs5, the next moment you will see many books on it. and im dead serious

im graduating soon i guess. a few months time. it doesnt feel like one. 3 years ago my idea of this course was very vague. i wanted to go for game programming. and i didnt get in. so i thought bs was my next choice. because i wanted to be a entrepreneur. but i didnt get in. and my only hope back then was do well for first sem and jump across. ELSE i will try technopreneur. but i couldnt jump to bs. is this path good? yes. i was ranting how c# sucks a few sem ago. how new it is and how unwanted it is. looking back, now im quite happy with the arrangement of learning c#. with xna and sl in my arsenal, i can do game programming, flash like application. and i dont need to waste my time to learn new language, new syntax. but new platform thats all. so what if i cant get into game programming? i can do it with my xna platform now. maybe graphic design i cant do it that well but i can do it somewhere along the line.

Archer

2009-11-05T09:30:00.002+08:00

if you are in a battle field, would you want to be an archer or a swordsman? i ponder for a long time to think of a perfect answer for this. but i finally came up with a good answer. an answer that definitely different and better than the rest. i would be an archer. why? because i know that most people want to be a swordsman but in a battle field there should be a balance of both. too many cook spoil the broth. so i will be the archer to support the swordsman. who says archer doesnt have leader? and who says that the swordsman is the commander of the army?

this kind of explain how my class's group works. all of us have different style of leading the group. my group is one leader style. where i allocate task to the rest. CL group would be all leader style. very strong style. everyone give opinion, everyone leads. for this style to work perfectly, they have to know each other well and they do. JN group is all member style. i dont see them leading or w/e. for last few sem my group uses this style. we just initiate to take w/e task etc. occasionally someone step forward and give task then step back. it doesnt mean it is bad but im very sure that this project requires a lot of leading and planning. xb group i think all member too?

ok one leader style. down side is a lot planning to do alone. this week i have already sent 2 long emails to them. everyone including me is confused of what we need to do. even after giving them task, they dont know how to approach it. sam was very sian whenever i cant give her an answer -_-. and didnt put their ideas in. i say, what do you guys think? no answer. haiz i have failed >_>. to think about it, im actually doing a lot stuff haiz. besides website, database, pda application?, 2 questions in mis report, gantt chart, all the planning, not forgetting i have one more is module which has project. and that project i have to work with 2 other people who missed their past 2 classes. and most likely i have to do the designing, and surveying. and likely to be the leader. and i have been saying silverlight here and there. but did i say i have started learning it? no. fail point of leadership. maybe i should ask them if i have lead properly and ask where should i improve on.

one funny thing was they said website isnt the deliverable but looking at the marking scheme, it is pretty much the is the deliverable. the validation, interface, the ease of usage etc.

for some reason, my main concern is the pbl for wba

Leader

2009-10-31T11:16:00.010+08:00

i can say this sem isnt of my advantage. partially because i have no knowledge of phone technology. i always feel that IT should limit to computer technology instead of adding phone technology. too bad it isnt. so my wba module, i will struggle a lot. neither is my networking knowledge very strong as i didnt put in effort during my first sem. and this sem im appointed to be the leader. urgh lol. to me a leader with no knowledge is as good as nothing. its my 2nd time being leader in these 3 years. i always dont believe in carrying out leadership during young age. why? because ur teammates are not matured enough. they dont have the proper concept of how a team should work. when u give orders, they take it lightly, neither do u want to scold them to endanger the relationship. that is why the last time we failed terribly. no one takes initiative. and at the end of the project all the blames come back to me for not picking the right topic even though i did almost all parts of the project. i believe this team is much more initiative.

this sem is what other said, a lot things to do. a good time management cuts down the stress factor. i have told my teammate to plot out our deadlines, too many modules with different dateline so i have to be updated with these datelines. next, i have to do more research to increase my knowledge on mobile and network technology. then read up on the guideline on how are these modules integrated, so that in the report we will know what to write and what should be added into our project.

being said that, my teacher asked me if im doing silverlight. LOL at first i just want to keep it simple. one thing that i realize was. they said website isnt the deliverable but i feel that using solely c# cut downs on the creativity part. so i kinda thought it was some bullshit to confuse us. so i will also read up on silverlight. i have 2 tutorial on silverlight alrdy. restriction are opportunity for one to grow! i might not know anything about silverlight, but its good if i learn it. somemore it supports c#. it open another path for me, like next time i can be some c# master or something LOL.

example of silver light!
Texas holdem silverlight
eh its not that commonly used i swear but it really makes the interface nice. it isnt a playable game but it shows u how does the math algorithm works. the percentage of getting this and that.

another link on project natal
Project Natal
since it is for xbox, and xna can write xbox games. i believe in future xna will support project natal too. at first i kinda thought there is some controller stick on their body, like some ball bearings but they say no controllers etc. so it is really sensors. awesome technology. willing to try coding game with this technology. LOL. after fyp duh!

this isnt an image of showing my windows 7. neither am i showing u im surfing facebook. BUT it is to show u how many things i need to read up on. RED for WBA, green is the one application that can be used to make silverlight interface nice. and of course yellow to show how i ignore people request if i dunno them. the rest are mine. ohyea see the taskbar? dont get me started by expanding them. so just like the name of the image i have uploaded. Busy Shit.

within this weekend i have did nothing. learn nothing. despite having so many tab on my mf but i cant seems to understand them. they have their jargon. they throw u with numbers but u sit there and stun. 802.12N u alrdy smljwdf. ok but not everything down the drain. i did some research on how to present using iphone without the 30pin dock to usb adaptor. and i hope john can do it. not wise to do a simple presentation through the expense of money seriously. next, ITS MY FUCKING FIRST TIME USING MOBILE PHONE WITH MY HOME INTERNET! how cool is that? now i know why touchscreen is so much comfortable when surfing net. you dont need to press the arrow, u just flick here and there. but still, mastery isnt always based on how good the thing is but how well u use it. there another theory i came up.

silverlight. i feel that i might need more time to do it. if i do a simple gui then its ok. but if im doing a nicer gui then i need more time. and somemore i need to use ai instead of ps. which is another problem. my mastery of ai isnt up to standard. so in order to do silverlight, one i need some level of ai knowledge first. i always do pen tool in ps but it is different in ai. but i kinda thought of how to do it if i want to do john's father company. just simple linking.

johnathan suggested to me something. maybe instead of 1 project, we can do 2! mmm something to do with memo. outlook solves it but internet required. he says no connection if possible

actually i kinda wonder some stuff. i always hide behind someones back but i didnt know people realise im there. interesting. now then i know quite a few of them wanted to pull me in into their fyp group but they didnt ask me. ah? thats y in life one should not be too hesitant. i dont feel that this is being kiasu but being smart. my gpa isnt high yet im wanted, weird people D:!!!

i realise that web designers and application designers are people who possess 2 spectrum of thoughts. why? they have to be both practical and creative. and its not easy. even thou im doing this, but im more inclined with the design than coding. its hard to stay in the middle. and i realise one thing why when people just started learning programming, the personality will decide how well the person master it. people who are pussy and narrow minded have this motto. Once bitter, twice shy. but on the other hand, people who are willing to try new things have this motto. once bitter, doesnt mean bitter forever (wrote that in bt's paper, kinda thought of that on that spot lol!). its like edison's rule. the more u fail, the closer u are to success!

saw this tv show this morning. its really inspiring. its about how sec students change from bad to good. u know when turning bad to good is like going a upslope. u really need large amount of determination. a burst of energy to push u up. but when u turn good to bad its like going down a downslope, little energy is required. and it shows how they change from bad to good. and this "burst of energy" are very inspiring. when i watch the whole show, i felt good. it just felt someone useful has surface into this society. i will see if i can watch the series online. i find them very inspiring. somehow i like this kind of people lmao.

Windows 7 - lets own

2009-10-27T17:11:00.008+08:00

feeling damn hyped up because i reformatted com to windows 7. i was damn worried and very urged to try windows 7 after listening some good comments from friends. but i realise when backing up my files, i there is some error but my external harddisk didnt prompt me. but luckily most of the important files are intact. one of them is something that i really want to get rid of. and i should.

did the installation last night, wow it was way easier than xp i swear. xp if im not wrong doesnt scan date time i think, so i have to ownself set, then they have the regional language thing i have to install so even finish installing the system files i still have to find the cd and reinsert to install un-installed stuff.

so what happened now? i had to do a clean reformat since im using x86 xp previously. now im using x64. free x64 who doesnt want. especially for desktop, can hit 8gb with 4 ddr2/ddr3 slots easily. and im gonna get 2 more 2gb sticks if i happen to hop by sim lim ^_^. reinstalling my programs, as mentioned, the backing up was done in a rush so kinda confused and thinking how should i organize my stuff this time. redo my partition, more space for c drives now.

most of the application are in alrdy. remove games like sf4 and raving rabbits. almost died when i thought my tutorial videos are gone, lucky after the disk scan it has been recovered. its one of the exercise file that is corrupted, oh well i dont think i will die because of that hehe.

opinion of win7. one problem was when copy pasting those corrupted folders, they dont prompt me the error so it kinda frustrating. until i went inside the files then i realise something is corrupted. other than that, i like the new quicklaunch. though im not a huge fan of grouping my windows together, but it has big preview of the windows so im ok with it. unlike xp and vasta, when grouping, u only see the stupid title -_-. i also notice music application will have a rewind, forwand and play/pause function. windows explorer now works like a blog, right click properties and link up folders that is related. its like adding a tag to entries. so if u want images, link up all the address of images and its like a search result. cool siao. it also comes with sound driver. xp i have to install my mainboard sound drive -_-. havent tried gaming but i believe it work as well as xp. and 1 more thing i realise. in xp i had to reformat my hard disk for 2nd partition, but this time it instantly allocate the space, mmm is it because of the OS? or i did the reformatting previously? didnt install any 3d rendering softwares, i think the binary conflict so x64 cant work. the new notification bar a bit lame. i prefer the old one. popping out a dialog out of no where is kinda retarded lol. but maybe they want to avoid previous version of windows grouping when expanding them. as for the booting up speed, i dont see much difference between xp and this. maybe this is slightly slower. welcome here and there, visually it is slower. who knows.

i have this feeling i will be the only one doing my designing IS. haiz lol.

i heard a lot compliments from mac products last week. mmm i went to see their specs, frankly speaking, its quite good, for imac for example. i7/i5 processor, with ati 4600 series graphic card 512mb, thou not very high harddisk space. i realise something too. IPS panel. just the graphic card ips and processor, it trashes many windows desktops. i dont see many of them give such specs. maybe because its just a monitor cum desktop, every components are closely packed, this brings down the life of the hardwares. obviously this isnt the top notch hardware you can get in the market now but its quite close to the them. one thing i wasnt sure was why isnt apple using nvidia, maybe 3d rendering applications works better with it isnt it? mmm. looking forward to gtx300.

oh since its the first time im using windows 7 on desktop, mmm my performance index is cap at 5.9. its quite common to get 5.9 due to common harddisk 7200rpm unless u are using 10000rpm. the rest are at 7.2 and 7.5.

read on this Windows 7 functions and Snow Leapard

a few new functions, the shaking function a bit weird. and i like the comparison function. i bet i will use it more regularly <=D

used avira now. previously i used avista. i saw 1 review saying avira is good so im gonna try it. actually to me antivirus is just something to keep windows from stop annoying me of getting an antivirus. certain times its not how good the item is, but how u use it. maybe thats why people overrate mac's "no" virus policy. windows can be virus proof if users know what are they downloading and doing. although many times i download stuff without reading comments(is there any virus?!), but i know what im downloading. theres this period i run windows for months without getting hit by virus except for cookies(almost impossible to avoid them isnt it)

- just checked up the price of rams. the price is rising like insane lmao. hopefully this doesnt mean the end of production of ddr2 rams. should have stocked up with 2 more but didnt expect sch is gonna provide free win7 64bit. they said it was because of iphone requires memory or something. i kinda thought that maybe this might increase the price of ssd? mmm. urgh from 28 becomes 65. hope that it will drop after the iphone hype. D: - forum says ddr2 has hit 2K bucks but i see prices of 60+ mmm?

used ps. slightly different now. maybe they kinda changed the whole system's zoom function. now when u zoom with ps, it has smooth effect, unlike in past, it just zoom right smack in ur FACE. now im using 64, means i can give even more memory to my ps. now the documents are centralise when it doesnt cover ur whole screen. which is neater now. im still figuring how to solve the recycle bin part. like harddisk deleted files will come into ur recycle bin which i dont want. i doubt it was OS fault. i saw this problem in some XP so i think can tweak it. now my space is organised. my windows havent reach half of my taskbar. how cool is that? it cut down so much spaces, no need for 2nd row.

oh did i mention? this is my first time reformatting after see how my sis install xp once. fulfilling experience i swear

Ambitious

2009-10-24T01:41:00.007+08:00

DOOMIE YOU ARE SLACKING! lol yea im fat and lazy. lets start with fitness. still weak like a pussy. i was hoping napfa to be next year but oh well its next month. so it means chances of failing is 99%. u gonna think i will give up right? nope. even if i cant do more than 2 pull ups, at least i know i have tried unlike many who just cant be bothered in the first place. im gonna delicate tuesday as my workout day along with weekends since i have school. even after i have FAILED my napfa, i will continue train up.

my xna project - urgh! stuck with the channel page design. layout is out but im still thinking what theme to go for. i have a steel like chatbox. but this kind of theme is very close to robots or space. which i dont want. im thinking of every element has a different interface but it will be very tedious. im also thinking how to do the orb part. and chatbox, scrollbar.

something tells me i should redo the cover page. i think astral portal looks so much nicer. damn not used to lachesis. so hard to click, harder for me to use pen tool.

iip proj - a bit sad that i cant go for window application. but i think web application can use oop concept too. im not sure if ies is very focus with codes but other modules said creativity comes first, so we need a unique case study? i have this urge to pia actionscript for flash. because flash is interactive and i have knowledge of ps, having this knowledge is a mega bonus. maybe if i could link flash to database like some games do, it might be a bonus too. MMM might need huiling's tutoring LOL. ajax php java w/e, i think stick with .net 1st lol.

read the requirements, ok seems like i shouldnt spend too much time on the website. but it has to be a ecommerce/business site. i think 1 week should be enough for me. mmmm

dpm proj - yawn no team. sad that i could have made their life easier since i know a bit of ps, oh well :(

bcomm - what should i sell? it products? IPS MONITOR?! wacom tablets? i think i will go with graphic card. it is pretty linked up to components of a computer so i can ask more questions. BWAAAAAH~!

just helped my friend's friend for some project for the designing part. its done. will upload when i have time. and i realise something, i can use them as part of my portfolio! yay! lol

credit to her stocks. its a 2 sided card fyi. found out something that i didnt notice even after using ps so long. the colourise function at hue. quite interesting capability. even if u have pure white images, it will add some taint to it, very useful imo. i used the function at the top. those pen drawn images were in black, now its brown. installed an additional filter add on. quite interesting render you can get.

have this urge to go down vivo and buy 1-3 books on graphic designing. one for typo, one for vector, another maybe photo manipulation?

Updates

2009-10-05T13:15:00.004+08:00

no updates on sp coding. im quite done with the skeleton. except for solid collision. example wall, for now mine is go through. im thinking of how to code that part. instead of using clamp which is not feasible for. next will be complex knockback. in short it just simply means when i hit a player. the player hit a wall and bounce back. as for know the knockback is 1 way.

im surprise how fast this program works. consider even thought it refreshes the screen 1/60 per sec, but seeing how ~~MANY~~ MUCH code each game possess, its quite shocking you know. it just run and run and run non stop. i shouldnt worry about too much code. i just need to do more if statement and it will be ok i hope

but i generated a lot ideas. see my last post. it will be my offical gameplay thread.

so for my napfa training. not much obvious result for 2.4. but last week i manage to complete 6 rounds around 12.5mins. which is a silver! but it is fucking tired. i had to jog all the way and last half lap i tried to sprint but im too worn out to sprint.

as for pull ups, yea some obvious results ROFL!. the other day i did one then after that i did 2. and im quite sure its high enough to consider as 2. so its about 2 full and 2 3/4. must get my palm get used to the pain. ~_~. and im using forearm strength only! where is the back muscles ~_~. now i ish not pai seh to do pull ups liaos. because i ish can do at least one LOL! one thing for sure is that i begin to come back earlier day by day. this shows that either i run faster or i recovery fast. mmmm.

i begin to question myself. why am i so different from people around me. when a problem surface, i dont really give up. unless i know the chances are very very slim or impossible. but i see people around me, they procrastinate more than me, and they are so much practical. when the word "hard" surface, it is equivalent to impossible. which is very disappointing. my interest too. why isnt there many people who think the way i do.

some updates for my sp programming entry

Introducing TIPMedia.Net!!

2009-10-05T10:16:00.000+08:00

Their little trailer ;)
What is TIPMedia.Net?!
It's a blog run by 2 Business IT students from Ngee Ann Poly, which takes its readers through their 6-month attachment. Besides documenting their (hopeful)progress, they'll post up useful links, some interesting encounters, and everything else that grants them the title 'Peeps-With-Issues'.

What the FRUITPASTE is 'TIP'?
It stands for Technopreneurship Incubation Programme. Still don't understand what it is?

Neither do they!!

All they know is that they've gotta create an IT Business, with planned side projects of IT Awareness and Community Service. They need your help in commenting, and maybe even chip in some ideas that you may have!

Follow them as they take you to new heights of utilizing the web to the fullest! Or just watch out for their crazy escapades in search of success as technopreneurs!

How can you say no to faces like this?

They'll be waiting for you!

http://TIPMedia.net

Words from Doomie
"A small support from me to 2 of my friends, Boon Thai and Illias who are doing TIP this semester. I wanted to try TIP at first but no one seems to be interested. I will keep myself updated to their progress :). During the meantime i shall continue with my XNA project"

Seal of Xalvador Gameplay

2009-10-04T14:05:00.000+08:00

This will be my offical post on gameplay. No updates of my programming will be post here.

Story
100 years ago, there was a battle between Xalvador and Alexander. The battle lasted for 1 year and they were too drained to continue the fight. Alexandra used his remaining power to seal Xalvador into a third dimension. Knowing that Xalvador will regain his energy as days go by, he transfers all his "Light" Element skills into a Crystal and crack it into 5 pieces and they turned into 5 Elements, Fire, Water, Earth, Wind, Electric. Each continent was blessed with 1 of these Element's power. And Alexander disappeared. Xalvador's henchmen guards a SealBreaker each so that Xalvador has more time to recuperate. The Quest to Slay Xalvador has begun...

Elements

This is what i thought of for each final level of element's magic. i will explain how each elements works. Will be great if each level and each element has individual charging animation. it will look damn cool.

Firstly, the Attributes of Each Elements
Fire - Power
Water - Regeneration
Earth - Impact
Wind - Speed
Electric - Surge

Fire will have more dmg but it also mean it would be slower attack speed
Water means requires lesser energy. Pendant for it will heal health most
Earth will have more knockback. knockback receive will be lesser. Shield for example will make him stay on ground and opponent will fly further
Wind forgoes some dmg and receive higher speed bonus. Who knows, by doing so you can do higher damage in total
Electric Surge refers to SP's critical. a point when player is in adrenaline rush. in this mode, player does more dmg and slight speed bonus. This mode will be applied to all just that electric base equipment give higher surge percentage

Fire Magic
Single Target Projectile. Burst Upon hitting wall/ opponent
distinct difference upon level is Charging Time, Size, Speed and Dmg. Charging Time will be longer. Size will be Bigger. Speed will be slower. Dmg will be much higher. But MP usage will increase slightly upon level.

Water Magic
1 Projectile. Burst and Do AOE dmg upon hitting wall/ opponent. it is like player creates high pressure inside water.
Distinct difference upon level is AOE, Speed. Aoe size will be smaller than Earth by 1 level. (i.e. Lv 7 water aoe = lv 6 earth aoe, consider the fact it can travel). Slight decrease of casting time. Speed of projectile will be faster. Slight increase of Dmg. Slight Mana Usage will decrease over level. Size of projectile will reach a size at one level and stop

Earth Magic
Aoe Dmg around Caster. Charging Animation for final level will be releasing 3 shockwave. if successful, earthquake will take place. as mentioned, will be good if animation will be different upon level
Distinct Difference upon level is Knockback, Dmg, AOE Size. As you know earthquake impact is quite big so i want to make it such a way that opponent is really blown away by the knockback. Casting Time MIGHT increase upon level. Mana cost will slightly increase. as mentioned, aoe size will definitely bigger than water by 1 level.

Wind Magic
Straight line Magic that Pierce through wall. this is not a single target projectile. it works like a aoe magic just that it can travel. dmg any opponent who come in touch with it. it ends when it reaches a distance. at highest level, it can reach the end of any map.
distinct difference upon level is Charging Time, Speed, Mana Cost. Charging time will decrease upon level. Projectile speed upon level. Mana Cost by a lot increase upon level. Size of projectile will be 2 level smaller than Fire Magic. Damage will increase by A BIT. knockback will increase by a bit. considered for sometime about the projectile size but i think it should be ok. higher mana cost to prevent them from spamming.

Electric Magic
Single Target Projectile around caster. number of projectiles increase upon level. these projectile can hit 1 target more than once. at highest level he will release Kirins which is electric unicorns. since it is somewhat new to you guys. it works this way, nearer the opponent, the more kirins he will get hit. kirin disappears after running 1 distance. charging animation, charging orbs will be positioned around the caster and also where the direction where the kirin will run. so at higher level, number of electric orbs will be more. good example will be like sp fire magic just that it will be more.
Distinct Difference upon level. Mana cost, Charging time, Knockback and Dmg. let me explain about dmg first. dmg reduce upon level. and im dead serious. when one opponent touches 2-3 kirins, the dmg will be quite deadly. hence it should be used near opponents. Charging time will be higher, more kirins = more time. more mana cost. Distance of kirin travels will be further upon level. Number of kirins increase upon level. knockback will be lesser upon level, not until negative of course. chances of hitting all kirin should be quite hard lol

Orb System

Orb will be the replacement of current card System. These orb will be equipped onto the character and they will receive the power of these orbs. Plotted out the skills so in each orb there is 2 Skill Locks. When one player purchase an orb at level 1, they can configure these orbs. these orbs can only be configured once. and these configuration will be permanent. each orb has one base skill. and they can further unlock the 2nd skill at higher level. 2 Path to choose, Stats or Status. Stats means bringing up the current stats of each item. and Status means percentage of player getting buffs or opponent receive debuff. i will also make it such a way that even AI monster will be affected by these debuffs and player's buff. So when they purchase the orbs they can choose their first skill to be stats or status, and they have to set 2nd skill too. as mentioned, once set, it cannot be reverted. maybe cash item i will allow. the trick is some prefer raw power, and some prefer some advantage over another player. either way it is quite powerful. hybrid is good too. as for now 3 items doesnt apply this configuration. Magic, Boots and Pendant. yup magic can have status improvement. but no casting time down :)

A few new stats and status that i have added.
- Max HP MP BP increase(stats) - give player more capacity to tank, dmg, run
- Guardian Support(buff) - Total Immunity to dmg and status
- Spiritual Bond(debuff) - Opponent receive damage(after armour reducted or not), team mates receive % of the dmg. no knockback will be applied to opponent teammates.
- Health Suction(stats) - player will receive health recovery from each hit. So there will not be any hazel. Not all weapon equipment possess this skill
- Vampire Shield(buff) - a remake of this. instead of usual seconds base skill, it will be when player defend and he receive % of actual dmg dealt. (not the defended dmg)
Surge Regen(buff) - applies to pendant only. it will slowly increase surge bar.
Reflect knockback(stats) - something like golem skin. applies to shield only. when shield is activated, opponent will fly back. Applies to Melee only
- Mirage(buff) - 3 Mirages will be randomly positioned to confused opponent. obviously the real one wont be at the middle of the 3 Mirage illusions. Mirage does no dmg, but do exact movement as player. Range attack will not be there but animation of player doing range will be. player will not instantly teleport to one of the mirage. when 3 mirage is active and the skill activates again, the mirage will reposition. timer restarts. simple as that. no 6 mirages :)
- Thorn Dmg - no more reflect dmg. now constant reflect dmg. and reflect dmg will not be very high. Applies to melee only. MIGHT consider range too.

but how are these skill allocated? shant tell :). should i call it level, grade or tier? mmm. But total level in my mind would be much higher, maybe 15. Chances of leveling would be even harder or near impossible. Yup that is the only way to keep players. because they are too spoilt with 10% and 5% chances so i will make it even lower. and i will make each leveling more advantage over. like even higher chances of status or better chances of better stats.

Modes

Battle Modes
Teamplay is a must - Duel will be removed, can use teamplay to duel anyway
Fightclub
Free For All (aka Survival). a premade room where player just need to join in. total capacity maybe 50. if good response then more premade rooms

Challenge Mode
- Symbol - usual X shape Earth map, O shape Wind map, |+| shape fire map plus 2 other map. Electric Map where it is a Big Square Arena surround by electric current. Player will be stunned when touches it. No wall at all. 5 symbols for this map. all 4 corners and middle. Water Map MM shape. 4 Symbols will be at the bottom. walls can rebounce range attacks. can be a Range Frenzy Map. Kill and Death will not be recorded in this mode. Player can choose Map in this mode. for example they want to train arching then it will be good. random will be there too
- Save the King - King will be awarded with surge mode. but if king dies, player lose. 3 rounds game
- Racing - unlike old sp where boots arent allowed, now can be used. host can choose, no attacking mode, no boots mode, or all allowed. but what is racing without boots >_>. this is one mode where boots shall prevail!

Entertainment
Soccer
Snowball <- since i have removed bubble skill, and replace guardian protection, player cant spam bubble :) Community Quest
Normal Quest 1-5 players
20 Player Quest - OMFG HARD BOSS - good rewards
Guildquest - add guild points, difficult based on number of people inside. and it is OMFG HARD HARD BOSS. but good returns. some chances of getting free leveling card and free reskilling card. these card does not 100% success, player just dont need to pay to level. disappear when used. simple as that :).

Guild
Guild War. 2 Guild Master must agree in order to get this mode started.
Number of Players will be in multiple of 5 starting from 10. until 25. when guild war has started, notice will be up and player will know the results. will be a 3 rounds, 2 win victory game. a specially made room which will automatically relocate players to their guild team when entered. and only guild member are entitled to join. Winner will get some guild points from another guild.

Top Guild Point System. Top guild will have multiplier of 3 for gold and eles. second will get 2. and the rest will not get any bonus. Top guild will receive lesser guild point than usual. so does second position but they will receive more. this is to give every guild a chance to overtake.

Cash Item
A: wa u said there ish cash items, i liek, i ish got moneh moneh, i will own this game
Me: stfu noobs. cash items is one reason why game fast and draws a line between cash player and non cash players. non cash players obviously will be at disadvantage. and for that, non cash players will leave. cash players will prevail and end this game fast and leave game fast. so hell no would i make cash player stronger than non cash players.
- as mentioned at top. orb configuration is one.
- another will be orb holders. just is like +12 card slots etc.
- maybe ability to make shop also. then a specially made room for them so playerscan go in and buy. maximum shop is 35. 15 slots for buyers. simple as that. trying to make it maximum 50 players per room.
- security lock. this lock will have additional security for items and eles. this item is permanent too. this item works this way. during trade, player must key in another password. this password will be set when purchasing this lock. this lock password is fixed. if user who forgets the lock password, they have to come down to our hq to do verification and reset the lock password. this lock will lock all items, including gold, eles and other cash items. but i might think of other ways to do verification instead of making players to travel. mmm
i will continue think of more but as for now it will be like this. no speed hack ele hack, gold hack, god mode hack :).

i do sound as if i can make this game ROFL. in fact i cant. its just a good idea for a final project. anyway ksp gonna close down next year i think. so this genre of game is totally gone(find me another game with similar concept) . to be able to revive it is a honor. who knows, i might even find a team of programmer and designer to do this together. i must say it is a very good idea until now :)

Decision

2009-10-03T14:09:00.008+08:00

i have came to a decision to my path. high chances of me going for hybrid path. perhaps having more money on hands would be a safer choice. rather than full time studying or part time working, maybe having a money generator company would be a wiser choice. in fact, i might want to marry early? LOL! last night i thought of this. its either get a gf then start my business then we work hard together. else after im successful enough, earning big bucks, i will find a girl. then dont let her know about my wealth. we will be as ordinary as possible. then i will buy an ordinary hdb flat near my actual house and i will ask my parents to come over so that when she comes to my house she will not suspect. then when we plan our wedding we will make it ordinary. then on the actual day, i will make it special, grand and big. ok u know what, i have to earn money first of course :D

ok major updates to my sp project. a video added too.

some thoughts over how to be different from sp. instead of using cards. i will call it orb enchantments. Melee Dmg Enchantment, Melee Speed Enchantment, Range Dmg Enchantment, Range Speed Enchantment, Regen Enchantment, Endurance Enchantment, Defend Enchantment and Movement Enchantment. i will think how to rename the melee and range. but of course like sp, 1 addons, 1 weapon and 1 magic only. im trying to make it sound realistic enough. it works in this way, player equips these orbs into their equipment and they possess enchantment to their current stats. and im adding new stats. such as shield has deflect knockback ability. which archers might find it useful. pendy now increases base hp mp and bp. boots has deceleration and max bp and bp regen stats. armour now has thorn dmg. instead of allowing full reflect dmg, instead of allowing 60-100% dmg reflection, i allow up to 40-60% max. therefore player still need to make good use of defend rather than tanking and kill. skilling will also allow players to get stats that doesnt include in original stats. like shield by default doesnt have thorn dmg capability, reskilling might give a chance of getting. armour users might get a chance to get max hp and hp regen skills.

u know what? im thinking of lightning element. 5 elements. idea of lightning magic is electric current pass through group from all 8 directions. level affects the thickness and distance of lightning and speed. mana cost will be high. dmg will be one of the lowest. but i might change this idea. seems hard to code due to rotated sprites. random lightning strikes arent a good idea because sp is a skill based game. so i feel that random hits arent that skill based

now im plotting the stats :) will update when done.

Seal of Xalvador Coding

2009-10-03T11:39:00.002+08:00

This will be my official post about my updates of my project SP.

17/9/09 - Started reading xna. Now i have bigger overview of how does a game works. it goes initializing> load materials > then looping draw and update > then unload materials. i also know how does the frame works. and the coding style would help me a lot as i could use else if when the whole animation has ended. i think i will do 48 frames for everything. having a standardize frame number is good. but im not sure 48 frames will take how long to finish because 60 frames per sec so i think it will finish within 1 second. so im thinking if there is any way to slow it down. and i can use jump frame rate to increase the speed of the animation which helps a lot in sp attack speed. 48 is good number because of it's factors i.e 3*2^4, else i will try 120 which has 3*2^3*5. wider range of numbers to multiply. time to continue reading my ebook. damn hate reading rofl

22/9/09 - i hate it when im stuck with programming and i don't know how to proceed. ok im doing the Object orientated part but im stuck! i even tried copying the codes directly from the ebook but it doesnt work so it pissed me off. because i suck at oop. how 1 class call another class. so i dunno how to go about troubleshoot it. fuck man. then i cant continue with further chapters.

ok i did a lot planning lol. first picture is the variables that i should include. missed out a few but i gonna add them later. 2nd picture was the calculations. u see the right side? yea its the direction code thing. and you know what? my refreshing to positive radian code works! yea damn happy. then the left side is the area i should inset. i did math calculation fyi. like if i do corner squares how precise am i. how many unwanted pixel will i collide and wanted pixels. trying to be precise fyi. but i think top inset is important. its like you stand behind a pillar. you cant just look as in you are ontop of it, you must make pillar overlap you.

in fact i just installed sp and went into sp to take a look at the collision. but gone through a few changes to system in order to play. i must say they are using basic shapes. like i try corner collision with range and some part burst at air. and the character is a flat square. so i need not worry. as for the frame thing. i need not create many frames and do jump frames to archive fast timing. all i need to do is reduce timing for each frame. mmm i also need to do array for debuff and buff. and also deceleration. i cant just make character stop when they arent pressing A

24/9 - just finished chapter 6 of my xna book. kinda jumped through chapter 6 as its about AI and its about simple math algorithm like homing and evade sprites. which i know its either position + or minus X and Y. im thinking of dmg part. mmm if current hp != previous hp, then text appear on his top. its so much easier to use randomizer than the lerp in another tutorial i think lol.

i also plot out the database. couldnt find a link between each table so this would be the outcome

General { username, password, kill, down, win, lose, gold, exp, ...}
Eles { username, fire, water, earth wind}
Card { cardID, username, skill1, probability, skill2, probability, gfdays}

figured that i could put eles with general but then data relevance isnt there so decided to split them out.

as for the AI i think i will code it like, if collision = true, then use randomizer to calculate if AI defended. and based on difficulty, the chances of defend. but then again if collision = true then it would look fake as the thing didnt defend in the first place and yet he get defended dmg. so what i though was making a bigger rect, if collision to first rect then defend. then collision to smaller rect then receive dmg. i also need to do a detection rect. if character collide enemy rect, enemy activate and move near to player. so in total 3 rects.

choices of skill will be done using array and randomiser. one for type of skill and another for probability. these will be initiated in the front so it wont continue looping. game coding cuts down a lot on coding. normally window form when variable changes, you have to refresh the value so we know the value has changed. but game is constantly refreshing. its like an endless while loop which is damn cool.

ok the next problem is the game sprites, need to design them lol damn. i think im pretty much ready to code my game. slightly more understanding of oop

25/6 - started on one character. im no good with drawing fyi so the character is very cartoonish. drawing sprite for each frame is no joke seriously. even if you have layers, it may not be applicable to each frame. so lazy that i just make simple amendments to first frame. i kinda thought maybe i should just focus on the skeleton of the game first. in short i will do a simple class for the sprites and most of the codes will be dumped in update loop.

yesterday i kinda looked at my first tutorial. im kinda curious how they derive sin angle: cos angle = vector x:y. back to a math. TOA CAH SOH. tan angle = oppo/adj. why is it not tangent? assuming A = 1 then O = 1. then i realise my triangle wont be similar anymore. sin angle = O/H and cos angle = A/H. if H = 1. cos or sin angle X 1 = O or A respectively. which O refers to Y and A refers to X. in short it means in every 1 pixel distance of Hypo = sin angle distance + cos angle distance. thats also explains ASTC where negative angle = projectile travels at negative X and Y direction

im curious if i can link my game with a database since xna is pretty much of a window application so the coding will be pretty much the same. and also i need to create text field to type words etc which is a problem as xna doesnt have gui so i might need create it from scratch

another thing about attack speed that i thought of was. i cant just create a collision rect when user click attack as it will end up to be a instant dmg which makes attack speed pointless. instead i should create not at the first frame. for example when u press attack, normally the character will draw his weapon then swing. so i cant code it in such that when drawing weapon, the collision rectangle is there. i have to make it such a way that when character has drawn out around 50% of his weapon swing then rectangle is there. but of course in actual game, it will be too fast to notice such stuff. im just trying to be accurate mmm. i think i can start on the coding but i need more sprites so. URGH! lolol

26/9 - huge progress. i didnt know i could code the class so well. understood it even better now. good to have my game1 materials as reference. what have i done today
- Completed drawing range animation and range projectile and a static enemy
- A Basic class for the sprites
- Background, Character, Direction Arrows, Enemy are on the game alrdy
- Flexible rotation for direction arrows and static rotation for character
- Recoded my direction codes. now it does not jump when it reaches the point. (i.e. when press Left button. instead of rotation == 0. i have changed it to <0.05>2pi - 0.05. allowing wider range than before.

A screenshot of static rotation

requires some thinking to code it. as mentioned, this will be a very simple skeleton first, so i will ignore the quality of images. tomorrow i will continue with movement and animating the sprites. and maybe melee and range animation. if im fast enough i will do acceleration if i could think of a formula for it. ok thats all for today time for some rest

27/9 -

did quite a bit of coding.
- Changing of sprites animation when pressing different key (Melee, Range, Movement)
- Acceleration and Deceleration are in too. what i did was using main character main speed * multiplier(which will be needed when i started card system) and divide it with acceleration. then every 0.2 sec, the speed will increase. it will be a constant acceleration. when speed reaches max speed then speed = max speed. deceleration is the same just that i will make deceleration 2 or 3 times of acceleration if not the character is like sliding on ice.
- transfer the whole chunk of code( yesterday's Screenshot) to my class. i figured out that it is better then way as my AI can use it too.
- explored more on oop functions. i.e. get and return and class function used on my game class

but two problem struck me. there are too many variables and timers. and these timers cant be reused, neither can i reuse the variables. the whole naming of variables make no sense if i were to reuse them. -_-.

another problem was the values. the values im giving are random numbers. in actual game, weapon attack speed will affect animation speed and collision sprite animation, weapon collision animation, character animation speed. all these have to syncronize

ok some rest before i start on drawing melee and range on game

29/9 - slowed down for a bit. kinda stuck. so im trying to solve these problems. apparently what happened was. i was doing the status of the character. as for now i have melee, range, idle and alert. idle means the character isnt moving and allows him to heal. alert is when user has moved. and range/melee means he has attack then his status will turn alert and a timer will turn it back to idle. but i realise that using 1 variable to store these values are not possible. because if user press A which triggers run and status = alert, and then he press S to attack which trigger attack and status = melee, the animation of the character will be on alert. so i kinda stuck for a while then i decided to use bool. alertbool and meleebool. after that, i priorities these bool. like if meleebool is true, else if alertbool is true. this will stop alertbool from triggering at the same time as meleebool.

now im facing more problems.
- array of range doesnt seems to work. somehow i only can shoot one time.
- then collision works but the area of collision is way bigger than i thought than the area it should be. and also im shock to know position of images isnt at top lefthand corner. instead its at middle. wdf?
- and the range projectile isnt positioned at the place that i want but the angle is correct.

oh well need to re-read my calculations again lmao

as for the damage calculation. like when u whack people head on and the dmg is 1X but if you hit on the side is 1.5 and back is 2X. instead of drawing 4 rectangles around them i kinda thought of a better way. if user fight against opponent, imagine one is facing left and another is facing right, the difference of direction is obviously around 180. but i will make an X range. which means 135- 225 difference will be 1X dmg. and when people backstab another the difference of angle is 315-0 or 0 to 45. now it makes more sense when angle affects the dmg calculation for hitting chest. as for previous post on many variables. i think too many variables also never mind. the fact that im doing oop, the number of variables are less enough. in future where im dealing with even more stuff, its no joke anymore.

i kinda thought of some stuff. Boots. for boots i will add 2 more things which current sp doesnt. turning speed and deceleration. my wind boots will be fastest but slowest turning speed when running. (the whole idea was to run in a straight line) water will have low acceleration but high speed and low deceleration.(sliding LOL). earth is balanced thoughout and high deceleration.(kinda like down to earth) mmm maybe i need to have a table to balance out these values.

30/9 - some stuff cocked up as mentioned in yesterday's update. im trying to locate why. so im using 2 things to locate the reason. one is using window title to show the values. another thing i did was putting a 3x3 pixel onto the game to spot the actual positioning. i dun like the way they positioning the sprites at the middle instead of top left. its so obvious that it should have been top left than middle. and something wrong with the rectangle codes too. it seems like its not top left to bottom. which is like WDF? trying to figure out why is it working this why. maybe its middle of the rectangle then draw outwards -_-. ok i seriously need to figure out why arent these values work. hopefully using the 3x3 pixel will also help me out with the rotation part. much more motivated to code than yesterday.

2/10 - some updates. most of the problems on top was solved. as mentioned i used 2 things to pinpoint the mistakes. a 3X3 pixel and window.title. its the easiest way to get results. rather than writing spritefonts. so what is the mistakes

1) array for range didnt work because i forgot to put a return code. initially i allow 7 projectiles. without the return code, it will constantly looping which means 7 projectile at a time.
2) range position and collision. these 2 are caused by same reason. its the drawing rotation. the 7th override. i dont like some of the mechanism of this coding. like when you draw an image. the image position is where the center X and Y of the image. which at first i thought it should be top left. make no sense isnt it? second thing was the rotation. the rotation is slightly different. it is to the reference of the top left hand corner of the sprites. its not the whole screen coordinates. and why is it at top left. why is it not at centre, lmao. the rectangle code was correct afterall. it was because i didnt position the rotation code properly. so now it is fixed.

now im trying to animate them which it isnt working. something wrong with the bool. lol. seems like the bool cant work in oop else i missed out something. mmm. then dmg knockback, sound, hp mp bp, then ai. then array. then card system. and so on. and i the rectangle code doesnt work with rotation codes. so i think all my sprites HAS to be square and at the centre else the collision looks weird. im still thinking how to code the viewpointrect and solid wall or objects.

i had this very nice image of this 3D sp. instead of making it so cartoonish. if we can make it like HON, the terrain looks nice, animation looks cool etc, it will be damn cool.

3/10

omg why is there an image below?!?! LOL nvm, anyway i have made this video for you guys to see my progress. obviously seeing pictures you wont know what i have done so i feel that doing a video would be a better way to show my progress. i apologize for the poor quality of video. quite slip slop work. done using window movie maker instead of premier pro. obviously it was movie maker that cause the high brightness >_>

last night i did viewport. kinda stuck for a long time. went to do a research and they say theres 2 way to approach it. moving the viewport or constantly changing every sprite's coordinates. i think what i did was changing every sprite coordinates. the hard way but it works. because viewport somehow cant have negative value, the background colour will eat into your screen. somehow the collision codes works perfectly even though the position of the sprites is constantly changing(it still worries me now). maybe viewport doesnt add values to position? and the effect is exactly the same as SP and also i have used clamp to force the viewport to stay within a value.

not sure if i have mentioned about the array range attacks. i forgot to put a return; and check if the range attack is alive LOL! thats y it isnt working. next was the animation. i was thinking why is it not working. then i realise i forgot to put update for range and melee ROFL! ok at least it works now haha

i think i need to do defend too. so i think i will do defend first then do knockback. then dmg. who says programming is boring. its the results that appeals you

6/10 - based on previous entry, i have added a few more stuff. knockback. a simple knockback thought. when player hit opponent, opponent flys backwards. im thinking how to make the knockback looks more realistic. im thinking how to code it to make it such a way that during knockback, when opponent hit on a wall, he will bounce back.

next i did a simple dmg counter also. this dmg is a basic passing of value. but it will be much complicated, like orb stats, armour reduction etc.

what im doing now is textbox. as mentioned, there is no gui in xna so we have to practically code everything out. but what i have on hand is "Image" and "Label". using these 2 to create a textbox. it will work this way. i will create a bool call focus. then create 2 rectangle. rectangle A will be textbox area. and rectangle b will be 1X1 pixel of mouse X and Y position. when mouse left click && these 2 rectangle intercept, then focus = true. when focus is true, image of the textbox will change and typing is allowed. and i have added a maximum length, array and textindex. textindex will work this way. when they press left, index --, so that we can type something inbetween. then when they press right, i have to check the total length of word keyed, if it is more than that, then the value will be stopped. its not as simple as you thought lol. currently it seems ok. but i have to load a lot content so im thinking if there is other way to make it easier. i have to add a visible bool later on too.

im thinking of how to simplify the animation. instead of 6 sprites, maybe i can cut down to 3 or 4. 1 draw weapon, 2 attack, 3 attack, 4 keep weapon.
i think i need to do another bool, receive dmg. when receive dmg, it will overwrite everything. and receive dmg will last a few seconds, which is one of my stats, Reaction after dmged.

8/10 -

can say i did quite a bit of programming these days but not as much as compared in front lol. ok let me summarize everything
textbox gui is done. can say its 80% done. still thinking how to improve on the
dmging is done, but its a fix number, i will do a complicated calculation in class once orb system is out.
knockback is a simple knockback for now. still thinking how to code it such a way that opponent will bounce when hit on a wall.
ai coding started yesterday. and manage to code the key important code for ai which is rotation calculation. using ASTC. i will explain how i did the astc part in detail.

the video is kinda soft so do bring up the volume to hear me. i dont want to talk too loud as my mum is around. (i will look eccentric LOL). ok my attempt to solve this direction detection code. i used some variables. 2 points one is 1,1 and one is 5,4. this problem is quite tricky actually. i almost gave up lol. 2 things that helped me in this calculation. my calculator and my windows title.

firstly what i did was getting the difference of X and Y and get the gradient. and for a moment i kinda thought gradient = radian which is wrong. look at the right side. where i get 16/1 and radian cant hit that much. what i did was getting the absolute value of Y/X then do a tangent inverse. but i also thought inverse means 1/tangent which is wrong too. back then i dont have my calculator by my side so i cant prove it so i just code without thinking. but after i got my calculator i manage to solve whole equation less than an hour. i looked through the "Math." and i cant find inverse tan so thats y i thought 1/tan = inverse tan which is no. until i tried ATan which is inverse tan. ok but then my value is still wrong. then i was thinking if the inversetan is in radian. so i change my calculator to radian mode and redo and wala i manage to get the same angle. so how does ASTC applies. hope that this will also help those who wants to do similar type of coding.

if difference of X and Y is negative then the angle is correct as there is no need to add any degrees. but if X is positive and Y is negative then the rule changes. because astc, everything is at horizontal so i have to get PI - Angle to get the correct angle. and positive X and Y is PI + Angle. and lastly, 2PI - Angle. and because i have applied acceleration and movement codes in class, i took less than 15mins to make the AI run to me. and less than 20mins to do another Archer AI. and i tell u OOP really useful when u are doing big scale of project. why arent the textbox finished. i was thinking of how to make it have the blinking line at text index. but because every text has different width so i cant just give a fix length and do the multiplication to the index. i know of one way but it might waste a lot time. and i also want to find another substitute for the key input code. im scared that if it loop too much i will lag the game. but the looping will occurs when textbox is focus. because the textbox code works, so i can say doing a button codes is no problem. using same theory of image. but this time no labels. when rectangle collide with mouse, hover image appears. if left click, image change for a while and code activates. simple as that. what is my next plan. mmm. i kinda unsure though. maybe start with game state? or HP MP BP, MUST KILL THE AI NAO!. orb system kinda too early for now. and to do that i might have to name my variables as there will be lots more variable for now. i wonder if there is any way to do the hp bar etc. the length etc. mmmm seems hard. i have just decided what to do first. my login state. login state also means i need 2 textboxes, 1 button, 1 nice wallpaper and 1 name for my project. its like a headless chicken. u know that theres this chicken survives even thou his head was chopped off. yup but its aimless. the name is the soul of the game. and also the wall paper will also decide the resolution of the game. as for now that is. in future it will be able to fit 3:4 16:9 16:10, and etc.

ok this is the current login page. wanted to add the 5 elements in too but it doesnt look nice so i think i will stick with this. Yin refers to the xalvador's seal as he is dark element.

i just recreated a new project and rename it to this SoX instead of previous SP. i also did character planning for all 10 characters (5 elements X2). some of them have unique skills. but most of them are pretty much like sp. some insights, my aurelli melee now does a drop kick and back flip. this create distance between her and enemy, to do more ranging.

another electric character can charge a electric shield. this shield last forever until he receive dmg. he will not receive healing capability from shield. but vampire shield still works for him.

another wind character holds 2 claws. his range can do spinning claw. good example is wolverine. spin to a short distance. in this state, he pierces range attacks. but not magic. will think about melee

ok i also linked with my database. stucked for a while. its harder to debug than usual window application. then i realise its a small issue. the " ' ' " thingy. lol. but at least it can validate. just tried and its case sensitive too which is better. except for the username part which it doesnt really matter lol. ohyea i linked using access 07. instead of 03. the connection string is different thats all. if this thing get bigger scale then i will try mysql or others lol.

8/4/2010
HARROW! been some time since i coded my game. ok fyp sem i did slight improvement by adding hp and dmg and level into the game. but its is for my entertainment. now im want to code it in procedures, which is from login then channel then shop then gameplay.

before i went taiwan someone has uploaded a textbox class and i must gratefully thank him for all the trouble i might went through. it has almost everything. from focus, clicking focus. but it could not defocus so i had to do some modification to code. so i have adding offbound, focus = false and added border to know the area and if it is focused. one thing that i like about his code is he has added a blinking bar which i couldnt do it. because you have to get the length of the string which im lazy to do LOL.

ok so practically login page has been completed. my textbox cant work for nuts!. because somehow 2 objects from same class will clash for some reason. so i cant pull data from 2nd textbox. ok next thing i just completed was a chatlog. its slightly easier. so i did a research on unbounded array so they suggested list. it works fine. i added scrolling also. scrolling with limit. now i need to do interface for channel page. quite a good progress for now. but im still worried about too much codes LOL!. much much better at debugging errors now. back to designing!

4/5/2010

ok been slacking quite a bit but i managed to add some images to it. last post was still very raw in terms of appearance. and i added more properties to my chatlog. last post what i did was using \n to break line. but i realise this isnt feasible for long run and it does not fit perfectly into my images so i redid the code. now instead of combining everything into a string, i did a draw for loop. with the help of displayindex variable i made, i just keep looping what to be drawn. and in the method, i also added a integer for the distance between each text. so it will remain constant distance. now it looks much neater. lastly i passed in the username so it will look more realistic. then i stopped it from receiving empty text when spamming enter. ok so the next stop will be, gameplay. hehe yes i did half way. so more modification now. more and more timers required. hopefully i can finish this along with the shop before i go ns.

Updates

2009-10-02T14:47:00.005+08:00

slowed down for my xna project. been procrastinating because of the collision part but finally fixed it. ok what have i been doing. training becomes a daily duty for me. been running and trying to do pull ups LOL!. no idea why is my 2.4 timing is still so far away. 12.5mins seems impossible to me LOL. ok partially because i have been running outer lane. purposely did that so that i will run longer distance and to improve on my stamina. currently i have been running 8 rounds outer lane but of course i did stopped. usually stop at 5th round. partially because i didnt do proper stretching. as for pull ups. i got the feeling that i can do 1 full height. and addition 2-3 times mouth or nose height. quite an improvement ^_^

just chat with my friend and realise raven's group is doing tip too. thats good. damn it seems damn fun. but i feel that programming iphone application isnt that easy. i have no idea sdk works but if you can test it on your computer and you can see the result when coding then it should be quite ok. xna is different. xna has no design view. so its slightly different from what we have been doing. if i didnt do my internship on the first sem, most likely i will solo tip now. serious LOL. can we submit xna projects? LOL!@

i feel people who set standards in life sucks. they are people who think they know everything but they dont. theres once someone told me, guys shouldnt eat veges, eat more meat. you shouldnt like this kind of girl, because shes dumb. guys should do this, guys should do that. girls should do this, girls should do that. dont you find it annoying? in the first place who are they to judge our decisions. they think that they are smart but they arent. if people live in their standards, then their life is fucking boring. then our life is pretty much restricted. we only live once, why make it so boring? which leads me to 1 question. dont you think ris low haters are fucktards? who in this world set this standard that humans cant make mistakes? be it big or small, making a mistake is inevitable. in the past i also make a mistake. a huge mistake. even til now i cant forget it. that mistake took so much things away from me, my image, my courage, everything. even celebrities make mistakes. theres no such thing as perfection. give you a string and ask you to cut 1 cm long. yes it seems 1 cm. but no matter how good are you it will be 0.00...1cm deviations.

just saw a very interesting video. it begins with a teacher saying god is evil because god created evil. a kid stood up and said does cold exist? teacher said yes. the kid said, in physics, cold doesnt exist, its the voidness of heat that create cold. its true. u see in planet structure, pluto was the coldness because its furthest from sun so im quite sure the default temperature is very low degrees. its the sun that brings up the temperature. so he continued asking the teacher, does darkness exist? teacher said yes. the kid said its the voidness of light that create darkness. which also make sense. when sun isnt shining at earth then earth is in darkness. so it also make sense that in reality everything is in darkness. and he proved his point that evil doesnt exist because there is voidness of god's love in his heart. for which i have to disagree. to begin with, there is low or no studies on existence of god. if god created human, i have to agree that he is smart. he knows what organs we need in a body. there is no organs in us is bad. but god create disease and death to punish the wrong doers. which makes no sense. god create disaster to kill innocent people. god create pandemic to kill innocent people. why are we the one punishing bad people. why arent god punishing them himself? and why is there a story of king of hades punish wrongdoers? does that means king of hades, karma, is the god? in this world, its hard to define good and bad. when you stand at "bad" people point of view, you will think that they are good people, and they just want to punish their enemy which is our good people. how to draw a line to that. and they end the video saying that guy is Albert Einstein. which kinda questions me. did he really said that, its an insult to him. for who a man, who is so logical, someone who proves things, directly says that god exist in the first place without proving. and then he further say god loves exist in one's heart when love is intangible. total insult to an absolute genius. the agenda of the video is to convert people? serious fk the person who create this video. total insult to one's intelligence. then your god should punish you for telling not just 1 person, but everyone, lies. fked up agenda

some updates to my SP project

Black Label : Ultraviolet Edition

2009-09-29T11:45:00.003+08:00

i realise direct pipe design doesnt suit my gpu since its too small and heat transmission isnt as efficient as 1 flat surface. so i decided to use back my stock fan. but i kinda made good use of the ram sink and paste it at chips area too. pictures to explain why.

therefore, i wont be changing the parts inside as for now. stopped opening my case for some time except for cleaning. Did some final modification like changing the led light. previously was blue and red (hdd). i remove red and swap position to blue. and SOLDER it with led. and i mean it. solder. now my power led is white. ownage. thou it is ugly because the soldering iron is too thick but it works :)

Finally Night Shots

Updates

2009-09-26T23:51:00.005+08:00

More updates on my Project SP.
FAQ Session
Q: Who gave you this assignment?
A: No one. it is an assignment assigned by myself

Q: then why bother wasting your time, its not like u will be credited?
A: nah i love to learn things and make most of my time useful rather than begin a fucktard who constantly FBing, gaming, surf net and die. credited or not i dont really care. if i couldnt make the graphic nice then i wont even bother sharing this game with people.

Q: Aint programming no difference from that?
A: Yes and no. yes that you have to sit infront of your com but no because it it gets boring after time. but No because im trying to maintain a good lifestyle. exercise, avoid snacks, eat veges. so the main difference is the addiction. one is addictive and one isnt

Q: Sch gonna reopen in 3 weeks time, do you think you will complete by then?
A: Definitely no. its way too wide scale. but neither will i abandon my work aside. i will continue coding it when im done with my fyp project or when im sick of doing my fyp project. Even if im done with the skeleton, i have to redo the graphics which requires even more time.

ok end of faq. im very looking forward to sch reopen. i cant really explain why haha. 5months of separation from my cliques, i notice although their personality are the same but something has changed. they seems alien to each other. haiz.

but maybe this sem is a good time to show my skills now. i always been hiding behind ys shadow. his skills always overshadow mine. so much so that whenever i came up something, people suspect that it wasnt my work. which is very saddening. like ipt project, im definite that my teacher wasnt convince it was my work which explains why i didnt get A for it. if i say im the one who came up the while loop for return change who believes?

who wants to be my FYP 4th member :)

results!

2009-09-18T09:58:00.008+08:00

wahahah! let me boast once more. thats my first AD afterall. thought im gonna leave this sch with no ads. the funny thing is these few days i dont have this bad feeling which i normally will. i was kinda worried i would get b+ and one b+ means 3.5 for 5 modules which isnt funny. but i told myself its ok to get b+ since i do not have any plans to go uni. i kinda thought internship doesnt have ad anyway so when i woke up, my sis was hinting me. i was damn tired and cant be bothered to think that much. she told me what if i get ad, i told her internship doesnt have ad one. when i login and check. i was like wdf LOL. now then i realise what shane told me was true. if you have put in effort, even thou working sucks, when you see the A in ur result slip, its worth it. after what i haven been through, compliments, scoldings, hardship from ndp, slackship when really nothing to do because i complete them too fast, it would kill me not to see at least an A. for that i gonna treat my family for lunch at crystal jade with my capitaland vouchers WOOO LOL

ok what i did 2 days ago. my xna program that is.

its a very basic game. im reading through the book and kinda modify it with what i know so far. now i know how to create a so called timer using if statement. what im doing now is ever 2 seconds, the speed will + 1 so it gets faster and faster. negative means traveling at negative direction. and i added if value = negative, speed -- so the number will constantly "increase". interesting huh :D

im learning class next. kinda forgot how to apply class lol! im thinking how to do the collision part when fighting. especially for modes like free for all. if i code it in team 1 and team 2 then it might be easier? maybe need a class for modes too mmm. suddenly i realise, how to do the pushing LOL. like when 2 people are running headon, when one speed is higher than another then obviously faster guy will push slower guy back. mmmm need to research more. dont think sp is a tile like game. more like vector based. mmm. so for the directions. i just thought something good. if radian gets negative, i just have make it a positive value! that is, [2pi - (negative value * -1)]. in degrees its like -30degrees = 360-30 = 330. if radian gets more than 2 pi then i just have to subtract 2 pi. so if it overshot 360degrees it will refresh back to 0-360 degrees. not sure if it works but gonna try it soon!

YEA BABY. thats my computer's name MAN. supposed to show this when i have taken the photo of my desktop but seems like i dont have any chance to take it at night. and i made a background specially for it. YEA BABY. Black Label: Ultraviolet Edition. its a flame that so hot that it turns white and slight blueish. thats the theme of my desktop man white and blue. super unique theme

SP

2009-09-15T17:44:00.006+08:00

i call it. the revival of survival project. LOL! i managed to complete weapon selection, upgrading and leveling in a window form. and im sure it will work out the same in game. now i need to figure out 4 things.

1) is how to do animation. seeing the example, their animation is in 1 png and they are separated in frames. so im curious how to generate that to become that.

2) next is real time. real time as in how to do a timer, and a speed control. speed control like SP attack speed. increase frames speed and reduce frame speed.

3) next is the directions. i started on this last semester but im stucked as they do not refresh. the problem lies at the type of calculation. it is not like ordinary degrees. instead it is in PI. i want it to be like when they reaches specific point thou i have coded it to refresh. like when they faces top 0'c, turning 1 circle become 360'c. and i want it to refresh back to 0'c. but it will continue 361'c which isnt the way i want. lets refresh our memory of PI? 0 is at west. pi/2 is turn anti clockwise to north and pi is anti clockwise west. see i still remembers my amath. u know last night while doing this thing i figured something about circle formulas. circumference of circle is DiameterXPI which also 2RadiusX PI. but isnt 2XPI = 360degrees. i.e. 360 degrees X Radius = circumference? rofl. sphere maybe i need time to figure it out. but let me show u all 1 more thing. another forumla which i memorise back then and im sure more than 60% of the ppl didnt figure it out. dy/dx area of circle = circumference of circle. do u know? dy/dx pi R^2 = 2piR. and it doesnt end this way. dy/dx volume of sphere = surface area of circle. dy/dx 4/3 pi^3 = 4pi^2. who says we need formula sheets?

4) lastly is the pixel collision. the pixel collision i have learned is in rectangles which isnt very good for this kind of game. because there is a need to be precise. you cant put a man with sharp corners and when people miss him but the sprite hit the corners and he receive dmg. thats ridiculous. lastly is the AI script. for started i will try to create skeletons as enemy, endless of spawn. when im pro enough i will try to create same character that can hold cards and i can set difficulty. and im thinking how to link it to database so that i can continue saving and play. interesting right LOL. yea maybe when im even better i will do multiple players? LOL! k time to read more about xna

looking at forums about sp. wow good old days. so many people dying to revive it but no hosters are willing to get it. this whole concept is really good. i kinda generated some changes to the whole game. my friend also gave me some ideas last time

just like usual quest but now. 20 people quest. harder boss and better reward. just like wow raiding.

changes to magic.
fire - usual fire magic, single projectile size changes upon level, high in dmg
water - range type projectile just like level 1, and explodes when hits object. aoe dmg - area changes upon level
wind - straight line magic that can pierce through wall and to end of the map, single target. speed and area of "beam" changes upon lvl
earth - usual earth magic, aoe around char

changes to leveling
one reason why sp doesnt last long was lv 9 can be reached easily. gamers especially likes challenge. thou 5% is hard, in long run its possible. so sp end up to be a short game. once lvl 9 nothing new. so 1% or even 0.1% is a must to make a game to last. thinking of 20lvls mmm

pet wasnt a good idea in the first place as it interferes battle and it can at your disadvantage too.

customize char is good. im think how to enchant this area

im thinking of making the 4 core weapons have some turning speed adjustment, mmm

My Path

2009-09-04T11:40:00.007+08:00

been thinking which path to take for some time. i seriously dont want to work in it line thou i have some knowledge of it. art is my interest but work is for survivability. and also work requires me to think deep. hybrid is good but i will delay the whole process. by then i have no idea if i have the interest or the attitude to pursue art. down side of work is capital and degree of certainty and as for art is time, lots of time to master. advice anyone?

went to vivo after helping davin pc. damn i almost wdf when helping him lol. stock fan sucks totally. anyway i met jill (internship friend) there wdf LOL. kinda unexpected but still i rather choose to avoid being recognized. went to onepage to read up on graphic design. very interesting. i kinda stumble upon a few art which they took from a local artist? this artist kinda show his art at most of the forums so i kinda notice thou there is a few bad critics over it. i kinda decided my style of art if i want to pursue this line. i want to master typography, vectors, photo manipulation. typography to me its like an art that speaks billions of words. a lot of hidden meanings and its very cool. vectors is something different. the book i saw was them using 10 basic shapes. all they do is addition deduction overlapping, inverse overlapping of shapes to form a picture. very very unique. photo manipulation is a challenge for me. although its the first thing i learned when i started using ps, but its the range of stocks i have that restricts my creativity. and i believe people who does this field have to learn some knowledge of photography which i dont. maybe in future i might want to try 3d rendering, illustration? mmm

lalala i kinda like my rig more LOL. its damn nice. changed the pink/purple lighting to white. thou i kinda like pure white but seems like white fan kinda forgot speed so i gonna leave all of my blue fans there. i will show the picture once im done with the changes. look at the airflow picture. there are actually 9 +1 fans. the +1 is at the back. but if i add graphic card fan then there are 12 fans. quite a lot of them LOL. as you can see here is 2 duo fan. it will increase the airflow and kinda cool down the air inside. thou i have no idea if the fan below will do any side effects. water cooling system looks cool but i have little knowledge of it and its like damn dangerous if spill and quite costly. but it requires less cleaning i think. kinda wonder how often do they do maintenance

might be changing my graphic card heatsink to battle axe. mmm wonder if it will void the warranty. and also if my mouse gonna spoil(diamond back still works damn well lmao), i might be changing to Lachesis phantom white. chio max! totally fit the whole theme. til then!

Kite Festival

2009-08-31T18:18:00.005+08:00

last weekend there was this kite festival at wcp. its been years since i flew kites? and i swear some of the kites there were nice. the funny thing was they gave out free kites that couldnt really fly well. lmao gonna show some pics

this is the only photo which you can see my kite. its super small, 45 degrees top right of the red octopus

hehe my kite is damn small and its made of paper. its simple but quite easy to start off. last time it can go so high until you cant even spot it. lmao a few unique designs but i like the seahorse and the dragon the most

might be getting my testimonial this week.

finished 1 chapter of illustrator. illustrator is features are very well thought of. now its like what you want you can get. but im still used to photoshop pen tool's selection. and im thinking how to reconvert anchor points to single anchor which is easier to modify though you forgo smoothness of the shape. most likely gonna use illustrator for bryce fencing tshirt because tshirt printing should stick to less amount of colour and vector is scalable in size

certain times i feel that im quite useless. haiz

Black Label

2009-08-26T17:18:00.006+08:00

yea added 3 sets of vinyl stickers. found them at bugis street. took me a long time to find them. and too me a long time to decided which to take. managed to imagine the whole layout and bought these. glad that it fits and it looks way better than i thought. as for the ccfl lights, yea kinda sad that it wasnt as dark as i thought. too pinkish and it was purple? rofl. damn should have went for the blue ones.

trying to bring down the whole rig temp as low as possible but it seems to be harder than i thought. after all the modification there is like no improvement? i took the bottom air filter and put it at 5.25 bay then use HACKSAW to cut away the excess part so that it fits. then rip off the honeycomb for more air flow. im still wondering why is all of my hardware temp higher than everyone else -_-. gpu idle 60 leh wdf. processor idle 37 wdf? blah i give up

thank god i managed to complete my iap report. so its the end of iap. i kinda unhappy with the whole last minute thing. shant talk about it. period. better dont see the person next sem or i shall rant. summarizing the whole iap? dark - sara - rig research - fuck no more sara - bought rig - intern lunch - 2 months of boredom - freedom.

ok shall talk about something i thought of during the weekends. people always say wow time pass quickly. even at that period they think its damn slow, a few days later, after they think of it again, its kinda fast actually. why is that so? i ponder for a while and my guess for this is. the way we memorize things are in frames, we dont memorize thing in full sequence e.g. videoing the whole process. so each time we think back, its in frame. this picture, then this then this. so in another words, there is no "real time". its like we kinda fast forward everything. and as days go by, some of these frames slowly vanish, leaving the important frames. so we only remember bits and pieces of images. try videoing your whole day process, and watch it. you will realize what is "real time". so does time pass quickly? no its the same.

ok my incoming plan is exercise MOOOAR and LEARN flash and illustrator and do a raving rabbids desktop wallpaper.

Upgrade Complete

2009-08-17T08:44:00.025+08:00

Before Upgrade

After Upgrade

What changes?
i have changed my monitor to wider one
changed the side fan grill to aluminum mesh
changed my stock fan to thermalright ultra 120 extreme aka TRUE
added a fan controller
added 4 more led fan and remove 1 non led fan.
did a fair bit to cable management. reroute them to the back
remove redundent stuff like 2 esata at the back which i dont think i will need it now

Current Specs

Type	Name	Cost ($)
Monitor	Dell Ultra Sharp 2209WA	329
Casing	Cooler Master 690	139
Mainboard Processor	Gigabyte EP45-UD3P Quad Core 9400 2.66hz	572
RAM	Kingston DDR2 800hz 2GBX2	76
Graphic Card	Palit 4870 1GB Sonic	329
Harddisk	Seagate 500gb 7200rpm	89
PSU	Corsair HX520W	149
DVD Writer	Samsung Sata DVDRW	32
Heatsink	TRUE	99
Additional Fans	CM Blue LED X4	48
Keyboard	Razer Lycosa	125
Fan Controller	Lian Li Fan Controller	65
Mouse	Razer Diamondback	69
Headphone	Razer Carcharias	129
Total Damage:		2250

Ok i think i can eat bread for rest of my life. LOL jkjk. hopefully this rig can last for 3 years or more.

kinda happy with my selection of hardwares. i7 to me is way too expensive. somemore i can still upgrade to core2 extreme which i think it fits in too and its on par or better than i7 i think. and as for the mainboard it has so many features that makes me think it pwns asus and msi even now. i have seen this review of i7 best asus gigabyte and msi mainboard. gigabyte was 4.5/5 and others was 4. so what if the colour sucks, its the features that is important (just like human, wa she so pretty, sure very nice, lj perception). back then ati 4870 was quite expensive and the cheapest was palit so i went for palit. duo fan is good. kingston ram, mmm not intending to overclocking. corsair psu because its modular so it gives efficient energy and it has very good review. maybe the only thing i bought wrongly was my dvd driver. they say samsung sucks, lg ftw. oh well, i dont think i will be burning and reading many cds

The End

2009-08-15T08:29:00.002+08:00

everything must to an end. and im glad it did. still remember the first 3 days i almost cried because the days are so dark. literally too (raining days, so it kinda contributed to my mood). i remember the first day i walk out of the gate, everything was like crashing down. i seriously regret choosing iap back then. but i kinda told myself, i have to eat my words. every week count down. no idea how is it going to end but look forward to the end. everything is good except that job scope doesnt fit my intj personality. everyone was shocked that it was my last day and they blessed me. and so many of them dont mind refereeing me in future. its the thoughts that counts, i believe in future i would be forgotten so i dont think you all will remember me helping you guys. nevertheless thanks.

my happiest day when working probably is the 4th week. read this

i must thank robert for being so kind as he knew i wasnt doing anything yet he didnt scold me, calvin jeremy joe francis for teaching guiding and crack me up everyday, jenny blandine james cassandra for taking care of me, sharon for the curry puffs, nora for endless of compliment on my looks LOL! yewkong for being caring whenever i helped him. and a lot more. ps if i name everyone's name that i have troubleshoot before, your balls sure shake, i think near 150+ of them LOL!

ok the plan for today. go down sls to settle my heatsink. gonna get a fan controller hopefully kazemaster ace, then thermalright ultra 120 and a few led fans. and i dont think i will modify my rig anymore. then i will take a new picture, putting more details to it.

Final

2009-08-08T20:44:00.004+08:00

finally, my last week of internship. kinda disappointed thou, because my ro just so happen to clear leave on that week. so he wont be seeing him. he just unwilling to let me go. which kinda annoys me. anyway i kinda worried that i cant get my testimonial since he wont be around. i think i gonna ask jenny or my big boss to write for me if possible. will i miss work. actually my answer is the same as all the interns here. nope. maybe working here is a huge step for us. big company, more workload. for anyone who havent taste what is working about would have the idea of not wanting to work in future anymore. not sure if i should really get them anything :\ tomorrow is the last training of ndp too. some of them are really nice. but also i see the darkest side of human. nevertheless it is quite ~~tiring~~ fun

started watching my illustrator training video. can say i have learnt a few useful interface tips that i didnt noticed after using ps so long lol. but watching it is straining but not as straining as ebooks.

mmm im thinking of adding more fan into my desktop. seems to have poor airflow inside. easily collect dust. a stupid question hits me. which side of fan is intake/exhaust. both side got wind coming out siol. smlj!!! LOL! LED lights maybe! colourful~~ fyi my monitor has changed to dell 2209wa. owning colour <3. big like lau sai. nicely la lol

sorry noobcakes. no art for so long. maybe after i have completed my internship report then i will start on AI.

seriously look forward to go back school. i must be crazy

Updates

2009-06-21T16:07:00.004+08:00

last post was terribly short because i didnt jot down what i want to say. luckily i managed to remember some. anyway let me start off with some of my works. been doing marcus fyp website. here is it

kinda simple design. he doesnt want it to look too exaggerating. but kinda dun like it as i didnt put in any pictures. so it looks a bit cartoonish. but the stocks doesnt have any suitable image for it. oh wells

another design i did a few weeks ago. it is for my bit forum what do you think? i received a vary of comments. some say it sucks and some say it is very nice. why? this is called colour biasness. because lime green yellow and black isnt a common combination. once you find it quite ok i think you have stood out of the colour biasness area. i didnt do the layout. i only do the banner and the colours for the individual sections(header font etc) i like it very much just that it doesnt have our logo because its not done. last time i have this biasness too. thatd y all of my work has 2 colour only. which is black and white. but until i realise the power of colours. so yea what do you think of it.

tada my desktop. specially make a screensaver just for this shoot. its a very nice heart shape in a whirl using apophysis. actual one is red colour but since my table is full of blue stuff(DAMN STUPID MOUSE IS RED LOL!) sobs should have chosen the blue one last year. emo siao

ok back to discussion. my favorite part lmao. because its like sharing my story or knowledge. ok scissors paper stone. its a simple game that supposed to have 3 outcome. win lose draw or scissors paper stone (it's how you view it) but does it means 33% one will choose scissors? obviously no. i believe stone has one of the highest percentage. how do you play this game? a game of luck? or a game of strategy? my play style is strategy. i call it, labeling. i will label people knowledge to their choice. simple minded and extremely complicated person as stone. slightly smart as paper. and smart as scissor. that's all, nothing more nothing less. the fact that scissors is the most dangerous choice as stone has the highest percentage. so normally i will be careful when gauging one is just simple or slightly smart. interesting right. but it only works on the first round but normally i will try to 1 hit ko the person.

have you seen the facebook quiz regarding how many % of your brain is used? its a interesting quiz i swear. people are happy because they use 93% of their brain. how deep do they think? i dunno sia, certain times i see that quiz i really want to laugh. ok enough of crap. in short. if you are dumb and you get 93%, you cant get any smart can you? its like your age = 93%. so + 1-5 more years, you cant receive any knowledge anymore. so if you are damn fucking smart, you get 10%+, do you know what is multiplier? you can own everyone dip dip. lmao did you think of this?

maybe im thinking too far. many people primary goal is to earn a lot of money and buy this and that. but that has never been my primary goal. maybe because i have yet to see the importance of money. money was my secondary goal. but salvage to earth is the primary. yea. my current plan is earn money then salvage the world from all forms of catastrophe. im looking at the bigger image day by day. omg

my aunt got some kind of cancer. pity that family seriously. sometimes i look at them and im thinking why are we so fortunate. although it can be cured, but based on their financial conditions, i dont think they can last long. both of my cousin failed their o lvl english and yet they dont want to do anything about it. one of them even said, why are we so lucky. beats me too. maybe they arent working hard enough.

the recession has hit my family quite a bit. my dad work has reduced to thrice a week. so im thinking of a plan. a good business plan that will set a foundation before i go army. and if possible, it will be the source of money for my future business plans. mmm

Reason things out

2009-06-06T01:12:00.006+08:00

been thinking of some debate these days. one of them is about priority seats in any transportation. it begins to be a common topic that i think i should reason things out. this reasoning may be unjust and selfish but certain facts must be brought up. no prejudice against anyone. ok here's the deal. one day u sat on a priority seat. then everywhere was full. then a pregnant woman just so happened to stand infront of u. what will u do. logically u will say yes i will give away ur seat. but truth is you have yet to experience this kind of feeling where by u want to reason things out. like ok im alighting in a few stops so i think i should sit first then give away to her. that is what happened to me one day while going to work. i was damn tired. i rest, closed my eyes. and when i opened my eyes. boom a pregnant woman infront of me. first came into my mind, should i give away seat? but im at XXX, i should wait until ZZZ (2 stops away) then give away my seat. yes im selfish.

2nd deal why is people sitting at priority seat gets the blame. like what they say, initiatives? how is my priority seat superior than your common seat? why cant people of aoe 2 seat get blamed too. why must the person directly infront get the blame? i seriously see no effects of this priority seat campeign. today i took mrt. you know what i noticed? everyone siamed the priority seats. people just dont want to end up being flamed at stomp. and so they go common seat, thinking they have no responsibility to these people who need the seats more.

3rd deal, a law that totally assumes one's fault. when a car behind bang the car infront, its the car behind gets the blame regardless if front car is at wrong. in short, isnt these people is to be blamed if incident occurs? like why do u want to go out when u are pregnant or injured or old and frail? maybe you can reason things out saying visiting hospital. if not, i dont see why the person should go free.

4th deal, a simple math equation. 1 = 1. this equation can be further expanded into 0.1 + 0.2 +0.3 + 0.4 = 0.1 + 0.2 + 0.3 + 0.4. and it can further expanded into smaller numbers. but no matter what you still get 1 = 1. so what am i drawing into. if we must have the initiative to give away seats, shouldn't they have initiative to ask for seat too? in business law, i know there's such thing as duty of care. but obviously there is no clear duty of care. its not like we are paid to assure their safety (crude thinking D:). humans fears rejections a lot. maybe that's why guys hates to take the first step? imagine, the train is full of people. you are handicap and you ask one person for a seat. high chances that you will get the seat. why? stress factor from surrounding. they reject you, thousands of eyes would be staring at you. and because you need a seat more, maybe after first rejection, another person would give in his/her seat. a simple theory like that yet no 1 noticed it. so dont you think they are also responsible for their safety too?

last deal, the lame factor. have you ever seen people rejecting seats when offered? yea i have seen it before. its damn weird. obviously they need the seat more but they rejected the offer. so what do you think?

this week really sucks. i did damn lot of stuff. im like damn busy the whole week. cheap labour and we are doing OT. my friends with higher pays are doing nothing. what i have learned? office politics.

next week is pc show. mmm razer carcharias?! 2 air filter?! usb fan?! maybe monitor?

felt like some bangla LOL. go ndp go swimming. now im super tan. oh no. and my hair is getting browner and browner. damn i prefer black >_>

Like... WDF?

2009-05-30T10:34:00.003+08:00

ok let me teach u guys some stuff about picking someone using graphic card as an example. i was thinking of this while working LOL! Graphic card theres 4 factors to consider (from my point of view, yawn i ish no pro so it might be more). graphic quality, frame memory?, price, and other additional functions. Graphic quality is like how good is the graphic. ATI and GVidia graphic quality is normally determined by the last 3 digits. the 4th digit i think is the series. 3rd digit is the quality. e.g. ATI 4800 > 4600. but GVidia has new series which has 3 digits only so you look at 2nd digit. i.e. 285 > 260. Next would be frame memory. i dont really know is it really called frame memory or what. it like it can transfer how much memory per frame. so your graphic doesnt lag that badly. then price. you should know. additional functions, mmm from what i know some graphic cards has special functions. some has more fans. some has crossfire which i dunno what is that for LOL!. ok so whats the deal with graphic cards and choosing someone. imagine. you want to find a gf. these are the 4 factors u will look for. graphic quality as how good looking she is. frame memory as personality. like when you are in trouble, how much she will help. price as how easy for you to get her. and additional functions as other factors that attracts u such as talent? rich background? etc.

so one day you go 1 shop. HI I ISH WANT BUY GRAPHIC CARD. ok man this GVIDIA 285 graphic card for j00!!! WOW ISH IT FOR FRUEEEEE?! yup yup. OK LIAOS. so you go back and slot into your desktop. WOW SO CLEAR SIA. then u play game. WDF WHY ISH I LAGGING MAN. then you realise WDF 256ghz nia(ok la this is made up, actual 285 frame rate is 1k+). NO ADDITIONAL FUNCTIONS. FUCK LIAO WASTE TIME. yawnz my point is cheap stuff doesnt mean is good. looks nia LAWL PWNED

still thinking when to get razer carcharias! nao or pc show. maybe pc show got some free stuff. maybe getting usb fan to double fan my desktop. then get 2 air filter. inside get dusty real quick. 1 week and i will see 1 coat of dust. >_>

yawnz

2009-05-25T11:13:00.003+08:00

no art for these days. interim report for next 2 weeks so yea no art NAO! unless there is request. a standstill for my cca website and marcus website. one no logo, another no photos. so no reference. :)

Disaster

2009-05-18T09:33:00.008+08:00

yesterday i went to a wedding of my relatives. it was quite disastrous. i was the door opener. it was fine at that time. then the jiemeis have to play tricks on the bridegroom. so the first part they have to give red packet. after opening the red packet, they realise inside almost all of them are fake one, they practically photocopied one side of the notes. inside only have 28bucks then they are like damn pissed off. so the jiemeis dropped the money on the ground. they demanded for more if not cant go in. then they shut the door. then the bridegroom became to be pissed off and shouted. and sounded as if hes force to this wedding. my mum says ahya let them in. shes quite fed up too. i was thinking. even if i am the bridegroom's brother, i will open up my wallet and take out 2 50bucks and give the bridegroom. i was thinking, if i ended to be a very rich guy or a designer. i will make my wedding very unqiue :)

anyway im doing some programming again! like never ending. need to program for
marcus - www.thefatandthin.com
my bitspin cca - www.bitspin.110mb.com (will be getting a domain name later)
my sis - no url (pending)
and i have 1 WIP work - the goodvsevil
wordpress cms im still not good at it. but flatpress i already begin to do it. its pretty much of css code just that i have to find where is it. but because the template is quite fixed and it uses php which i know a bit so the design part will be quite restricted

i have decided to drop the idea of designing one for myself. because i like my blog's one and the coding part is much more flexible. some of the coding for the flatpress is quite strict. like if i put image, i must put the length and width and it has to be in px instead of %.

anyway 4e3s, marcus is holding his birthday celebration at west coast part on 31st 4pm. I ISH KNOW ALL MISS MEI! LOL! kk time to do my iap stuff

happy birthday

2009-05-12T19:56:00.003+08:00

yay today is my birthday. NOT. apparently 97% of them have forgotten it. 3% are, xiulai, marcus and yongsoon. yay i love u all LOL!!! this year supposed to be a special day but ended up to be a brainless boring day. it was both mother's day and my chinese birthday too. ( the same day as lunar calendar as you are born). urgh! me ish sad

InfluX

2009-05-11T22:08:00.004+08:00

Influx - Action of flowing in.

Theme: Fantasy
Main Color Scheme: Black, White, Purple, Orange
Best Resolution: 1280X1024
Browser: Mozilla Firefox/Google Chrome

Duration: <1 week
Software used: Photoshop, Dreamweaver

Comment: Went for my favourite genre which was fantasy. Fantasy to me is like boundless. A Genre of Wow and huh. Do comment on the skin. Thanks

Images

2009-05-02T09:13:00.005+08:00

4 days of break and yet i hardly use my first 3 for my art. what a shame. anyway some updates before i prepare to go school for my cca's succession planning

Then some pictures of MA DESKTUUUUUUUP

As you can see im working on my floor. kinda poor thing LOL!. imagine playing dota on floor. 15mins the ground pwn me deep deep before i pwn people deep deep LOL! you see my headphone. i actually warp tissue around the ear lining or w/e you call it. it seriously kills the edge of my ears after wearing it too long.

thats the casing. cm690 with 3-4 fans and dunno how many exhuast

thats the inside. dun dare to open it again. took me sometime to find out where to put the fan after the wiring came off thanks to me

its kinda weird that everytime i went to facebook i will spot this

Little do i know so many ppl actually loves my pet ROFL! how to remove this application i wonder. quit hugging my pet or HE+SHE WILL EAT YOU. RAWR!

ndp

2009-04-25T07:22:00.006+08:00

27/4 - npd was ok but this month wasnt that good because it quite hot. its like HI im back to npcc. funny thing is that when they say break, they mean long break. i think because there are a few old people so 30mins is a must have.

2nd thing, i go iap just to assure myself i have some standard in bit. i didnt come here expecting a sure shot A. neither do i care if i get an A. so i still can xialan if i want

got a new desktop last sunday. dyi one also. just cant trust those package types. because their parts arent that realiable. so stuff i got kinda expensive. but the idea was good and long run. did 1 week research and the day before i researched until 2am before i went to sleep. so what i got myself:

mainboard - gigabyte something 45 something P
processor - int quad 9400 - 2.66ghz
graphic card - palit 4870 1ghz
harddisk - seagate 500gb 72000 something
psu - cosair hx 520pw
casing - coolermaster 690
2X ddr2 kingston 800hz 2gb ram
+ razer lycosa
total damage 1.5k
currently it feels kick ass lol. damn fast. sadly i cant use full 4gb due to xp 32bit. but i think its better than vista 32bit. but still facing this problem. how am i supposed to open a microsoft documents?! LOL

another random fact. i dunno why im dying to put it here. everyday when i board mrt, i will see sara photo. and what i will say to myself is, hi sara, bye sara. its not i had a crush on her or something, but it feels so much better to see someone you actually knows. it feels damn terrible working here. i feel so old working here. old and weak. and im sick again. 2 times within 2months. i dont get sick that often in school. its like 2years once or twice. 7hr per day is no joke for me. usually i have 9-10hrs!! even my body clock has changed. i cant stay asleep after 9am. sian. school started for a few weeks. felt so apart from my friends. haiz

Leave me no more

2009-04-04T15:33:00.008+08:00

Kinda brainstormed this idea while working since i have so much time. anyway, its good to practice more. Wanted to do more typography but knowing my english sucks and no idea what to start with, i kinda drop the idea. typography is damn cool if you have a concept and what sentence or phrase you want to use. The idea is to say that human have unlimited wants. certain times you are in a dilemma, whereby there is no win-win situation, you have to forgo one to move on. reason for choosing cake is because cake generally are soft. you have to bear the consequences for what ever choice you made. what is done is done.

fyi for those who are boarding mrt these few days, you will see this the little red dress advertisement. doesnt the girl looks familiar? yea shes sara. haha i kinda ponder over days until i saw her DA. ok peace out.

5/4/09 - wow i spent a lot today. not to mention i even gave this china guy 80cent for free. come on la im a nice guy lmao. anyway i was window shopping at jp. so i went to court and take a look at their laptop. can say that im shock to see so many hp compaq and accer. im like wow people are around cheating each other lmao. im pretty much traumatise by my hp and compaq laptop. seriously explains why its the lowest among the reliability chart. where is the asus? then went to popular. they had this offer that really sicken me. i was looking for game book at 9.90. so i took one of them and they scan the thing. 23+. so im like wdf so i ask why is it not 9.90. so they went to check. they say only some got the offer. im like wdf?! its like more than 50% discount. thats how the business works? all of them are of equal thickness. how is that book superior than this? totally pissed me off. he still dare to bring those 9.90 books to me. im like zzz u think my decision so easily change?

6/4/09 - i went to mcdonald. its been a long time since i eat that. so i went there alone. so i bought my food and looked for a seat. apparently it was quite packed. so i went to those long table whereby people share seats. so i approach this girl and asked if anyone sitting here. she said no. so i just sit and eat. btw shes nice looking and young. eat eat eat, got this feeling she was noticing me. like when i was watching tv, she was looking at me and tv. so im like ~_~! then eat halfway SUDDENLY SHE TALKED TO ME. IM LIKE HUH?! LOL! so shocked that i didnt catch what she said. she said do you work here. without thinking i said yea. then i realise 50 50. sometimes shenton sometimes newton. i didnt ask her back HAHA too shy=x. then she said going to rain. oh god shes the only 1 talking. so i offered to give her napkin because she didnt take. but she said nvm she will take it later. damn D: . then she smiled at me and said bye bye to me. im like WWEGRDHBRG?!? omgz i ish suck LOL. ok la that totally make my day. LALALA. she looks like evelyn but skinnier and fresh looking. her fringe. D:

anyway i saw quite a few people grades get damn high for ipt. ok i should rant. i get so high first test. its on par with bt and yet i get B? i seriously think was the project that made me and sh get B+. just because he didnt see us code it doesnt mean its not our effort. u see freaky fries concept is fresh and creative. i probably scored 30/30 for that la.i even made all the images USING VECTORS. no corping no adaption. pure vectoring. i even managed to complete way before everyone and before the FIRST deadline. how can he doubt my skills and thought i cheated somehow? thats like insult to my skills la. i seriously think he thought i get some ict people and do it for me. if not i see no way i can get a B+ for that module. come on somemore i ownself do mwa. u sure u want to doubt my programming skills? u think i leech on ys? i didnt even asked him any programming questions for that sem la zzz. damn pissed off. total insult. even if i cant get A for ipt, i dont see how sh cant. so has to be project. rawr! period

*ps result out so long now then angry, kinda stupid isnt it lmao*

end of 2nd week

2009-03-21T00:49:00.003+08:00

today got back my results. damn shock, lmao. i thought my cma might ended up with a c to b. because i did seriously badly for final paper. but maybe i got the relevant costing correct because no 1 managed to did it so i cannot confirm if my answer was right. anyway i got an A instead. so is my gpa is so high that i had nv get this high before. 3.70 lmao! it brought my average to 3.23 @_@!. but it also means that my parents will want me to go uni. which i might not intend to do so. after this attachment, if i got an A, i would have gotten 3.39,which is near 3.5. but i still dont want to spend my time on uni. haiz. see how it goes ba. shag to think about it.

after jy birthday, i dunno when is the upcoming event. i have nothing to look forward for these few days. maybe next labour day. then next to it should be celebration held by marcus. and im thinking, if sch starts, will the traffic be worst? like mrt and bus? omg -_-

quite tiring, its 2nd week out of 23. i see the schedule for iap. the deadlines. its so lame. so many sai kang. where got time to do sia. lmao. make video, by the 2-3rd month, i think i will be damn busy. so dont talk about 5 and 6th.

i thought of buying some game book to office. so that i can spend my time doing them. like those search for words, some mental calculation stuff. or bring my thumbdrive to read those flash or xna tutorial. if not i will be bored to death sia. then again, am i allowed to do that?

can i just swap with someone who wants 6months attachment and now doing 7weeks? regret siao lmao. miss my friends totally. now felt damn alien.

haiz the more i talk to u the more i felt that im wasting my time. i just want to rewind the time but no chance given. cant you chill?

mmmm?

2009-03-08T09:30:00.006+08:00

gonna work tmr so i dunno if i really have the time to blog anything. its been a long time since i post pictures so time to post them.

k this gif was requested by bryce. lol i had a few ideas on animating it but because he wants brycelovesyou so its kinda long for a small area. so the quality will be affected and there wont be sufficient space for it so i did a simple animation. a letter E looking for love. lol kinda cute. maybe too many frames so its kinda laggy D: . 80+ frames considered as many? i did over 100+ before D:. do take note, msn dp has this problem which is all the frames must be same speed. any variation, they will take the longest frame and display it. also learned about cs3 cant open gif file unless you go import>video to frames. then type *.* and load, then it will appear all the files. then it will calculate your gif image. but speed wise, they will generalise them as same.

a retarded game which im trying to copy from sp. the arc thingy is the melee effect. apparently i cant find the timer code so it last forever until the spaceship touches it. very hard to code them i swear. i still finding ways to code the rotation of character. the problem is that it is by radians. and the radians are very weird. it starts at East. and anticlockwise is Negative value and Clockwise = Positive value. Since when did i learn amath this way? ?_?! ok make it simpler. the range is infinite. its not within 0 to 360. meaning it can go -1 or 361. so its very hard to code rotation like SP's. oh well back to coding

jiankai has warned me. the hope has been dropped. i have to be careful then. mmm. maybe i should settle some ground rules to the person.

rawr

2009-03-02T16:40:00.004+08:00

yes rawr, just went to meet my RO. shes damn nice :). but i have to wear eh, SUPER FORMAL for sl's term lol! bought all of them yesterday. that gonna cost 1 month of my pay sobs. actually i begin to regret choosing iap. not because of the job. but because of my friends and i. maybe it is a good chance for me to exprience their "stressful" life. but fogoing my friends. some said yes you still can ask them out. but my working hour is until 6+ which they prolly went home by then. and also me myself is very rigid. i dont really like to adapt new environment. making new friends may be a hassle to me :\. the image now is like working in a tense environment. no fooling around. sobs.

ohwell gonna spending my 1 week learning flash just in case i really need this skill. 50+/400 pages now

IAP

2009-02-19T09:14:00.003+08:00

yes finally i have company. no interview surprisingly. anyway

Company name: The Ascott Group Limited
Working Hours: 8.30 - 6
Days: 5

the more i imagine, the more happier i am. ^_^ pigpig

Big production

2009-02-15T13:38:00.005+08:00

Ah a gif image i made. its meant for my msn. its for new msn so old msn will only see a black square. took me about 1-1.5hr. its quite simple but take me sometime to get inspiration and testing stuff. free transformation. how often do u use shew and perception. well this exercise i actually used both. shew is the moving action. and perception is moving it to an angle. can say its the first time i actually use them for my work. the quality kinda sucks after doing them. lol see the blurrish side of the "e". nevertheless it looks good to me. what about u?

and yes im going to make something big. something that will take sometime to complete. i just completed some outline of it. it will be called shiver blade. it will be a scene whereby this sword is abandoned in the arctic region. this sword shivers when wield. ok la shant elaborate. just like my art teacher said, every picture has a story behind. so maybe after the drawing i will talk about it. so why blade? because since small i always like to draw blade. lmao dunno why. the show FONG-YUN actually sparks my interest. so when i was around pri6 i kept drawing and drawing them in some corner. ._. anyway i have expanded it by 3X to make it easier for me to draw the details rather by pixels by pixels. so till then!

ok la i must be mad. exams around the corner and im slacking! D: damn how i wish i have wii to play the goo world. damn fun u know

actually i dunno what am i doing. certain times it like when u lost something, you feel like making up for it. and i doing that out of guilt? or for real? should i not waste my time?. cant believe i actually dreamt of it last night. maybe i brood too much. damn doomie, stop wasting ur time. stop being a pussy.

ohwell bleh need to go back sch on thursday for the iap briefing. lets hope that i dont get some random company from very very far. bleh!

Hungry Domo

2009-02-08T10:28:00.003+08:00

Something random that i drew last night. lol the idea came from domo kun and pudge. for those who doesnt know what is pudge, pudge is a hideous monster with a hook and he goes "Fresh Meat~" LOL. i know its kinda ugly =x i just want to practice tablet lol.

learned about additional brush function. now then realise the hardness thingy, which i dont think it really matters mmmm. then brushes and burn/dodge has different other effect for brushes. interesting indeed :)

war

2009-02-06T20:33:00.004+08:00

some asked me, if i would master designing or coding, which would i choose. i think most likely designing. mainly because designing has no boundaries. the thing about coding is that at start you might think theres no boundaries, but after you begins to master them, you will begin to see that eventually you will code the same way for every project. the only difference is the topic. but about designing, one day you can have this idea, another day you can have others. and its not like you can form the same art over and over again. both of course give me a sense of accomplishment. this idea hit me when i was helping people for codings. it feels like im doing the same type of codes over and over again.

saw a few wonderful artist these days in deviantart. they are Dianae and Alexiuss. Both of them have top few art in deviantart. Mainly Neurotic Indisposition and Nimue. But i think i prefer alexiuss one. His art may be dark but its very interesting. I really wish that i could reach their standard lol. The stage whereby nothing to something. Meaning you dont use brushes made by people but normal circle soft and hard brushes. So damn hard to use tablet =\. I tried to draw a cobra but end up the mouth wasnt proportion so i gave up. blah. i have to explore more about brushes. there is new function for brushes. like tilting etc. im shock when i saw alexiuss biography. he practice art when hes very young and now he's 24 only and he can draw very nice art. super jealous =\.

ipt proj

2009-02-03T18:11:00.005+08:00

tada, this is what i have been working on for the past 2 week. completed it a few days ago. all the pictures are made by me. credits to the person who created the gradient pack in deviantart thou no credit intended. very proud of it. HEHE LEMME BOAST A BIT OK? :) i also added a very cute music to it. very proud of my work. hehe what do u think? but then again im quite annoyed with the extension of deadline. talk about working in society. =\

anyways, very sad that after this sem, some of my friends will be splited. because some of them going 3.1 and some 3.2. maybe we should spend more time together. very sad that 2 siaokia are diferent sem as me sob sob lol. and worst to come, i had to go iap and likelyhood i will get into company with no 1 i know. i seriously hope they give me some good company whereby i can practice more photoshop or c#, or learn flash, dreamweaver which is very unlikely. hope that i dont do anything do with networking, i suck at them -_-.

Yay new year

2009-01-29T08:21:00.002+08:00

didnt had enough sleep. i only had 5-6hrs of sleep. neither can i make myself sleep even more. ahh i need 3 more hrs of sleep!!! i had been rushing my project last night. almost got angry because of the stupid sql statements. so many restricted fields so i tried until i almost gave up. but luckily i slowly filter out the problem and WALA solved. i bet many people would have gave up at the point of time lol. then many people talk to me. then i had to reply them. even my sis talked to me, and i ignored her lmao >_>. haiz kinda sad that no 1 is helping my another friend's group. 2 of the members cant really help much. or maybe at all. leaving him dangling with his so-so programming skills. but theres not enough time to rush since the deadline maybe is tomorrow. haiz zzz. oh well i might need to complete it asap and settle for him. disappointed the fact that because they didnt started and another friend doesnt want to help or maybe "do everything" consider the fact he has completed his. oh well =\. maybe some screenshots of the program when im done ^_^. damn cute i swear LOL!

mmm this year's new year was average. nothing much just that theres this small cute yellow birdy(CHIP CHIP!) always flew outside my house and i lost 4bucks in mahjong lmao. but still its nothing much because i almost did xiao 4 xi(small 4 happiness). what an accomplishment ^_^. maybe to me extrinic benefit isnt as important as intrinic. oh well ambitious me. first day of new year only went to my mum's side relatives. 2nd day stayed at home and relatives come to my house. ahhh why didnt my dad's friend come =(

IPT project

2009-01-12T09:06:00.004+08:00

a sneak preview of my project. although i did not tell my team mate my idea, but i chose to go my way. anyway at the end of the day i believe i will be the 1 contributing the most so i prefer doing it my way ^_^. selfish me.

mmm i think im a crazy person. i want to learn so many stuff. php coding, flash, dreamweaver, some illustration too. no idea why i came bit lmao. the irony is that, at the end of the day, i dont want to be an artist.

i begin to realise photoshop is like a soldier. brushes patterns gradients shapes are weapons. a soldier with lots of weapon doesnt mean he's pro. one who spam brushes like an idiot doesnt mean he's pro. sad to say brushes made by others arent your effort. but a solder with absolute skill without weapon cannot perform at his maximum.

in business terms, the final product isnt complete yet. maybe a few months time. but somehow it caught some customers' attention. invitation to treat, need to consider who to sell. just worried that it might not perform as expected.

both of my cousins got back their o lvl results. one retook his english. sadly to say both of them failed english with a score of e8. i think im the only who managed to escape from this deadly grip. even my elder sis isnt spared. i had no idea why my cousin is damn emo over a score of 17 for l1r4. its like a few points lose to me nia, just that she failed english. its not like e8 cannot get into any course. i bet they 2 are jealous of my family. we are so much better off than them, in terms of wealth and luck. sometimes i pity them =\

flower

2009-01-10T12:01:00.003+08:00

came across this interesting tutorial yesterday during my itlg lesson. i didnt realise feather can be this cool. so credit that guy. very nice flower imo. initially i did one overlay but i wanted to do another overlay on something else but it stacked together which makes the glow of the flower even nicer. instead of following his motion blur, i went for the radial blur. notice the bottem right petal's blur, its damn nice la omg lol.

anyway, damn shag when i see my results lmao. its like 1-2 marks to go another grade. lmao zzz. oh well enough said.
CMA = 74/100
BSD = 78.5/100
ITLG = 79 /100
SOM = 84/100
IPT = 91/100

still designing my ipt interface, the background looks cool. ^_^

School!

2009-01-08T07:43:00.003+08:00

yes i love schooling lmao. maybe i have been waiting for my results until im old or something. got back 3 of them. extremely disappointed. haha although some of them, im the highest in my clique, but im not satisfied lmao. its so disappointing that i dont really bother to memorise the marks. blah zzz. accounting i think i got 74? which i thought i would have gotten 90+? lmao. thanks to the theory. blah

another issue: just when i thought its over, its the beginning. the thing is, im not ready. just because everyone doesnt care but i care means something. totally confused

9th jan: lazy to remake another post since this post is damn short. got back another paper. surprisingly, those that i worried are those that im scoring well. and those that i think i did bloody well are those that i should be worried. cant help but to feel pissed off when i put in more effort than some bugger yet i "lost" or merely win them by 1 or 2 marks. grades are numbers that has no meaning but drives people crazy. ok la i might have sounded as if im some geek but i dont. i had never been serious with studies.

ok la i think imma gonna start my programming project soon so i need to design it mmm...

2009

2009-01-02T14:03:00.006+08:00

anyway 2009 means im running out of time. maybe i should give up my to-do before graduate list. not even 1 is completed. oh well. haha school gonna reopen soon. i just love school than holiday. SO i need to cut hair first LOL! since its the first post, resolutions for this year, to enjoy this year, and to be happy. :)

Ok just completed one wallpaper for myself. enjoy this Loving Peacock

Initially was black and white but i thought having some colour would look nicer so i added some some red orange and yellow soft brush. I love the heart shape created by the black and white feather.

Edit Edit!

2008-12-27T07:26:00.004+08:00

HELLO! many many christmas lol. Ok recently last thursday, i think, played mahjong with family at 9pm. LOL kinda crazy. although its a short 1hr session, i won like Did some simple editing for my NOOB friend haha. The power of clone brush. kinda suck at it because soft brush actually blends the area well but certain times it add areas that i dont want. solid brush will make the outline of cloning obvious so blah need more practice. And clone on same spot might cause blur-ness mmm.

HAHA i "de-industralise" the place and he says it looks like some plane runway. It still think its better without the gordon or something which he calls it, the cable thingy.

Ok thats him on the left LOL! Erm just to remove that blue guy from the background. A bit blurish at the brown area and i removed a rock which supposed to be behind that guy because i cant find a suitable rock to clone it so yea ~_~.

Copyright and Creative Commons

2008-12-21T17:37:00.002+08:00

Damn im supposed to avoid saying my daily life but i talked about it so frequently omg -_-. Ok whatever i shall declare, doomie will wash his hands from ine. they gave up the idea of the frisbee and captainball and now they want to do some random anti animal abuse thing. Its like omg? Cant believe my leader is easily "brainwashed" by some groupmate. shant use teammate anymore. No common goals then no team

Anyway i didnt show some art for sometime so i decided to show my ITLG so called the IT LAW module website. I spent more time on the design than the content LOL! supposingly to be a group work but i got bored at home and ys "thinks" its a hard topic to do when its like damn easy? Im partially done with the content. Feel free to drop commons because we need 10 of them at least LOL!!!. Comment on the content not the design LOL. Gain some knowledge ^_^. Ok here you go: Copyright and Creative Commons

Minor Updates

2008-12-13T23:59:00.003+08:00

Cleared the 2 papers. opinion on the 5 papers? (omg first time take 5 papers -_-) extremely straining but then again what strained me more isnt the paper but something else. Its like you had to study but something kept hitting u in the brain, making you restless.

Ohyea check this out ^_^

Hehe got selected for iap.

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